
I sat on the sofa as well as Yudha, I pulled my head from her chest. He was astonished at my behavior that had changed suddenly.
"What's wrong?" tanyanya looks at me.
"I'm not comfortable with you." I replied with a sad face. He didn't say as if he understood what I meant.
If he was still single, without any bond with a woman, of course I would feel comfortable, proud to be her lover.
"I want to go home already want magrib." I said trying to stand up. His hand pulled me back, my body falling back in his arms.
"What if you live in an apartment so no one knows where you are."
"Wherever I live will be known, because you will talk to your wife and your wife will talk to your aunt Goddess."
"I just found out you're a goddess, meaning you're a distinguished family. Which one's your parents?"
"That bastard has a son!" I answered in a slightly high voice.
Yudha let go of her embrace, she looked at me strangely. Slowly turning her face to me, what was she thinking. I felt that Yudha was ashamed and even disgusted by me. Isn't the illegitimate child very taboo in the discussion here, especially at the collection or made a wife.
"You want to go home? I'm taking you from behind, you're riding in a khan?!" said flat.
I grinned cynically and felt a change in Yudha's attitude because I was an illegitimate child. The average guy here is like that. I swallowed my grief and stepped out.
"I can go home by myself, come out." I said faltering.
He did not answer and just walked out. After locking the door I walked out with slow steps. I don't want to walk with him. Is he high-caste, so he doesn't heed me.
Care demon!! I can also not care, even though I love him, even deep down I love him very much.
Until the parking lot I didn't see the car, it felt like my heart was hurting. Once he left me, my tears rolled down.
I drove my car a little fast, it happened that the road was a bit quiet and soon it might rain. A little drizzle up at the aunt's house raining down.
In a quiet house, it is always quiet because aunt is equally happy at Villa, all of you take care of Villa. I went upstairs to my room, and I heard music from Dhevalee's room.
Today was so hard, my heart is sad to remember my life is not good. Out of the bathroom I saw Dhevalee lying down in Ranjsng.
"What's Dheva doing?" let me sit in front of the dresser.
"I want to get married" he said without looking. His eyes were fixed on the ceiling of the room.
"Marry the one you love, who is ready to be born."
"You were sprained because I betrothed you to Dirga?"
"I'm disappointed you didn't ask me. Besides, I'm not interested in Dirga. Especially marrying her."
"Don't be too idealistic, love will come slowly if you're married. I believe that."
"It's better not to get married."
"I know you met Yudha, I saw her car following you" Dhevalee said.
"I did meet but he didn't follow, we're different."
"What's your advantage in covering it up? I saw from the window, when your car came in he was behind it."
"I don't think he's following me." I said as it is.
"You meet often?" Finally I told him about the Aunt Goddess who came in a rage.
"That means you're not safe working there. I'll tell you later that Dirga hired a bodyguard to protect you."
"No need Devha, Dirga is very busy don't complain a little. I'm ashamed to be his burden. Even I said I didn't love him and told him to leave me."
"If you take Dirga, I can't fall in love" I said smilingly praying that Dheva would be with Dirga.
"Don't tell me you're in love with your rapist, if that happens I'm giggling you" Dheva said emotionally.
"Where might I fall in love with her, unless there's a cause that can't be explained." I said lie.
It was not yet time for me to be frank with aunt and Dhevalee, for I was afraid of being suddenly married to Dirga. After all, Yudha's attitude was indifferent.
"Thank God you're sane Luna, I hate that man myself. Already have a wife but keep looking for young leaves."
"He can't have children with his first wife, only with me Yudha can "On" and I can get pregnant."
Dhevalee's eyes are round, her eyes are piercing my heart. I just realized I was talking wrong.
"Dheva, I mean ......"
"I understand how you feel, Luna. I'm a fool, it's my fault I judge you, it turns out my friend can side with her rapist. I thought you were still my anti-male little friend, but you turned out to be a fish you didn't need to be taught to swim."
"I'm still your friend Dheva, my feelings are still the same as before. Don't worry, I can't possibly tarnish our friendship."
"May you always be healthy, be able to move as usual" Dhevalee said out of my room.
I feel Dhevalee harbors feelings and suspects me. It's okay, I know his nature. While not harming me, Dhevalee won't reveal my secret to Aunt Dessire.
I grabbed my phone and saw who was calling. Personal number.
"Hallo.." I said casually, I know who called the enemy.
"Be careful you report to the police. If you fight your belly can I step on!!"
"Who are you?.." The phone hasn't been broken yet.
I locked the door and turned off the lights, there was fear. Where should I complain? to Yudha or Dirga? so confused, because both of them are hard to believe.
Finally I took to the verdict to ask for police protection. Back I hesitated, dizzy also thought to myself. Telling Dhevalee is impossible, she will complain to aunt and Dirga.
Must how? really confused, I finally tried Yudha chat.
"Yudha.." long missed.
"Yuddha....."
"****** you're dead, you babu gatel, how dare you chat my husband!!"
My heart trembled, not expecting Yudha to be with his wife. I cry sad. Right now I'm resigned, if the villain comes and takes my life I'm resigned. It hurts my heart to love someone's husband. If I can choose I better go far away so as not to see the man.
I cried so sad I fell asleep. The sound of the phone woke me up, it felt like my eyes had been closed because someone called. I took the phone call in a doldrums.
"Call..."
"What's calling me." Yudha's voice sounded agitated.
"There's nothing wrong with sending." I replied trying hard.
"Why is your room the light is dark?"
"So that the land crocodile does not dare to rape me" I said.
"I was down by the side of the road. If there's something or something that scares you, call me immediately" Yudha said. I hung up on him.
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