
...Because every human being has the same position and opportunity before time....
...Happy or sad....
...Stop or keep going....
...In the end, it is man who chooses his decision....
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The choice to come up with all the risks involved has kept him in this room for almost three hours. Still in the same silence.
After Agatha was rushed to the hospital, she drove her car as fast as she could.
And just as his steps came to a halt in front of the door of the room where his wife was, his ears heard the thing that had relaxed his legs instantly.
"I.m pregnant..."
Sentences that were able to make him feel an emotional attack at the same time. Fear, pleasure, anxiety, happiness and must be mixed into one. His head felt empty until he fell sitting in front of the door.
Agatha's pregnant.
That's their kid.
His kid. Meat blood.
And if I don't remember wrongly, this is the last two months of her marriage agreement.
Christ was still staring at Agatha who had been crying for almost an hour without saying anything.
"Speak."
A sentence that made Christ stunned and felt a glimmer of hope.
"Agatha..."
"Whatever you say will affect my decision on this child."
"Agatha don't say that..."
"That's why you should speak honestly wisely" he said coldly.
Christ's heart melos. He felt sick but he deserved it.
"Agatha, I'm sorry. I know my mistakes are unforgivable, I won't make excuses that will make you hate me even more."
Christ was silent for a moment, the man's face was so murky and trembling that it sounded from his voice signifying all the heaviness he was now bearing.
"You can call me a murderer, I won't dodge. I like you so much that it makes me a real criminal. I regretted my impulsive attitude at that time. And I know it's too late for my apologies and regrets. I've never forgotten that incident in my entire life."
"All the happiness and love I give you is not a lie. I have loved you all this time, endured that feeling all this time and never changed" said the man quietly with a line of bitter smiles at the tip of his lips.
Christ wants to fight for her love, wants to keep loving and making Agatha happy for the rest of her life, wants to make her understand and forgive him. But the conversation between her, Leon and Arthur last night made her think that if everything were to be passed on her will, even if the goal was to make Agatha happy then it would only repeat the same mistake.
Plus Agatha's pregnancy news now.
His guilt multiplied if he forced his will.
"Why do you have to do it, Christ?" finally Agatha made a sound, though nothing more than a whisper. "You shouldn't have lost his life."
Christ tried to hold the heat in the corner of his eye that threatened to bring down the tear. No one can forgive a murder. Moreover, the life belongs to someone who is very meaningful in life.
"I never meant that to Mikael and if you can't forgive me, I'll take it. Whatever your decision is now and the baby is in your stomach—"
Agatha rubbed her tears in silence, even she felt that everything was so stifling.
"Get out."
"Agatha..."
"Go from here."
Christ could no longer hold back the crystal circle that finally dripped from the corner of his eye. It hurts more than anything he's ever felt.
"Agatha, I'm sorry..."
He didn't want to step his foot out, he didn't want to leave his wife in this state but seeing Agatha's sobs made him so sick that slowly his feet stepped back out of there.
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It's been a week since Agatha forced her home from the hospital.
Joshua knows things are getting a lot tougher for Agatha after learning that there is a new life in her as her heart is being crushed by the man who made her happy.
That day Joshua was forced to leave Agatha because there were things he had to take care of at the office. Gabriel had a meeting until the afternoon, and promised to accompany Agatha as soon as possible if she was done.
Fearing to leave Agatha alone, Joshua made sure all his servants were always near Agatha's room and watched over her best friend.
Agatha was able to leave her room to take her off. The woman looked pale and thin as she refused to eat or would regurgitate her.
"I'm okay, don't worry about me. Work properly" Agatha said as Joshua hesitated before entering the car.
"How can I not worry if I see you like this?"
"I'm fine, Joshie."
And with a heavy heart Joshua got into the car after tightly hugging Agatha.
"You know I'll always be there for you, right? I love you Agatha."
"Thank you, Joshie. For everything and being my best friend. I hope you'll find your own happiness."
"And I'll be happy if you're happy."
Joshua smashed Agatha's head slowly before actually leaving.
Agatha put her foot back inside. A servant specially appointed by Joshua walked behind him.
"You should have lunch, miss. I'll prepare it for you."
"Later. Before that can I ask you a favor?"
"Yes, Miss."
