An Overdose of Love
N2= My Missing Wife>> Fears About It
I should have had to limit my closeness to Salwa from the beginning, and even should have rejected all her wishes, so that the lost love would no longer be present for her, and could hurt Ana. But the rice has become a porridge where everything has happened, and all the words thrown out can not be repaired anymore.
I saw Ana's face so depressed that there was no smile anymore, and so clearly implied a deep sadness and hurt, which she tried to hide. I am so anxious now for my rude attitude towards him, and that sin continues to haunt me.
Rightly said people, the wrong closeness between men and women, will definitely involve the feeling of someone being hurt, and it happens to Ana now. Yes, I involve feelings of kindness and concern for Salwa, but it makes me more prone to error.
"Why should I be with Salwa when I feel this way, too" I muttered in my heart.
"Meeting with him will always make me feel messy and ungodly?" my mind just keeps worrying about regrets.
Eyes continued to ponder behind the glass of my company, thinking about how else the fate of the next love. Will it unite with Ana or not? Or maybe it will end?.
"It's impossible!" I kept shaking my head tightly.
"Why did the mind get there? Am I against the love of destiny? And how long will it be like this, and it can unfold and end?" I just kept on worrying about my own feelings.
"Boss later in the day there's a meeting at the mall xxx!" said Rudi has entered my office.
"Eeem."
"Kok emm doang, do not want to see what there is a meeting list later?" gerutu Rudi explained.
"Just put it there, I'll see it later." tell me.
"Why else, Boss? Your face lately is so tangled, there is no more cheerful like before" asked Rudi.
"There's nothing, Rudi!."
"If there's nothing, why put on such a lethargic and tangent face?" added Rudi.
"Come on Rudi," I replied lazily.
"What else is it, boss? Seriously. Don't tell me this is about Ana again?" guess my secretary.
"You are indeed my best friend who understands me the most," I praised him for his guess.
"Certainly that?" tanyanya could not believe it.
"Heeem."
"You are exactly right, Rudi. I was really dizzy thinking about Ana, I don't know what to do with her again. Yesterday this self hurt and disappointed him a lot with my attitude and all my words. I don't know why I'm being chased by a vein of sin" I lamented in confusion.
"You did it must be unconscious, you will lose your memory again" said Rudi.
"Right you said, but my words yesterday were really outrageous, and to me it would be inappropriate for Ana to forgive all my insults," Feeling hopeless.
There will be no way to fix everything.
"You who are patient, there will be a way. Holy and strong love will not be lost even if the storm hits, all leave it to the Owner of the Heart that is God. There will definitely be a time when it will all end beautifully, passionately for you guys," Rudi tried to give support by patting my shoulder.
Just being able to meringis, not knowing what answer I will give to Rudi.
"You must have done it all, influenced by Salwa's words."
The conversation gets serious. There is a little bit of Salwa ghibahin, but we deserve to talk about it because it will have a huge impact on the future.
"True Rudi, I was too swept away by all Salwa's words, without listening any more to Ana and family's words" I said.
My secretary's advice has a point. It is not wrong to try.
"Well, Rudi, I will try to obey your words" I agreed.
"I hope the Boss won't fall again. Ana is a good woman, a big mistake if you keep hurting her. He loves you so sincerely."
"really that? I hope what you say is true. I really wanted to go back to knowing Ana, but why can't I remember our memories at all. How long will this happen? My bathins are so tormented."
"Patient, Boss. Just slow. Nothing is instant. It all needs a process."
Eyes are so empty. A lot of the burden of the mind that now continues to control the head. No longer know what actions to do about household problems that may not be difficult to save.
"Yes, Rudi. Hopefully our relationship will be okay. If it's true Ana is my wife who definitely doesn't want to waste her."
"Of course, Boss."
"Hopefully all this will end. I don't want to lose a woman who's filled happy days."
"Amin, patience, boss. There's a way, we're just looking for a loophole to get it done."
Tok .. tok, my door is knocked.
"Go in," tell me.
"This man has a guest!" say the officer outside.
"Just ask him to come in."
"Good, Sir. Excuse me first."
"Yes." Yeah."
My eyes and Rudi were already staring blankly at the street, trying to get busy with each other's thoughts.
"Excuse me, is this the guest?" say my staff again.
"Oh yeah. Just go in, "my conscious answer from daydreaming.
"Ana, you?" My surprise was not that he would come to the company.
Quite surprised. If Ana was someone else, I wouldn't know where my company is.
"Tumben you're here?" welcome me enthusiastically with joy.
There was a sense of pleasure, it turns out Ana began to melt and remember me.
"I don't want to make small talk and be too big here" Ana said.
Eyes squealing side by side, on the purpose of the direction of the conversation.
"My arrival here was just handing this over" he said, showing a red map.
Plaak, a paper wrapped in map, was thrown by Ana on my desk.
"What's this?" bungungungu.
"This is a divorce letter that has just been made and I have signed, you are the only one who signed it" Ana explained.
"What?" I said I don't believe.
Hands start to clench. His words yesterday were no joke. Unexpected and not expecting if Ana will file divorce papers first after her promise.