An Overdose of Love
The dilemma is to get married
# FLASHBACK ON PART 19 #
The feeling of loneliness that is buried due to no friends who are spoken to can keep a secret, now makes the performance of the brain is turning around to find a way, making the brain, for what reason would parents agree that I should marry Yona.
"How do I find that excuse? Would our parents agree if we were married? Then what about my college? Aah, what am I supposed to do now? Do not let the disgrace of having fucked Yona will be widespread because there is no marriage bond, surely it will be very embarrassing to parents if everyone else knows my depravity," muttered heart confused do not know how, he said, who was now lying relaxed while looking at the sky roof.
"I have to go see my mom now and ask her opinion. Yes, I have to talk about this to my mother, who knows there will be a solution to this strange problem," I told myself who was now rising from the bed.
Step hastily down the stairs in order to find a beloved biological mother. In all the places I've been looking, until the last time in the garden behind the house that is overgrown with some flowers is blooming looks beautiful and soothing.
"Hi, Ma!" my broom to him was casually enjoying the fragrance of tea.
"Hi, too, baby!" Back greeting he is friendly.
"There's something Adrian wants to talk to mama about, it's important! Are you willing to listen to what Adrian wants to say now. But promise later do not be angry, if you know all my explanations," said this self hesitated to explain to mama.
"Yes, honey. Speak, insyallah mama will not be angry if it is a good thing," he replied casually.
"Yes, yes ma!" Repeat my words for doubt, for fear that he will actually be angry if this self has explained.
"Yes, Adrian."
"Mama knows Yona who was a high school friend until now became Adrian's college friend, right?" I was with my body shaking in a cold sweat.
"Yes, mom knows. What's wrong with him?" He asked back, curious.
"Oh, mama must be angry if I explain the truth. Do I have to find another way to get married?" I am in my heart against myself.
"Adrians ... Adrian?" call mama by waving my hands in front of my face, because this self had daydreamed for a while.
"Eeh, yes ma!" my answer is conscious from daydreaming.
"What do you want to talk about Yona's problem?" ask her.
"I ... I, love Yona so much!" I replied, so sweaty but cold.
"Continue?" added said the curious mama with a face staring closely at me.
"Keep .. te. rus, I want to marry her soon, ma!" I answered honestly with a quick-talk intonation.
"Uhuk .. uhuuuk," Mom's coughing voice choked on the tea drink, shocked by what I just said.
"Mama's okay?" ask my concerns while giving a tissue.
"No pa-pa .. ngak pa-pa, Adrian!" he answered slowly waving his hand.
"What did you really say? Mama didn't hear me wrong, did you just say what?" Ask him who might not believe it.
"Yes, ma!" answer bowed.
"Good that. Lagian Yona seems like a good boy and from a distinguished family," replied the mama casually.
"So my mom agrees? Not angry, is it?" I smiled because I was happy.
"But, ma. What about papa? Surely he will not agree with this problem, because Adrian is still in college and not working?" Doubt of heart is afraid again.
"Papa's problem is easy, so mom will talk to him later. It is also true that you are still studying. Emm, what if our marriage problem is delayed by a year or two, so you can continue the study. Let's have a fiancee's show first, how?" say mama gave a suggestion with her bright idea.
"It was your idea, ma. But I'll ask Yona first, does she want anything?" my answer.
"OK! My mother will receive the next news from you. If you are ready and mature your negotiations, then tell your mother, "he replied casually.
"Siip, ma."
Eventually the problem that became my doubt and confusion was solved as well. Didn't expect the mother is a powerful medicine for heart melipur when problems for the sake of problems can not be solved by this child. Mama has always been a great woman, smart, and always relaxed when faced with problems.
Now my job is to go back to the room again, to try to ask Yona about the plan that mama proposed earlier.
Tut .. tut, the device has now been busy trying to contact Yona on the advice given.
[Hallo baby, the tumbens are you calling me first?]
[There's something I want to talk to you about, so I had to call first]
[Ooh, what is it?]
[It's a matter about us, which you asked to marry immediately. I was talking about this to my mom and she seemed to agree, but she suggested that we not rush to get married first, which can be said more precisely we tie a promise with the fiancee first, how?]
[Where are you, Adrian? I want him to get married as soon as possible, for fear that over time my stomach will grow. But if this is for the good of both of us, what can be done, namely by being embarrassed to get pregnant first but not married]
[You don't talk about it, Yona. If that really happens, then I will marry you soon even though my parents will forbid it, but on condition that we live this proposal first, okay?]
[Okay, no problem. The important thing is that you are responsible for everything. But really promise yes, if my stomach seems to grow you will actually marry me?]
[Yes, Yona. I will definitely keep that promise]
Click, gawaipun has shifted in dead mode no longer connected. Now this self can only resign to all the disasters that have just happened to me. Netra continued to be busy staring at the ceiling of the room, which only showed the beauty of decorative chandeliers. The heart was so upset and confused over the course of action I had to take later, whether it was really that the decision to marry was absolutely right or a misstep.
"O Allah, is my decision to marry Yona right or wrong? I know this is Your plan that I have not thought of. I will accept this matter with great courage, for You know what is best for me. But it feels somehow that the heart is so doubtful over all this? So I ask You, O God, if Yona is my soul mate, bring our relationship closer together and happier, but if she is not best for me, then keep away, "taste the heart.
"Yona is a sweet, graceful and authoritative woman, but unfortunately she is too haughty, arrogant, oppressing the weak, judes, likes indistinct anger. Can I face his qualities like that? Aah, why do I have to match up with such a woman? Heeh, but that's okay, it's all because of my mistake that was instigated by a mere pleasure drink" I said in my heart.
The mind keeps raging, when the woman who is opposite is not the desire of the heart.
It's restlessness and the confusion of the mind that I feel.
Seems to refuse but in reality this self must accept reality.
Bitter is what I feel now, even though it feels so nauseating with the forced self to swallow it.
A million charms are not enough to melt my heart that does not like its nature.
Frozen and stiff 'that's what feels between sweet memories but feels bland.
I now do not understand the true meaning of love, when the woman I will hold does not succeed in teaching me.
Do I have to cry bitterly? That is when doubts about his love have come to me.