(Who) I'm Without you
28. Conditional Home

"Ready, whatever I will follow the origin of the happy princess" Ariel replied steadily while imagining the moment in her head.

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After arriving at Dinda's residence, Ariel only went down for a while and then returned to her house. Dinda who is surprised because usually if his parents are not at home Ariel will feel at home sitting at home Dinda despite not doing anything.

Even sitting still doesn't matter. But I don't know, Dinda's hunch is like a sudden bad feeling.

But because he was tired today, the hot weather made him deny the disturbing feeling in his heart. Ariel at this time must also be tired because it accompanies him.

At night, after calling her mom. Dinda just realized that tonight Ariel did not contact her at all.

Where is the man, thought Dinda.

Usually, the Maghrib prayer without cue is nongol front door of Dinda's house to offer a call to eat outside or how. Because Ariel is used to extra attention if both parents Dinda is leaving her daughter alone.

Ariel felt entrusted with trust by papa Dinda even though Dinda's parents never leave Dinda to him directly. But the good thing is, Ariel consciously understands if he is the one who deserves to protect Dinda.

Dinda who felt ignored became instantly bad mood. At the moment, he is PMS. It's getting messy that Ariel won't be sensitive right away.

Dinda that night ate alone, in front of the tv with the state of the tv on. Even so, it did not calm him at all because he still felt strange about Ariel's attitude. After the meal, Dinda will contact Ariel.

Ask if the man is out for exercise or just hanging out in a coffee shop. Or something else Ariel did that night.

Pov Dinda's

While grumbling, I called Ariel up many times. The phone wasn't picked up like it was just let ring.

I remember very well, similar events like this when Ariel was approaching another girl. Yeah, as long as we're dating Ariel's been approaching girls a lot without me knowing. So that his friend told me that. And stupidly, I always forgive. Because I thought, she would always come back to me. Because yes, every time I set him free to get out of my life again he comes back. Begging my forgiveness. He even cried in my arms. As if he truly regretted his actions. With all his deadly seduction, I'm devastated. Forgive so easily. Though this head always reminds me if one day it will also be repeated again. It was as if there was no truly sincere apology from what Ariel had thrown at me.

Tears began to well up in my eyes, as if she was crying over something that fit what I was thinking right now. Though this heart still kekeuh say not necessarily.

Oh my God, it hurts so much if trust has begun to wear off but the heart is still strong to love and hold it in order to stay on the side.

I used to think I was a strong woman. It is not easy to cry, let alone cry for men.

It turns out that I am not much different from my friends who are often upset because of love. Right now I can still calm down a little, because I don't know what's really going on.

Did he, Ariel back jerk?

Is there a woman who can make him forget and ignore me ?

With a worried heart, I put my foot on the door. I'll meet Ariel at her house. I'm ready if I have to find the bitter reality later.

Tears, calm down. Don't you drip in vain. We still have to find out first.

Heart, try to calm down. Don't weak. Whatever we find later. We have to be strong.

Brain, prevent these tears from coming down. Think of something beautiful. Do not be defeated by the heart.

Am I going to interrupt their break ?

After 5 minutes of gathering courage, my hand began to lift to press the house bell that was beside the top of my head.

But the movement of my hand suddenly stopped when I heard the sound of a motor that I was very sorry for approaching me.

Right, that's Ariel.

After he entered the fence of his house and got off his motorbike. I immediately approached him and...

"You're nga..."

"Can I borrow your phone ?" I said firmly and cut his words. I feel my heart beating fast. Like I'm gonna catch something.

Trying to calm down is no use, either, because Ariel certainly knows what I feel right now because of the eyes and face that is swollen and chaotic already illustrates how suspicious I am now.

After the phone was in my hands, I immediately opened whatsapp application that I rarely open. I really respect his privacy. I don't want to be a possessive partner to her.

But since I've been fooled so many times, it's time for me to show my lion side that's been sleeping in my blood. Ariel woke him up.

I saw a chat with the sender's name a woman, and then I opened the message. My tears that I have been trying to stop coming out.

Again, again, and again. I was disappointed by the man who always made me smile, laugh, happy.

This leg is no longer powerful to step away from there. My heart is broken, considering that this afternoon we had a wonderful moment about a wedding that we will build. All gone, I'm disappointed.

With his good looks, this man in front of me could transform in an instant into a monster for me. He was good at making my world shatter into pieces.

The HP that I had been holding since, was now on my chest. I feel like breaking that flat object. And...

Prekkkk

I threw the phone in front of Ariel's face and the screen broke instantly because it collided with the conblock. Ariel was silent, perhaps surprised to see my anger tonight.

"I hate you. I was wrong, have I been with you? Why do you keep hurting me? Not satisfied you presented Mutia, Puja, Dea? I'm sick Ariel. I let you go of my life but why do you always come again, bother me again? Who among us really loves ? You say love is like me but this is your way? Fucking men!" my cry that no longer cares about the surroundings and the sound that shakes. What matters is that I can all express my annoyance.

I just want to be relieved, just scolding him is not 100 percent relieved me. I had to be alone and cry until I calmed down.

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