(Who) I'm Without you
55. Don't Want to Look

After work, Dinda drove her car to one of the roadside meatball stalls that became her subscription. Dinda wants to fill her stomach which she left empty since last night.

Although he actually still has no appetite, but this is for the sake of his health. "In the stay of the former fell ill, hueeekk, who was in the ketawain ex" said Dinda encouraged himself so as not to be weak in the face of the universe.

He must be strong, enough heart alone is sad but face do not. Always show everyone that he is okay.

After arriving at his subscription meatball stall, Dinda also ordered a serving of poor meatballs along with sweet iced tea. Actually, he's been here a few times with Ariel.

But Dinda was just so cute. Because they want wherever they eat, as long as it is still around the road to the houses, all have Dinda and Ariel come.

Obviously, his name is also dating for half a decade. It's just that Ariel once said, "We're rich break it 3 years so it's 2 years".

That's because Dinda's hobby of breaking up every time they fight. Yes, it is, besides which women can be cheated many times.

And foolishly, Dinda always gave her a chance. Actually this way, the level of love for Ariel is still there, it's just that Dinda's trust is reduced.

And because Dinda's beliefs are often misused by Ariel, making Dinda a bitch because she always suspects Ariel in any case. But even so, still Dinda kecolongan.

No wind no rain, Ariel want a proposal, right? It is true said the people, if he faithfully wants to be released freely he will remain faithful.

And if he wants to cheat, even though he is still cheating. Dinda can only instill positive thoughts in her head, that the best for her is not Ariel.

Dinda ate the meatball very slowly, it felt bland on Dinda's tongue. But he still tried to add saos, soy sauce, and sambal constantly so that the taste of meatballs was felt in his mouth.

After he finished the bowl of meatballs, Dinda immediately paid him at the cashier's desk and passed away from the place. In Dinda's heart, he was still reluctant to go home soon.

Because, if at home he will definitely return mellow and he does not want to rally again. Dinda decided to relax her mind.

Later if his body is really tired, then he will go home. Because I came home to sleep.

Not to forget, Dinda sent a message to his mother if today he will go home tonight because there is little business. Ever since Dinda started working at the law firm, her parents are a little looser now.

Maybe they are also aware, now Dinda is an adult and has worked. So Dinda can take care of herself.

Dinda headed to one of the malls, she wanted to shop. Because shopping is a therapy for women to relieve stress.

Dinda also entered the parking area, after parking the monilnya he began to enter the Mall and trace from the ground floor to the top floor. Starting from shoe counters, clothing counters, to furniture sales places.

After 2 hours of walking around, Dinda felt tired. With a few bags of groceries in her hand, Dinda walked into the parking lot.

Arriving in the car, Dinda put her groceries in the trunk. Then Dinda got in the car.

Dinda didn't start the car.

"You know how hard I try to look strong, I still fail. See now? I'm not like myself anymore. It's not me, all day doing something that means nothing. Conscious, Dinda. He may be happy right now over your suffering. He was currently eating well whereas. huh". Dinda gripped tightly on the steering wheel of the car with trembling shoulders.

"Don't remember her again, there's enough of all the pain she's been in. Don't force her to beg to ask her to come back. I don't even understand, is it me leaving or am I being left behind?" screech Dinda by banging her head.

"Aren't there a word for me? Saying goodbye though? Aaaaaarrrrgg... You managed to make me broken unceremoniously. Think about it, how does it feel to be me? 5 Months only you can get a replacement for me and immediately propose to him. Jahaaaa. What do you think I am?". Dinda ruffled her hair.

He really wanted to curse Ariel at this moment. But Dinda still held back that desire.

Ariel is the lover of people. Dinda didn't have that much guts to bully Ariel.

After Dinda felt calm, she also slightly tidied up her hairstyle. He was determined in his heart to be a better person.

It was enough to cry for Ariel today, after all, her crying had no impact on Ariel. The application remains in the direct, the sleep may remain sound, the food is also good.

Dinda only tortures herself if it always drags on like this. But the name of frustration is better to take it out.

Because if in pendam, it can develop into a grudge. While they live next door, it is not possible to keep each other quiet forever.

Dinda also turned on her car engine and got out of the parking area to go home. Although the clock was still at 20:00 p.m., Dinda had given up.

Somehow he can live his days ahead. Heart-setting, it must have taken a long time.

He really had no idea that he was going to be what he is now. Dinda was forced into a war without weapons.

Ready is not ready, you have to be ready. Bismillah, he thought.

When he was almost near his house, Dinda really kept his eyes so as not to glance at any fleeting items towards Ariel's house. I was so reluctant to see the house.

Even though the guilty man is not his home. But still all those who are concerned with Ariel, Dinda hates.

People out there will probably comment that Dinda is childish. But everyone has a way to heal their wounds, right?

And Dinda is comfortable in this way. He can do it easily.

After arriving home, Dinda immediately opened her luggage to remove all her groceries earlier. "I just realized, it turns out I can be this crazy" Dinda said to herself.

Of course, Dinda said so, because she also just realized. Why did he buy complete tools ranging from screwdrivers, nuts, pliers and other companions in arms.

Buy a flower vase, buy a mirror, buy socks, there is also a tablecloth. "Huft, why so random like this anyway" said Dinda cursed his shopping.