(Not) Layla Majnun
Mosaic 11

“Mas, why call here tho? I'm talking about Neng Nada... Samean Iki piye tho(How are you)?" I said with a little anger.

‘’No papa Nduk... Yesterday I called by the cabin number, nobody's connecting, right? 10 Times instead," he said.

I saw a disappointed look on his face. He was upset that he couldn't call me.

‘’Katah sing queue e mas phone (Many queue the phone)." Answer me, and my reasons too.

Actually, I accidentally didn't get the call, for a lot of reasons. Every time I get a phone call I ask my friend to tell me that I'm still showering, sleeping, or some other reason. Stopped, the phone stopped hoping to pick me up.

‘’That's all, not an excuse, just you, right?" asked Mas Albi as if he knew my thoughts.

‘’Mboten...Estu(No...Really)!"I answered immediately to cover up my lies.

"Yes, but why not come home tomorrow?" he asked again. Started interrogating.

He looked at me with eyes that could not see me. As if I wanted to know my answer soon. And again, to let him know if I'm lying or not.

‘’Once, last Ramadan here, year tomorrow don't know if it's still here, or not." Answer me with a grin .

‘’But, how come, yeah until the night of Lebaran? Mas, how'd you pick him up? You know that lebaran night, we must be bothered at home!‘’

There was a disappointed look on his face. I don't actually see him that way either. But I have to stay strong.

‘’I, home alone no papa, Mas. There was a group to Kediri that day. So Insya Alloh night takbiran I have reached home.‘’ I said trying to calm.

Mas Albi did not answer, just looked at me with a clear face. I knew he wouldn't have the heart, but this time I wanted to study on my own, without him, and not depend on him anymore. Let me learn without him.

‘’Do not, deck...I'm worried, Mother, you must be worried too... Did you pick up ngggeh?'’ Soft bargain.

Rebuking made me melt my heart, his sad eyes and also his worried face made my heart waver.

‘’Rombong must also mix santri putra as well. It doesn't even fit my mind deck (So anxious my mind)," he added, making me want to just resign.

I looked away, looking at the corner of the room. Trying to organize my heart that began to waver with my own desires. Breathe in and find the courage to try to resist.

‘’One time only, Mas. I want to go home alone. Many of the cement, kok.‘’ I said with a clear tone.

‘’You again have a problem, tho? Are you dating

? ik?Not tho, Nduk.... ‘’ Excitement does not accept with my answer.

‘’Mboten, Mas... Astaghfirullah.... ‘’ Reply me with patting jidat.

‘’Yesterday ask Mas same Mom, dad mantuk. Though usually you are the one who asked us for a long time to mine you?'' He said, it looks like Albi is starting to get curious.

I'm sure he recognized my change of attitude. Begin to guess what really happened. But what power, all that he won't know. Maybe even to death.

‘’Ndak, Mas. I'm good – fine, healthy, sane and Alhamdulillah happy.‘’ I said with a big smile, hoping that he didn't know what was hidden in my mind.

‘’Tak pick up benjeng ngggeh, Nduk (I pick up tomorrow huh, Nduk)?" He started to flirt again.

'’Mboten... I sleepy night Eid (No... I came home late last night).'’ My firm.

Mas Albi is still clingy with his stance. And I will not waver with my will. If he knew I was doing this because of him? If he had understood, that getting away from him, was pain itself. But I still have to do it.

The arrival of Neng Nada surprised me. Maybe my tone was too loud, making him want to know what happened to us.

‘’Da, tomorrow the day after the holiday hut tho?, I want to pick up my Adek home. But he doesn't want to!" Mas Albi still does not accept.

‘’Ngapunten, New. Kulo want to sleepuk night lebaran mawon kaleh troupe.‘’ I said, defend myself.

Neng Nada looked confused with the two of us . Maybe the first time he saw a quarrel between santri and his guardian.

‘’If your Grandpa wants to go home tonight Lebaran yes no papa, tho, Bi? later I resigned ne kang Dharma,wes.'’ Neng Nada said mediate.

It surprised me and Mas Albi. Who is Dharma? not only me, Mas Albi, he was also curious about the name .

‘’Not known?,'' asked Neng Nada to read my confused face mimic.

‘’Devil Neng...‘’ Answer me.

‘’Do not, lah. I'll just pick you up!‘’ Sergeh Mas Albi He's still pulling.

But I'm still waiting for an answer from Neng Nada. Who is Kang Dharma? I've never heard of it. Or maybe I'm the only one who doesn't know him. Being, Ning Nada seemed to, already knew her a lot.

‘’Mosok push know mbak? Griane Trenggalek(Basak, not yet known? Home, Trenggalek),‘’

It seems Neng Nada does not believe that I really do not know who Kang Dharma is. And it made me even more curious.

‘’Estu Neng's...Mboten semerep (Truly Neng...Don't know).'’ Answer me steadily. I really don't know that name. In fact, it was the first time I heard his name.

‘’Graduate three years ago. Ngajar Madin second grade Tsanawiyah...’’ Neng Nada.

I shook my head, telling her I still didn't know. There were some roommates who were indeed second-rate Tsanawiyah, but I never heard the story about their Ustadz named Kang Dharma. Or maybe I just don't care.

‘’Ya, I'll introduce you later." Said Neng Nada casually.

He took over his phone which was still connected to Mas Albi.

‘’Quiet your sister's wae safe. No lek Kelong. No guarantee (Let's calm, your sister's safe. It won't disappear one bit. I guarantee it!" Said Neng Nada casually.

They seem familiar, so talking alone is not awkward with the Javanese language.

‘’Ya, wes, lah. But I sent hp ne kang Dharma kui. Tomorrow lek enek opo-opo ben iso immediately tell me (Yes, already. But, I'll ask for the ha-pe kang Dharma number later. Tomorrow, if there's anything, you can call me right away)." Mas Albi Pasrah. He finally wanted me to go home with the group, and it made me feel relieved.

‘’Iya, yes... You are a great parno. Adek mu wes gede, check the wine (Your sister is already big. I'm so scared)." Ledek Neng Nada with a smile.

‘’Adek the only yes must be to Nad. Opo maneh chick, rumangsane ketar – ketir Iki atine. Lek enek opo-opo piye? Opo maneh mantuk e sak karo santri troupe putra.Lak yo more worried me (The only sister, yes definitely, Nad. Especially girls, was was this his heart. If there's anything, how? Moreover, a troupe with santri putra)." Mas Albi made Neng Nada laugh.

‘’Lebay, you, Bi..'’ led Neng Nada.

There was a sense of calm suddenly seeping into my heart . It was as if spring provided warmth and revealed flowers that were beginning to bloom.

It's not wrong if I'm always comfortable being around him. As if I was the only one who was his priority . All this time it was just me, and I really wanted to keep doing that.

After Neng Nada assured me that I would be fine. Albi just hung up. Sungkan, it's been almost an hour Mas Albi called. And yet, he did not feel awkward.