A WIFE'S TEARS BEHIND A CLOWN COSTUME
Hanifa's Disappointment

From the beginning he did not care much, did not ask questions and did not expect the husband to tell a mass that for him was not his business. She has massalu, the husband has massalu, everyone must have massalu. He thought he did not want to be burdened with anything related to the mass then when he steadily received the husband's proposal first.

But today, the presence of a foreign woman in front of her who claimed to be the husband then managed to tear her heart, relax her legs, escape tears that had not come out for a long time.

Her hands trembled at the photos of her husband making out and clutching each other affectionately without a thread covering the body on the bed with another woman. He did not expect, it turns out that the husband has a dark mass, it turns out the husband once mixed with sweat on the bed with a woman without any sacred ties, without any sacred ties of marriage. He never expected the husband who so much he admired of all the things that were on him turned out to have committed adultery, committing one of the great sins forbidden by religion. Just like Setya's ex-husband. Now he thinks all men are the same. Not enough for a woman.

''Sini.'' said Shanum snatched his phone in Hanifa's hands. Hanifa was frozen. Even though it was only a matter of time, but his heart felt very sick to see it. Knowing a reality he had never expected before.

''Your husband is not a good man. After she fucked me, she disappeared without any news, she always tried to dodge whenever I contacted her. And the thing that made me sick and disappointed the most was ... He doesn't care about me having a great accident because he keeps thinking about it. My parents said she visited me once when I was in a coma in the hospital. But after some time I woke up, I waited for her to come to see me again every day, week, month, and years changed, tirelessly, but she never came to see me again. You know, this, Shanum pointed at his feet, ''my legs, my legs for several years can not be moved after an accident, I always routinely do therapy every week, I want to be healed. And after going through the process of therapy and various kinds of treatment I can finally stand here, now, finally for the past year my legs were declared healed and I was able to walk as usual without worry anymore. After my legs healed, I stayed in the room, thinking about what action I should take, I kept thinking, thinking how to get Malik to account for his actions. We did that only once, but the one night thing stuck in my heart, making it hard for me to turn to any man. Because Malik was the first man to touch me, the man who made me not a virgin anymore. The man I love said Shanum at length. His eyes glazed over while telling stories. Hanifa who saw feeling guilty for what her husband had done. It turns out that behind his happiness for these few days, there are women who have to bear the pain.

''Now what do you want? I-I just got married to Mas Malik. Why did you meet me after Mas Malik and I became husband and wife?!'' hanifa asked in a hoarse voice while squeezing her chest, easing the pain that came suddenly. In her guess she was the first woman to be touched by the husband, uh, it turns out her guess was wrong.

''M .. Want me? yes ... I want to stay one, I want Malik to take responsibility. I didn't have enough courage to meet him. I guess she would never marry and love any woman after desecrating me. Uh ... It turns out that now he prefers to marry a secondhand who has had children rather than marry me which is clearly the first man to touch me. I have to demand justice from him, until at any time.'' Shanum said with a reddened face. Hanifa was irritated to hear Shanum saying he was secondhand. The more the pain increases. In fact, the pain he felt now was much more pain than the pain when Setya betrayed him.

''Is finished? If you have gone out right now from my room, said Hanifa. He wanted to calm himself.

''I beg Hanifa, release Malik and ....''

''Stop your silliness Shanum.'' suddenly heard the sound of rolling accompanied by the sound of shoes clashing with the floor. The sound rhymed rapidly getting closer towards Hanifa. Hanifa was unable to see the husband, she lowered her head with tears dripping down. He hid his face from his husband. While Shanum was not at all afraid of Malik's presence, it was indeed what he wanted, he wanted to see the handsome face of Malik whom he had long longed for.

''Sa-honey ... You're okay, right?'' malik asked with a pias face. He was afraid that Hanifa would demand a divorce from him after this. He just went to Hanifa without caring about Shanum who just kept seeing her.

''Hiks ..'' Hanifa's sobs sounded, she laboriously held him back. Then he wanted to run out avoiding Malik. But quickly the brother stopped him. Abdillah hugged the body of her sister. Give it a little bit of comfort. Although he does not know what happened exactly, but he is sure that the younger brother is not okay. Hanifa cried, there must be something that hurt her heart so much. Malik wanted to approach Hanifa again, but Abdillah prevented him.

''Why do you bother coming here? You made everything mess up!'' malik's snaps are getting louder. They stand facing each other.

''I just want to demand my rights. No woman deserves to be with you but me!''

''It's Shanum. Don't expect much more. I have no interest in you at all, and seven years ago it was a mistake that someone set me up by putting stimulants into my drink. Until I didn't realize I had done that shameful thing with you Malik said softly. Hope Shanum will understand his circumstances. While Hanifa was still standing in a position to drop her head on the chest of the field of the Big Brother. Abdillah stroked Hanifa's back covered in a wide veil. Hanifa was about to come out of the room that felt stuffy according to her but Abdillah still held back her steps.

''I can't accept any reason. All I know is you're the man who took away my chastity. You have to take responsibility, otherwise Shanum smiled cynically, then said again, If you don't want to be responsible I will spread all the photos about us on social media.'' threaten Shanum with tears about to fall from the petals. Then after that he walked out so haughtily. Followed by Hanifa as well. Now Malik is alone in Hanifa's study. Malik rubbed his hair rough, he walked to the wall then. Dug dug, he punched the concrete wall several times. Until his handbook spits out blood.

''Why is this all like this? None of this is what I want. It all happened so fast. Hanifa, Mas loves you so much. Mas will never be willing to lose you.' racau Malik. He sat on the floor with both hands on his head. Her chest feels so tight. He was sure Hanifa must have been very disappointed with him, not only disappointed, maybe Hanifa also felt very disgusted with him. That's how he thought. He twisted his brain, thinking hard how he could make Shanum no longer demand anything from him, he also thought hard how to persuade Hanifa so that Hanifa did not silence him. He does not want the new household in the building to run aground.

***

"Mas, it turns out my husband is not as good as I thought he was. Why didn't Mas tell me anything before I decided to accept it?'' hanifa said lethargic. Now he and his brother are sitting on the bench of the city park.

''Mas does not know anything about Malik's relationship with the woman. Yang Mas knows, Malik is a very good boss and very royal with his employees and subordinates. For his romance Mas not too meddle.''

''I have to how now Mas? That lady? Ah .... Hiks.'' Hanifa again sobbed, in addition to feeling disappointed, she also felt confused about how to behave in the future against Malik. Whether he could still continue the household ark, or had to run aground a second time.

''You better go home, yeah, Deck. Take ablution and pray solemnly. Ask for the same almighty clue.'' Abdillah gave advice. Actually Abdillah felt a little disappointed also towards Malik. But according to him, no one needs to be blamed. Malik explained everything. Sometimes for company leaders and people who have power they are willing to do anything to drop the name of someone who is a rival. Malik is one of the youngest and most successful entrepreneurs. He believes there must have been someone who framed Malik. Or maybe the person who put the stimulant drug was Shanum himself. Thought Abdillah guessing, trying to think clearly without siding with anyone.

Seriate.