A WIFE'S TEARS BEHIND A CLOWN COSTUME
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Hanifa and Arif were sitting in an oncoming car, a car driven by Mr. Agus. In front of their car, a motorcycle was traveling at medium speed, Pak Agus followed the bike. The motor driven by Hellen, with his mother behind him, his mother's hands seemed to hang on Hellen's waist. For several months Hellen worked in the branch company owned by the Shanum family, finally he was able to collect little by little money from his work, he was able to earn money, and the money he bought a motorbike as a connector to make it easier to go anywhere. Fortunately Shanum did not fire Hellen after he was arrested by the police that time, it seems Shanum had forgotten a Hellen. Speaking of Shanum, is he released from prison at the moment? And how was his life after being released from prison?

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After driving a long way, Hanifa's entourage stopped at the parking lot of Dr. Psychiatric Hospital. Suharto Heerdjan, a mental hospital located in West Jakarta. One of the best and largest mental hospitals in the capital.

They then walked side by side through the hospital hallways, when entering the hospital, Arif was astonished and afraid to see adults with strange looks. There was a mess of his hair, there was a scream with both hands in the nurse's grasp, there was a mother who cradled a doll with a small hum, accompanied by a small hum, and many more strange behavior of adults that make Arif afraid and wonder in the heart, why them? Her thought. Because this is the first time Arif entered a mental hospital.

''Still far away, Mom?'' hanifa asked as she was walking through the hospital hallways, her hands were on her waist, she felt her waist was so sore from walking far enough.

''No Hanifa, it was in front of her room.'' Setya's mother replied.

And sure enough, after that they turned to enter a room. Once inside the room, Hanifa and Arif were shocked to see the appearance of a man who was sitting curled up in the corner of the room. Men who do not wear clothes, he only wears trousers, pants typical of RSJ patients. His thin body revealed the bones of his chest and ribs, his hair was long to the shoulders and his appearance was very sad. Hanifa and Arif were made pangling, they did not recognize the figure of Setya anymore. Arif's hand depends on the mother's hand, he is afraid of his own father.

''Hanifa, Arif ....''

''Hanifa, Arif ...''

''Huuhuhu ... Hiks!''

Setya's murmured softly that can be heard by the Hanifa troupe. His face lowered, it seemed like he had yet to realize the presence of Hanifa and the others. Hanifa's entourage was still standing at its original spot, looking at Setya from a little distance away.

''Thus, Hanifa. Mas Setya always mentioned your name and Arif all day, even while sleeping, Mas Setya often delirious to say your name, so said the sister who handled it.'' said Hellen softly with chest feels tight to see the state of the brother.

''And, Mas Setya is also very difficult to eat, every time he is fed, he always asks to eat with you and Arif. You can see for yourself, right? His body is so thin. Mas Setya has been rewarded for his past actions against you and Arif. You want to forgive her, don't you?'' hellen said again, he looked at Arif and Hanifa alternately with teary eyes. Hanifa and Arif nodded small. Hanifa was also sad to see Setya's current condition, as well as Arif. Then they walked to Setya.

''Setya,'' call his mother. But Setya didn't say.

''Mas,'' call Hellen again. Setya still did not respond. After that, Hanifa spoke.

''Mas Setya ..'' call Hanifa in such a soft tone of voice. It's nothing, there's no desire to go back with Setya, there's no love in her heart for Setya, everything she's given to her husband. Hanifa did that simply out of pity, just for the sake of humanity, she felt concerned to see the condition of her ex-husband.

''You guys, ka-lian still wants to see me?'' said Setya stammered, he stood up, then he walked to hug Hanifa. Hanifa quickly dodged.

''Stop!'' hanifa exclaimed with both hands she placed in front of her, as a sign Setya could not come closer. Setya looked down lethargic, after which he looked at Arif lekat, then he hugged Arif quickly and tightly. Setya was speechless, only her tears were shimmering, and by hugging Arif she felt a little calm.

''Dad has eaten?'' ask Arif. He felt sorry for his father, because when they embraced Arif could feel Setya's bones protruding. Setya shakes.

''Why ''Why? If you do not eat later Daddy gets thinner and Dad can die.'' said Arif plain. Setya did not reply to Arif. But he could clearly hear the words of the son.

''Dad now eat, yes, let Arif temenin, '' said Arif again with a knotty smile. Setya nodded quickly as she looked towards Hanifa.

''Mommy will also accompany Dad to eat, but I can not touch Mommy.'' said Arif with emphasis at the end of the sentence.

''Wh-why? I-I want to hug ...'' said Setya stammered with a sad face.

''No way, Dad. Papa will be angry!'' reply Arif again. Arif knows, at this time only Malik is allowed to hug his mother. In the eyes of Arif, only Malik is an adult man who is entitled to the Mother. That's how he knew, because while at home he often saw his Papa and his mother hugged each other.

Hanifa felt moved to see the son who had grown older. He didn't even think his son would be able to protect him.

Setya then sat back on the floor, his mother took food on the nightstand, food that was prepared by the nurse for Setya to eat.

''This, you persuaded Dad, yes, so that Dad would eat.'' said Setya's mother slowly to Arif while handing him a plate containing food.

''Alright, Grandma.'' Arif replied while taking the plate. Arif sat in front of Setya.

''This, eat, Well ....'' Arif thrust a spoon filled with rice and green vegetables. Setya opened his mouth wide, then he ate with a smiley face knotted. Occasionally he glanced at Hanifa who was sitting on a chair not far from him. I felt like I wanted to hug Hanifa. It was as if she had forgotten that Hanifa was already the wife of a Malik.

Hanifa who realized Setya who was stealing glances towards her felt a little afraid, she felt anxious, afraid that Setya would pounce on her. Understandably, Setya is currently insane. Finally, if you excuse her, she intends to contact her husband.

Seriate.