(Who) I'm Without you
69. Unhealed

Today, Dinda commutes the office at the shuttle by Nanda. Because Nanda said, today his work is relaxed because it only needs to check the Place of Genesis Matter which is currently the case he is handling and see a forensic doctor.

Dinda was very flattered by Nanda's treatment that was as busy as anything to keep Dinda informed and even try to be able to shuttle Dinda. Though Dinda had tried to refuse because she did not want to trouble Nanda but still Nanda insisted on it.

And after driving Dinda home, usually Nanda will return to the office and then the night just returned home. Dinda is very understanding of Nanda's busy life that she spends more outside the office.

Dinda was very happy all day because all the fatigue while working seemed to disappear instantly when she saw Nanda's face. But there is also a sad thing that he feels, namely about their relationship.

You could say they were in a relationship with no status. Actually, Dinda was thinking of getting married, but she did not want to sue any man to marry her.

Because back again, getting married is not easy. Much to think about including mental readiness. Is Dinda 100 percent ready?

Dinda took a shower in the afternoon and sat on the front porch of her house while waiting for the adzan maghrib. Together with Bi Hanum, they joked as Bi Hanum stroked Dinda's cat.

Adzan maghrib vegetables began to sound mutually disheveled, Dinda and Bi Hanum immediately went inside the house and closed the door. Dinda carries out her duties and goes downstairs to help Bi Hanum prepare dinner.

Dinda actually wants to train basic skills to be a wife, such as cooking for example. He painstakingly arranged all the food that had been served in a bowl onto the table.

And this he always applied every day even though Dinda did not cook, but Bi Hanum but Dinda was always ready to help cut and wash foodstuffs only. Dinda is very happy, she also wants to learn to cook with Bi Hanum but later just wait for work holiday, if not Saturday on Sunday.

And later if he's a cook, he'll show it to Nanda and Sherly. Because Dinda does not want to lose, Nanda is the only man she can prepare fried rice for breakfast for her sister. Dinda can't be?

Dinda then had dinner with her parents. When it was finished, it was the workers' turn to eat.

Dinda finished eating straight to the room. He wants to check his phone because usually there is always a message sent by Nanda for him.

And it turned out to be true.

19:02

Nanda

"Tomorrow I'll pick you up again, and you'll take Sherly to school"

19:40

Dinda

"Don't, I don't want to repot you every day" Dinda replied.

By the way, they are now "me you" ga pack brother-abangan again. You want to know when it doesn't clear.

19:50

Nanda

"Ga bother, even seneng😗"

Dinda smiled and clearly read Nanda's reply. It feels like the world belongs to both. Want to always look at his face but unfortunately the reality is still separated home. Miris.

19:52

Dinda

"Okay, what's important is a twig"

After that Dinda also prayed isya and until 10 pm, the message is still not answered by Nanda. Let alone in reply, just read it not yet. Sometimes Dinda is worried about Nanda because her work always deals with criminals even until the crimes of state officials are handled. It makes Dinda afraid that anything will happen to Nanda.

Likewise with Dinda, because he was sleepy he immediately closed his beautiful eyes to sink into the subconscious.

**In a wide river with a long bridge over it**

On a motorbike that runs, there are lovers who are so friendly because it is seen from the tight embrace of the woman's hand on the waist of the man. They are Dinda and Ariel.

They had a very interesting conversation. It turns out that they are telling silly things that they both have done from the beginning of their creation to the present.

Sometimes they laugh at their own behavior. Anyone who saw them, would definitely feel envious of their happiness.

However, that situation did not last long. Because suddenly Ariel stopped the speed of the motor right at the mouth of the bridge in front of them. And he asked Dinda to come down.

Dinda who is actually a submissive person, without much questioning and not suspicious of anything, he also came down from Ariel's motorbike. With Dinda's face still looking happy, Ariel suddenly left her alone in front of the bridge's mouth.

Instantly, in disbelief, Dinda cried. He realized he had been left behind by Ariel. However, his eyes were still faithful to see Ariel's departure.

In the middle of the bridge, Ariel turned around, but never returned to Dinda. Ariel stayed in place, and so did Dinda. Ariel just stared as if it was still hard to leave but was reluctant to return.

Dinda who realized that there was something that Ariel was aiming at across there, she wiped her tears rough and turned to leave Ariel. That step felt heavy. Just a few steps away, Dinda heard Ariel screaming her name. Although it felt in his heart was eager to turn to look at Ariel, but in fact Dinda still continued her steps to go from there. He insisted on ignoring Ariel's scream that echoed in his ears.

***Go Ariel. Meet your soul mate across there. Although I love you very much, but I realize****that destiny is not in our favor**.

In the middle of the journey alone, Dinda cried roaring over the bitter incident she experienced. Tears fell broke out for some reason.

Dinda cried bitterly when she woke up from her nightmare with tears that had soaked the pillow. When he woke up from the dream, his eyes were wet and Dinda was crying in silence.

Dinda tries to control herself. He did not want to cry for Ariel. Already so far, does his heart still want Ariel to return?

Though Dinda has been able to live his day well and never remember Ariel again. During this time he was also very confident that he had been able to forget Ariel completely. But apparently, Dinda was wrong.

His subconscious still wants Ariel. Still want Ariel, still desperately need Ariel.

Conscious Dinda, be aware.