An Overdose of Love
Tests that make you dizzy

# FLASHBACK ON PART 20 #

I felt so upset when I remembered Yona's words, when she had learned of that curse night. It feels like I really want to grab her hair firmly, but because of the anger that was originally so hot that I could take it as much as possible.

"Why does sister Yona have to know, anyway? Just make him that sprain. If you want to get brother Adrian please, do not use ngancam all. Adrian is not

I will be able to think of myself as a lover and forever I will be his sister. Heeh, fate. How very, yes!" my grunts in my heart were lying idly in the room.

Doubt about admitting everything really tormented me, how not! Because this strong evidence of self having lost the crown was done by the adoptive brother nothing at all, to the point that I am now silenced in a tight-knit self-torture. The evidence will be clear all his senses brother Adrian has remembered all the events, but unfortunately it was just my imagination, because until now the adoptive brother br*ngs*I don't remember that night at all.

This situation is so cornering me that I can't dwell to get out of this. Disappointment continues to pierce the heart when the incident still overshadows the mind continues.

"What ... what should I do? Adrian's brother is really cruel not to remember the events of that night. Will I be able to keep everything together, while my future will one day be married so at stake? What about my husband if he finds out I don't approvew*n anymore? Emm, would he kill me if he found out? God, why does this burden feel so heavy I live? Why is it that all the dreams of wanting to be happy with a new family, have now been shattered swallowed by the problem of the loss of the crown?" a troubled heart.

So strong is my hatred for Adrian, so that more and more today this self is increasingly away from him and never again greet or talk to him. Even when we met at the dinner table we felt like strangers, just the deting of a tablespoon accompanied our activities. Mama repeatedly melted the atmosphere so that I returned cheerful and wanted to talk to Adrian's sister, but in fact my ego who was angry with him, was not enough to melt my defense to improve with him.

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Even at school I never asked for a delivery again, because for me I can do it alone, why should I ask for help with a brother-in-law who does not remember his responsibility.

"Hey Karin, alone eating dikantin?" greet the classmate.

"Yes, just be sure. I don't know just me, who never had a friend who would play with me," I explained casually as I scooped up food to enter my mouth.

"Well, don't tell me why. What am I still? 'And your friend, too" replied the friend disliked.

"Yes .. Yes, you are the only one who will greet me. Thank you, yes!" I said be friendly to him.

"Siip. Oh yes, Karin. I've seen you daydream a lot lately, why?" ask my friend again.

"There's nothing, just a little problem in my personal life."

"Ooh, I hope it's over soon"

"Yes, thank you."

It felt like the view was so somewhat blurred, until long ago the dizziness had come whack, but everything I ignored and just continued to eat lunch at the canton. The tongue suddenly tastes really good to include food again. Resa bengas and stomach a bit nauseous even so felt stirring the contents in my stomach, until at the end of the food that had just entered the stomach suddenly now already felt at the end of the throat.

"Eeem .. eeepp," My voice was restrained from vomiting and now I have been holding back with my hands.

"You why ... why, Karin?" I asked my friend how strange it felt to me.

"Sorry .. Sorry, I want to go to the toilet first!" pamitku who is now standing, wants to rush to the bathroom.

With all my might, now I quickly start running, to immediately come to the toilet because the feeling of wanting to vomit is no longer restrained.

"Grand .. ueeek!" My voice is weak when everything in my stomach has gone out.

The body feels very weak, which immediately sits not strong to support the body itself. Fingers have been kneading the periphery of the temple, when the dizziness has been present feels strongly throbbing.

"Well, what happened to me? Why am I so nauseous and dizzy all of a sudden? Am I sick or in the wind? But why also have to catch a cold, when I from yesterday-yesterday is fine for the condition of this body. What can't-don't I--? Aah, how could it possibly have happened, while the events of that night had long since happened? But, didn't I during these two weeks late m*nstr*si. Oh no. No. No way, where maybe I will get pregnant," I said in my heart trying to guess.

The face began to pale deathly, with soft circles of tears began to fall on the cheeks. I don't think I can believe that in my stomach there will be an ungodly fetus, due to an accidental accident.

*******

The mind is so scared it can't think clearly anymore. The lesson my teacher explained, not a single subject entered my brain. I feel so deadlocked over the path of reason, because I no longer know what to do if in this stomach there really is a occupant.

"I have to prove it. Yes, I have to buy t*sp*ck to find out if I'm pregnant?" rancauku in my heart.

"O Allah, what misfortune have you brought to me? Am I really pregnant? Hopefully this does not happen, because if it happens surely the family that has been awake, will certainly be destroyed by the actions of this collector. Hopefully this is just a cold symptom, unlike what I thought today. Heeh, what steps do I have to take to uncover everything, while the evidence of the night's events is missing?" The heart just keeps talking, with a dead end can not think clearly anymore.

