Agatha Anderson
Agatha Anderson — Doubts

...Like walking down a cliff-tipped path with a ravine on the right and left waiting for me to fall,...

...I couldn't even turn my steps back. Just armed with the hope of a bridge at the end of the cliff that will save my steps....

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Agatha walked quickly to her apartment, she took the time to take Christ to lunch together because the man was not feeling well. But the problem is that Christ couldn't be contacted since two hours ago. A little worried him and thought that there could be bad things happening to the man.

"Christ?" call him as soon as he passed the door and entered the middle room, but there was no word from the man. Agatha walked to her room and thought it was possible that the man had fallen asleep but the room was empty, even in the study or in another room.

Where'd he go?

Agatha again tried to contact the man's cell phone but the call was diverted. The choice at a time like this is to contact Leon.

'Hi, Agatha. What's up?' asked Leon cheerfully across the street, it felt like this Leon had never been angry because he was always in a good mood when Agatha looked for him.

"Ah, Leon sorry to bother you again. Is Christ in the office right now? She said she wasn't feeling well this morning so I decided to go home and take her to lunch together but she wasn't there." 

'Ah, that's—ya he was to the office and was in discussion with the marketing team. Yes, the secretary said that to me, ", replied Leon who inexplicably sounded hesitant.

"I tried to contact her since then but couldn't. Okay Leon, thanks for the information. Have a nice day" Agatha said before hanging up her phone.

There was something strange about the way Leon answered his question, there was a doubt that Agatha could hear but she tried to ignore that awkward feeling.

Towards her study, Agatha opened the drawer and took her cigarette. For a long time he had been chatting with his cigarette, with a lighter in his hand to start it and smoking it slowly before blowing the smoke into the air.

To be honest there was a strange feeling he was thinking about lately.

When hating Christ, his feelings are pure and feel ordinary. But the more he tried to open his heart to be close and accept Christ, there were doubts that were present accompanying his feelings.

Well, he's already starting to like Christ but he himself doesn't know why and what the reason for the doubt is. Not doubt about his feelings but doubt that leads to the person of Christ.

There was nothing wrong with her husband's attitude. Christ was always kind and warm to her. Be patient with his unfriendly attitude. And patiently waiting for him who cannot love properly. Christ never said rudely or was angry with her. The man always gave a warm smile and said pleasant things to invite him to talk.

If remembered again Christ is a good man and that is what made Agatha decided to open her heart. He appreciated all the kindness that the man had given him.

And now that Agatha had confessed her feelings, she had doubts about the man. Christ became softer than usual. A warm and cheerful smile is replaced by a smile with another softness like storing meaning in.

It should have made her even more confident but she felt Christ was keeping a distance with her. Often disappears without news and is more reserved. Agatha did not know why but several times she caught Christ staring at her with a completely different look than usual.

Blowing cigarette smoke that I don't know how it looks enjoyed by Agatha. Time showed at two o'clock in the afternoon and he should have gone back to the office. After weighing for a moment Agatha grabbed her phone and contacted someone.

"Carren, I'm not coming back to the office. Just send me the data I need to see and also the data that needs my approval" he ordered Carren's secretary.

Maybe he should work from home because there is no important schedule other than this morning with the furniture, Joshua is also not in the office, and again he should wait for Christ back.

Agatha opened some of the documents she had brought while waiting for another file from her secretary. He occasionally exhaled his cigarette smoke into the air quietly while his other hand worked.

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Christ and Neona had finished lunch since then and now the woman took her to a cafe with a private view.

"Neona, what exactly do you want from me?" christ asked then after the two of them were silent for quite a while.

"I want nothing more than to make you and your beloved wife suffer like me."

"Do you think I don't feel pain?" Christ replied impatiently.

"You got what you wanted. You can live happily now without thinking about the past."

"Neona, you misjudged. I never once forgot that moment. I'm trying to get back to life after years of being cooped up in the depths of regret."

"If you just want to take revenge on me, you better stop. Please, Neona."

The woman turned her face away, "You know Christ, after breaking off our engagement and after my quarrel with your family that time my life was never happy. I left and meant to forget all the bad things that happened but I just felt burdened. I feel like a criminal among people without them noticing."

"I had a nightmare about what I saw that night. I can't tell you the real thing that happened to anyone else. I visit a psychiatrist to heal my fear of dreams every night. I keep trying to keep your secret even if I have trouble myself. And it was during that difficult time that I went back to questioning my love for you. Why am I foolishly falling in love with a man who has lost everyone else's life."

"Neona, don't say as if I'm the only bad guy."

"You're a bad guy, Christ. You broke my heart when you knew that I liked you for four years. You always said it was an accident when it was obvious you were intentional."

"How many times have I said it's not true. I never intentionally did that. I'm also like you who have nightmares every night. I even had to lock myself up all this time just to heal myself. I also feel crazy every time his shadow appears in my head. How dirty I am."

"You should admit it Christ."

"No."

"I regret following you that night, I regret loving you for bringing me to a life of fear. You're making me lose a lot of happiness" Neona said, filled with emphasis.

"I was just wondering how your wife would react if she knew the truth."

Then Neona got up from her seat, "I'll make you regret Christ so much that the pain and fear I felt could be erased."

Christ stared at Neona's departure with an uncertain feeling but the most dominant one was fear.

She was afraid that what Neona said would actually happen.

He cannot and will not lose Agatha.

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