
(JUDHA POV)
People say happiness is simple, but where lies its simplicity. I feel happy it's hard for me to reach, just chest tightness. One could say, run to a bar or find a virgin, for me it's not a way out and it's not good. Even my life is more ambiguous if that's what I do.
My life was ruined because I fell in love. I used to love Hanun but he was caught cheating, now in love with Luna, the guy ran away where he was. Two women who ruined my happiness. Do I not deserve to be happy? Wherever Luna is, I still love her, try to be faithful, hopefully she understands that I will always be waiting for her.
Armed with a unanimous will I will divorce Hanun. I don't care if my prestige falls or my colleagues withdraw their shares, the important thing is that I get a divorce with Hanun.
Arrrhhhh.I took a breath and threw it away rough. I don't know why Luna should run away, if she thinks I'm messing around. Women are difficult to understand his mind, his attitude is always changing. But I'm sure he loves me very much, sometimes I can't believe because he's so beautiful and perfect, and I've married and often blasphemed him and insulted him.
"Sir please come in, the boss is waiting." a woman came to me. He's the secretary here.
"Yes." I replied short. I went straight into the room.
"Hahaha.what else is Yudha.."
"For the boss, if it's not a problem I can't come." I said sitting on the guest sofa.
"You divorced? how many times have you heard those words."
"This is true, I'm not strong anymore."
"Hahaha.is there another girl, where is your loyalty Yudha. Didn't you always glorify your wife."
"That was all there was a reason why I took this action. My patience is on the brink, I can't be patient anymore."
"Tell me, Yuly will record, no one is crooked and out of the way that leads to lies."
"Where have I ever lied Mr. De."
"Father suggest to you after telling a long breath, do not let after being recorded you say not to be divorced, the city's loss."
"This is right, Mr. De, this time I'm serious" I said convincingly. If I don't remember him getting old, I've taken out his mustache, which is like a catfish moustache.
After Mr. De was full of mocking me, I finally got my divorce in the process as well. I gave him the authority to represent me because I didn't want to see Hanun again.
"No mediation, I don't want to." I said when Mr. De asked me.
"Hopefully, this looks like a badass."
"I hope Mr. De can solve this problem quickly" I said, issuing a check.
Mr. De stood up to me and held my hand that wanted to write the nominal requested.
"Save your money for orphans." rippled my blood when Mr. De said orphans. I bit my lip remembering Luna, the woman I had destroyed.
"Sir De, I love someone, but he's leaving me." I finally ventured to confess, my voice shaking as I mentioned that the woman was an orphan. Mr. De looked surprised, then he tried to smile.
"Whoever you love, no matter where you come from, you don't have to feel down and think that woman is worthless in your eyes. As long as the woman is kind and loves you too, there is no harm in you asking her and marrying her like any other woman you have ever married" Mr. De wrote.
"I hurt her so much that she hesitated to continue this relationship." I said slowly as if to myself
"If you feel like you're hurting him, go find him. But if you're still hesitant and there's a feeling of inferiority to accompany her then let her go."
"I don't care who he is, I love him." I said seriously.
"If you keep looking for him and marry him" said Mr. De back to sit down.
I took the mineral water on the table and gulped it down. Yuly who always looks at me winks one eye and smiles sweet God, girls today, can be cheap so. I'm not a hypocrite, but I have a different creteria when it comes to a girl. The first is certainly like Luna, the second is like Luna again and so on Luna.
"Sir.want to drink coffee?" ask Yuly to approach me. I just realized I was looking at him. Maybe he's feeling good.
"Sir De I want to go home, here's a check I signed and please fill in the numbers so I don't owe."
"Sana came home, remember find a beautiful wife" said Mr. De patted my shoulder.
"Trimakasih pak De." kataku keluar dari kantor pengacara.
I got into the car circling around who knew Luna was among the crowd. But my wish to meet Luna was always empty.
With a feeling of emptiness and eyes can not be separated from the crowd of people or pedestrians, I drove the Robicon car through the city crowd. The story never ends song from Lauv accompanies my journey today.
Don't know where this car is going, until I don't know it's entering Dirga's house. Security stopped my car.
"Sorry we don't accept guests" he said lacking sympathy.
"I'm a friend of Mr. Dirga's, would like to see Mr. Dirga."
"No, sorry." said the security firmly. I had to pull out my phone and call Dirga.
"Call...."
"Dirga, are you sick?" I was surprised to hear Dirga's voice as if deep.
"I'm sick, come home I don't need to look."
"I'm going in!!" I said firmly, long time no answer. Finally a young man approached me.
"Please enter sir."
"Thank you."
I entered the courtyard of the Dirga house that resembled the mansion. I felt bad when I saw the people who were there with grim and haggard faces. Fifteen men and women sat outside Dirga's room.
"Excuse me ma'am, I am Yudha Dirga's friend." I said to the mother who first greeted me.
"He's in the consumables at the doctor's check. You can look at her for a minute, the doctor forbids her from meeting anyone" said the woman looking at me.
"Yes ma'am I understand." I replied politely.
Before entering the room I was told to wear APD clothes. I think Dirga got Covid-19. Right now I don't think that far, the important thing is that I get to meet Dirga. With a sense of urgency I opened the door.
I was stunned to see Dirga on the bed rolled weakly. Slowly I approached her, her eyes were looking pretty and her face was turning old and black. His once burly body became thin.
"Dirga.." I stood by his bedside.
"Will it be Jud.." his voice was deep in the throat.
"I'm your real friend, why don't you tell me you're sick. I can take you to Surabaya or Singapore."
"I will die Jud. Take care of Luna Don't waste her.." Dirga's voice was soft and choked.
"No, you can't give up. We'll be together again like we used to." I tried to cheer him up and give him support.
"Ma.af.kan me.." he gave me two pendrive with weak hands and trembled. I was hesitant to take it, but I quickly grabbed it when Dirga's hand drooped.
"Dirga!!" subconsciously I screamed in shock seeing Dirga's eyes bulging stiffly. My shout made everyone who was outside rush in. They pushed me away.
I had to get out when my hand was pulled by someone. I turned my head and, my God, it was Hanun. He looked at me sadly. I hurriedly brushed off his hand while moving away.
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