Krieng .. krieeng, the sound of the school bell has rang, indicating that the study time is over and the time to go home. No waste of time, just go straight to the books and school tools I put in right away, because I want to get to a store quickly to prove what's going on in my head right now. Steps have been running wide accompanied by a small run, to immediately go to the bicycle parking lot at school.

The feet are as strong as the power to pedal the bike quickly. At full speed, without stopping the feet just keep trying to pedal as fast as possible.

"Heeh .. heeeh," My tired voice exhaled and took a breath.

"Excuse me mbak, may I .. i-!" My voice was stifled, afraid to say what I wanted to buy.

When I arrived at Ap*t*k somehow I was so scared I couldn't say what I wanted to buy. It felt really embarrassed to the store clerk, when I said what I wanted to buy it.

"Eeem, that. How do I tell you," I replied.

"Mbak needs medicine? What pain medicine is it?" ask mbakanya.

"It's not a cure, ma'am. More precisely the tool for that ... for," I replied in embarrassment to reveal it.

"Tools for what?" ask again.

"heeh. A pregnancy test, ma'am!" quickly answer.

"Oh, that tool. Wait here, let me get you a minute, yeah!" said the mom relaxed.

It feels like sweat has started to flow small, when timidly tell me what I bought.

"This, madam. It costs Rp. xxxxx!" say the officer.

"If you may know for whom, ma'am! It's impossible for you, right? Some were still in school uniform, cook was pregnant," The employee interrogated me when I put the item I bought in a crackle bag.

"Eee .. eeh, not really mbak. Don't just play accuse me, this is for my brother because he just asked to buy this if I go home from school. I still want to go to school and study, but I might also get pregnant. Just say it this way!" ketusku answered while paying hurriedly.

"If not, don't insist, strange!" talk back to her mom.

"Yes .. yes, sorry! Excuse me," I said, taking the change and the bag of crackles I bought.

My heart feels so bad about the accusations, even though it is actually ninety percent possibility that I could get pregnant, but his words related to the school really offended me, which seems like I'm still a student but like a naughty woman has sold herself to get pregnant.

*******

No matter how I let it collapse just like that, when I was in a hurry to enter the house of Mama Lidya.

"Carin ... Carin. Come on, baby, we'll have lunch!" call my mom when I see you're home from school.

"Later on, ma. There are important things that I want to do now," answered me who now hurriedly walked up the stairs.

"But--? Hey Karin, where are you going so fast" cried Adrian.

Without answering Adrian's question, he just kept walking to enter the room, then just headed straight to the bathroom immediately.

"Come .. Come on, am I really pregnant?" My fear said inwardly, who was now sitting in the bed feeling the tense atmosphere waiting for the results.

The tool was long held tight in the hand, so as not to show a line, because this self is so afraid if it knows the result has been positive. I've squinted my eyes next door, to try to peek at what's on. Streams of sweat began to flood the temple, as if the circle knew that this self was so attacked by fear. Out of curiosity but fear, I was forced to open it wide so that I could freely see the results.

"Haaahhhhh! I'm ... I'm really ham---?" My surprise said that immediately stood up straight because I was surprised by what was seen, when two lines were clearly displayed.

Cluck, the tool just fell, when the hand was weak and felt trembling no more power. This world seems to have collapsed on the body, whose pregnancy situation became a strange addition to my problems again.

"Carin ... Karin, let's go ma---?" Adrian's voice called, which came suddenly play nyelonong into my room.

With a lightning fast tool t*sp*ck it was immediately taken, from the place of the fall of the ceramic and immediately hide behind my waist held tightly by the hand. Adrian's face looks astonished when he saw my behavior, until the words that called earlier paused for so long.

"What happened to you?" tanyanya already feels weird to me.

"There's nothing, brother!" I replied smiling wryly.

"So what did you take just now, it's like-? I want to see what you're hiding behind your hand?" her door.

"Ooh, that. It's just a favorite left by the late parents, brother!" I answered him with a lie.

"I can't believe it, point it here! You seem to be hiding something from me. Your face is expressing strange things that you are trying to cover. Lookie! Your face was pale and sweaty like it was scared," she guessed.

"There really isn't, brother. Oh yeah, you just called me, why?" I tried to relax while shifting the question.

"Mama told me to eat. Come on, Karin, show me what you're hiding behind your hand," he said.

"Aah, it's brother. This is really nothing. Let's just eat, mama will be angry if we get off late, "let me pull her hand strong, so that she will come out of my room immediately.

Although at first Adrian's brother was very difficult to pull, but eventually he wanted to give up also to leave. Before going to close the door, the test item I threw hard to land right on the mattress. I have locked it tightly, so that others can not enter the room and know the fate of my life later. Because this self wants the family should not know about this, which for a while I keep secret and keep silent tightly so that everything is not destroyed in vain, cause I'll probably tell you everything if Adrian's evidence and memory are conscious.