An Overdose of Love
Disillusioned
The pain, the anger, the anger, the disappointment, has now come to me. How not, Chris and I had good intentions to get married, but his parents refused rudely. Not that I'm not happy with their decision, but I don't like the pride of Mr. Chris's family who can humble me. This self is very aware of where it comes from, but does not suck to do all the humiliation. I'm also an ordinary person who has feelings and hearts, which is when someone insulted me must have hurt feelings too.
"Aaah, sebal .. sebal. Why are they insulting me like that? If it does not approve, do not use insulting everything," Dejection in the heart.
"Are you okay, Karin?" mr. Chris asked worriedly, as he was busy driving the car.
"Emm, I'm fine, sir!" I answered nodding my head.
It's not that I don't respect Mr. Chris who has been willing to insult his parents, but I'm really disappointed in their attitude that ruined our dream.
"I'm sorry, Karin. On behalf of my parents and my mistakes. I had no intention of bringing there by hearing the rudeness of their humiliation. Really, I as his son did not expect that my parents would say so," said weak sir Chris regretted.
"It's okay sir. I'm sincere, you know for yourself that I am a despicable person and have been thrown away, so their words may be true that I do not deserve to be with you. Our different degrees like the earth and the sky are one of their reasons, and I will accept that with great courage because all reality is true. Master doesn't suck at feeling so guilty. Let's relax and forget what they said just now. You don't suck at worrying about me, because this self is used to and immune to humiliation, so Mr. Chris's the one who should be patient to have parents who always curb or don't love you completely," Back of my words give me spirit.
"Thank you, Karin. I'm used to it. Every day since then, it's my food. You also don't over think about me, because I'm fine with that" he replied casually.
"Yes, sir. I-i understand. But people know you were so angry and wrathful, threatening to get you off the family list, and it really made me feel bad, for helping this despicable me, you get problems and resentment from your parents. I'm sorry sir, you shouldn't have defended me and wanted me, and let me just overcome the burden of this problem alone. Don't involve you anymore, because I'm afraid the threat will be real" I said.
"You take it easy, Karin. My dad does love emotions, which sometimes would be threatening like that. Don't worry about it, because my parents won't have the heart to do that to their own children" the employer softly tried to calm me down.
"But, sir. I'm still worried, because all this time only they've loved you. Now that you know me, you've become hostile and defiant with them, I'm sorry!" kataku regrets.
"Really, Karin. I'm the one who relaxes. Don't think about it anymore, we better think about how good the future is for me and you, 'who knows even without their blessing we can go to the guarantee, '" he said kindly with a sweet smile.
"I know very well that you want to be with me, but if we get married without the blessing of our parents, we can't. Is it not the father who will be the guardian in the marriage. So you are patient for us to be together. Do not let us both fall into the bond of marriage siri. I've been bothering Mr. Chris all this time, so in the future I don't want to trouble you anymore either. Let this miserable and unhappy life of mine alone. I'm sorry, sir, I didn't refuse but we probably shouldn't be together anymore" I replied in doubt as the car driving me home reached home.
"Heeh, don't .. can't be. Hmm, yeah already. We think again with a calm state first, because who knows some days we will find the right solution and plan so that we can be together. What is clear, even though we can not get married for a while, make me as a role model for your future life. Don't hesitate to ask for my help even if you're not my wife. Forever you will remain the woman I love, even if we are not bound by anything" said Mr. Chris.
"Yes, sir. Thank you .. thank you. I really can't say anything anymore. You are so kind to me, that I do not deserve you. I don't understand why you're so good to me when other people hate and insult me. You were the first man who was sincere to love me, thank you!" I said while dripping with tears that began to flow slowly on my cheeks.
"You don't suck at asking that. I will protect you with all my might and always love you. I sincerely and sincerely love you, so never ask this sincerity. The most important thing is that you are healthy and happy to be by my side, that is enough to make me happy" he said, now wiping my tears with his broad hands.
"Thank you, sir. You are indeed a good man, whom I will always respect and cherish as well," I replied by giving her the most beautiful smile.
"Hmm, come by the house" I bargained.
"Not to be like it. Next time I stop by, you're not offended, are you?" tanyakanya.
"No, sir. Where there is I offended. All right, ngak pa-pa. I understand that you may be tired" I said gently, stroking her delicate cheeks without any feathers sticking together.
"Hmm, thanks for understanding."
"Yes. Then I go down now and for you to be careful on the way," I said farewell.
"Yes. Bye ... bye!" she waved her hand as I got out of her car.
"Bye ..bye, too. Be careful," I said before he walked away.
"Assalamualaikum," My greeting when the hand has turned the door knob.
"Walaikumsalam," answered the mother and father compact.
"Same mother hasn't slept yet?" I kissed them on the back hand.
"No, son. We deliberately did not sleep, because it was waiting for you" replied Fatimah.
"What's up, ma'am. How did you wait for me this late?" I asked because I was confused.
"We're waiting for news about you and Chris' boy" he replied.
"Ooh."
"Where? Do Chris' parents want to accept your plans to get married?" ask the father.
"Huufff, that's it, sir. Arguably rejected outright because of Karin's poor pregnancy and status," I replied sadly.
"You're patient, son. It's not easy if we are dealing with rich people, surely the first reason they refuse is about property, so you have to be a lot of sincere and patient," said the mother who had stroked my shoulder slowly.
"Yes, mom. Karin can understand that," I replied confirming what mother had said.
"Right said your mother, Karin. You have to be patient in all of this. It is not easy to get a husband if you are pregnant. Son Chris is a good young man who can accept you as you are, even if you are like this. He is worth defending, but if opposed by your parents, you do not bother to argue against them in ways that are beyond the limits. So your father's message should not be rash to take action, and continue to master the science of patience. Some of you are now pregnant with someone else's child, and it is not necessarily you can get married immediately because it is forbidden religion. Before your child is born first, then you will be able to do the marriage. You have to wait ... wait for everything with patience," said the father gave advice.
"Yes, sir. Karin understands. Actually, Mr. Chris wouldn't want me to be his best friend, and now we want to get married. But I explained to him that it was not too bad to rush, because marriage without a guardian the parents could not, as long as his biological father was still alive. I did not want to marry her in series or on a paper agreement, because one day it would hurt me as a woman, so I gave her understanding to be patient as well. Love is not always faded, if we both take care of each other," I explained to both adoptive parents.
"That's exactly what you said, son. You do not rush into making that decision, because something that is unplanned and hasty is not good. You are still young to learn a lot, do not be too rash to take action. Even though her parents have rejected you, you must still convince them until their hearts are completely broken to approve, but if you have tried but failed, do not despair, because nothing is impossible if we study the science of patience," added the mother also advised.
"Yes, mom, sir. Karin understands. Hopefully our relationship in the future will be better, without any obstacles and obstacles that block again, amen. Even though I am a poor person, I will never give up on fighting for love in the person who has helped me a lot and sincerely loves me, Mr. Chris," I said optimistically and passionately.
"Good, son!" answer me while gently stroking my hair.
When love strikes, the heart is broken again.
When the baby appeared, again I could not appreciate it.
Why do the people I always loved slowly continue to be unable to touch.
The fate that always wants to be happy, must run aground in the middle of the road, as a result of my life as a person who does not have.
I used to love one love but I never got it, now love is repeated and again I can not have.
Will I forever be this fate, when the heart wants a touch of love.
The faces of those who always smiled sweetly, now I have seen gloom I can no longer see.
My world is empty, with no one to love me anymore.
But patience has convinced me that someday the smile of happiness will begin to come.