(Who) I'm Without you
Impossible to Go

After returning home from Sherly's birthday celebration, Dinda gathered her intention to distance herself a little. He feels so far still do not know anything about the relationship Lita and Nanda who are said to be only friends. But Dinda felt nothing like that. Too suspicious of the couple is not good, but Dinda also needs her own efforts to be able to rebuild her trust in Nanda after the incident was silenced when there was Lita. And one more, bitter experience that Dinda had gone through that made Dinda must immediately take a stand before he ended up in vain and become a stupid human who knows nothing.

At least if later found out that Nanda and Lita have a relationship behind him, Dinda's heart is ready. Instead of Dinda not investigating anything but knowing in the marriage residence, the pain will be extraordinary.

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Today, Dinda will begin her intention to avoid Nanda. Several phone calls Nanda who every day say good morning to Dinda he did not he gubris. Dinda chose to pray at dawn, then relax on the balcony for a while and then take a shower and leave for work.

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Until 3 days passed, Nanda only realized that Dinda's attitude had changed lately. Usually every morning on the phone Dinda's body must lift because indeed Dinda was awake at the hour usually Nanda called. But, these 3 days Dinda is actually difficult to contact. The message was also not answered.

Pov Nanda's

After visiting the Genesis Case (TKP) for the murder case that I am currently investigating, I began to think about my 3-day girlfriend who really does not care about me. I don't know what's wrong with me, but obviously, I know he'd turn out like this if I had it wrong. Butwhat? I called him, not picked him up. I sent him an unrequited message. Wanted me to see him but was afraid to interrupt his work time. I finally waited until the break came so I picked him up to ask for clarity on why he had changed.

At 12 and a half hours I drove my car to the office where Dinda worked. I looked across from the office, 10 minutes I waited but he didn't come out yet when it was 12 past 20. Her close friends I had memorized were seen coming out together, but there was no Dinda among them. Unusually. Again I was surprised, because for more than half a year we were with I have been very familiar with Dinda's habit of going out to lunch always with her friends.

I also called Dinda, 2 times the call was ignored. I finally decided to go inside.

"Excuse me, do you know Dinda? I have a need with him" I said firmly to a man who passed me at the entrance while showing my badge as if it were no ordinary business.

"Come in, sir, from here straight and there's a glass door on the left. You just enter, inside there is also a glass door so you can see for yourself there is Dindanya or not" explained the man.

"Thank you mas" I said and walked according to the instructions of the man.

Sure enough, in this room it turns out there are many more rooms whose doors are all glass. The first place I passed, I saw it empty. The place next to it was empty. As I walked, I watched my surroundings wander into whatever room I passed. Until I heard the sound of a copier operating. I also accelerated my steps towards the source of the sound. I was hoping to see Dinda, my lover.

And then I stood behind Dinda fiddling with the copier. I also covered her eyes from behind. I can't believe he's so memorized with my fingers. He touched my hand and said, "Yank, don't be weird. It's in the office" he said, which made me immediately let go of my hand that covered his eyes.

"What the hell are you, Yank? On the phone ga lifted, chat also not reciprocated" asked me who was anxious even almost cry because I missed Dinda so much that was cute lately. I also don't understand why I was so sad when I met him.

"But really you" pinched Dinda on my waist but after that I was hugged. The more moved it felt, I shed tears. Not much, a little bit, shame the same profession.

He is still this good even though I have disappointed him many times. Including making her stay away these 3 days, I know there must be a reason. Nothing else and not for sure because of me.

"Yank, answer" my whine because my question was never answered.

"Can you think that?" I asked while looking at the copier behind him that had finished operating.

"Yes can. You don't care about me when Lita comes to Sherly's show. Cuekin ain't good, is it? Yes that's what I felt when there was Lita" Dinda said softly even she tidied up my collar. When he was angry, he continued to show his caring attitude. I am evil, I curse myself.

"I swear by whatever Yank, I don't know if I'll be acting like you. I was honest if I felt ordinary at that time. I watched Lita continue to chat with her but I still realized that you were next to me. And I don't mean to make your cake, just at that time maybe I was too busy talking to Lita. I'm sorry" I explained everything from my point of view. I don't want misunderstandings to take over my relationship.

"I am beside you, always. But your gaze is on Lita" she said. Makes me think how I look at Lita. It's not the same as looking at everyone.

"Ahhh difficult to explain. You won't understand either. The feeling is Yank" grumbled Dinda who had trouble explaining it to me. "It certainly doesn't matter" he continued with a look of despair.

I smiled seeing him frustrated at not being able to find the right words to describe what he meant. However, I tried to understand and did not want to add to the burden of his mind. I invited him to lunch outside so that the conversation could continue.

"Gak ah, not laper" he refused.

"What did you eat this morning?" ask me to keep playing the ring on his finger. 3 monthly I found a new hobby, twisting the ring he was wearing. I don't know at first why, which I obviously liked.

"Ga ate nothing" he answered and turned around to take care of the paper he had copied.

"Later you get sick Yank. Come on, let's eat. I'm laper" I persuaded him to take me to lunch.

"You want, but I want satay mamang that we used to buy when we want to stay in the hospital to keep Lita" his door that makes me think if the mamang has been selling during the day like this?

"You're craving, huh?" askaju kidding.

"Yes, oom who at that time did not want the responsibility of Yank" he whined while writhing spoiled in my arms. But did not undo my intention to touch his forehead. Pawning.

"It hurts" he said.

"Then if you speak first" I said as I led him back to his spoiled sling in my arms. Because I like it, like there's a springy-chewy stick in... Astaghfirullah, mindfully. But Dinda's been hanging around in my legan. Come on, we're lovers. There are even people who have done things worse than us. The most important thing is to keep faith. Others may be weird, but I don't.

The Pov Nanda End

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Hello, still strengthen the fast ? Patience, open still long hehe