"Bring me as many white Lily flowers as you can find at the florist's shop. I'll eat if you've brought all those flowers to the room."
A little astonished by the request of the lady, the maid then nodded.
"Well, miss, I'll do it soon."
"Oh, one more. Make sure you put and arrange it neatly in the room. I'm gonna take a shower and I hope everything's ready once I'm done."
"Well, lady," the maid said nothing more than to coordinate with the other servants to immediately search for the white Lily flower.
Agatha stopped as she passed through the large glass in the central room. Staring at his reflection that looked so lousy and smiling faintly. His brown bead turned on his belly which was not yet visible, rubbing it gently lovingly.
"I'm sorry you had to have an imperfect and bad mother like me."
Then Agatha returned to her room, set foot into the bathroom. He needs fresh water to fix himself.
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One hand was stuck to the phone in her ear. Contacting someone who can run with him.
"Gabriel!"
'What's up Josh, I just finished and I'm going to your house.'
"Hurry to my house now!"
'What's up?' gabriel's voice sounded anxious now.
"Agatha! He needs us now!"
Joshua then switched off the connection and quickly drove his car back to his residence.
Just now the waiter at home contacted her in a panic as the lady did not come out of the bathroom after two hours inside.
As soon as he entered the house Joshua ran into Agatha's room and how surprised he saw hundreds of white Lily stalks decorating the room. His feeling is uncomfortable.
Lily white.
Michael.
It's like a funeral.
He saw the servants and guards at the door, knocking anxiously.
"What are you doing! Open door!" his yell.
"We can't open it, sir..."
Then with a single kick, Joshua smashed down the door.
And the neutrals are breaking when they see Agatha.
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Agatha walked slowly through the flower fields.
The wind blowing her hair made her feel relieved.
As far as his eyes could see there was only a stretch of white Lily there.
Is beautiful.
Walking further his manic stared at the familiar figure before him, standing on his back.
"Michael?"
His call made the owner of the name turn and smile.
"Agatha..."
"You! Can talk?"
Agatha stared in disbelief before running over into her male embrace. The man who became his life.
"I miss you Mikael, so miss you."
Her tears dropped slowly but Mikael's hand rubbed her gently.
"I miss you too" said the sweet man then hugged Agatha tightly.
The two took off their longs and walked down the Lily flower field together. As if nothing could separate them here.
Agatha did not remove the hand link between them until a voice called out to her.
"Mommy?"
Agatha turned her head and found a handsome boy staring at her with sparkling eyes.
"Who?"
"Mommy doesn't recognize me? Why Mommy goes so far. I want to go home. Papa's been waiting."
Agatha was certainly confused and looked at Mikael.
"He's your son."
"What's? But how..."
"He's your son with Christ."
Agatha still did not understand until Mikael clasped her shoulders gently and looked at her with a warm smile.
"Agatha, you know I like you a lot, right?"
Agatha nodded in response.
"I will love you at all times. You see this place is so beautiful, right? I'll always be waiting for you here."
Mikael held Agatha in his arms and kissed the woman gently on her forehead.
"I will always wait to be here with you. But not now."
Mikael looked at the handsome boy who was still staring at the expectant mother.
"Go back with him and Christ."
"But I want to be with you."
"I knew. But you remember what happened to me, right? I was abandoned by my parents. And I don't want you to be that parent."
Agatha let her tears fall upon Mikael's words.
"Go back. Be happy with Christ and your son."
"Mom..."
"Christ is not a bad man. I believe he loves you as much as I do. Be happy with her, Agatha."
The fragrance of Lily's flowers swept over her sense of smell as her eyes slowly opened and noticed the anxious faces around her.
"Agatha!"
"Sunshine!"
Christ hugged her body so tightly with tears drenching his face. The man's body trembled violently.
"You promised you wouldn't leave. Why are you doing it?"
Slowly Agatha's thin hand rubbed the man's back.
"I'm sorry, it's worried you. I promise I will never go" whispered Agatha softly and Christ who heard it suddenly tightened his arms.
"Agatha."
"I forgive you, Christopher Winston. Promise to live with me."
The two human's crumbling cries of the past's wounds broke. There was a faint sound but a warm smile that followed, as well as the hope that they would heal each other.
"I promise. I will always be with you and our son."
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