An Overdose of Love
N2=My Missing Wife>> Still Haven't Found Him
"Aah .. ahh," My frustration that keeps slamming the steering wheel of the car, due to annoyance can not know the whereabouts of Ana.
Ana's been missing for a week, and I don't know if she's alive or dead.
"O Allah, when he is alive give the servant a clue to find him immediately, but if he is dead, show him where the grave and the body are" my prayer in my heart was filled with tears.
I wiped the tears quickly, so that the father-in-law did not know, because I did not want him to worry more. Weight loss is now starting to drop dramatically no appetite due to too strong the mind thinks of Ana.
The steps are so weak when you want to set the ground, the bones feel like they want to be separated from the joints. I don't know how many steps this self down the road, it feels steps are no longer strong to tread the earth. Though the distance from the car to the restaurant in-laws is not too far just twenty steps have arrived, but due to the feeling of passion that is not passionate, making this self was forced to stop to step. Finally I was sitting limp in the restaurant in-laws, blankly looking at the crowded streets that had many cars passing by.
"Adit, how? Any word on Ana?" asked Mama who had approached me sitting dreamy.
"Still the same, Ma! There is no progress on the news" I replied with my lips already shaking, and reddened eyes began to glaze over.
"You have to be patient and don't stop finding it."
Mama gave her encouragement, while holding Aliya to feed her with porridge.
"How Adit wants the spirit, Ma! If there were no clues to his whereabouts," I lamented in despair.
"Mom knows, Adit. You're so frustrated. But behind it all, I am sure God will show me the way, for God is above all things. Allah will never make his people accept trials beyond the limits of the ability of his people, for you and Ana are strong so Allah gives you these trials" he advised.
"Yes, Ma. Adit will try to be more patient."
Shok, sad, tangent, has now mixed everything into one in my feelings.
Mama from just now could only stand by me, trying to calm me down with all her advice and words of encouragement.
"You must be strong, calm and patient, remember your son Aliya who you must pay attention to as well" he said.
"Yes, Ma."
"Now go to the restaurant, it's not nice to see people sitting here. And later entertain your father-in-law with encouragement too, he looks so sad until some days the restaurant is closed," said Mama.
"Yes, Ma." Languid speech.
At home, we sat in the living room, and Mama handed Aliya over to me. She stepped into the kitchen and brought a glass of water.
"Adit, you drink this first!" mama said while offering water, which she had brought just now.
With one hand, he took the water in his hand.
Then Aliya was taken over again by Mama, then I drank the water until it ran out of the toilet, then I put the glass that I was holding on the table. The body feels very tired, which is coupled with a chaotic and dizzy mind.
"Oh my God, I beg you. Give me my request now. Give me a hint of how this self should look for Ana again," I prayed in my heart with a pensive face back.
"You must not be sad, Adit. Mama also became sad to see your state is chaotic like this!"
His voice was already wet hoarse, when he saw my eyes had slightly released clear water.
It feels like the mind and heart are no longer strong, as a result of enduring this grief and ordeal.
"You must be strong. Mama's sure, we'll soon receive some good news about Ana!" Mama who has shed tears.
"Amin, Ma."
"Mama don't cry" I said, wiping away her tears.
"Thank you, Adit. Mama felt unbearable, seeing your constant state like this!" Even though he was busy carrying he still had time to stroke my shoulder.
"Mama take it easy, I'm a strong boy. Adit used to be put in this position, even longer than Ana was left for six years," My words tried to break the sadness between us.
His name is also left by loved ones, so there is no word other than to feel sad.
"It used to be different, son. Ana went there was her father, and now she's gone no matter who accompanied her," she asked Mama's reply.
"Don't be sad again Ma, okay! We have to keep praying that Ana can be found quickly and there is a clue for all of us to be revealed, "Reverse is encouraging.
"Yes, Son. It must be."
Now at the corner of our lips there is a smile. Even if we had to keep showing a fine face. Too late in the sadness is also not good, because instead of meeting but even dizziness seven circumference so that there is chaos do not know where he is.
"Adit doesn't know how to start looking for him? It felt like everything was deadlocked, and there was no clue to find immediately," I replied in frustration.
"Patience and continuing to face it with patience is the key to everything. Let's wait for the good news." My mom can calm me down again.
The child is sleeping well. Fortunately, he was not fussy because there was no mother. I am so thankful that my mom has time to babysit. The experience of having a new child for the first time, so if not helped by the wife will definitely be overwhelmed if you care for yourself. Now Ana's not around, and it's lucky Aliya doesn't fuss with her grandmother.