An Overdose of Love
The diagnosis surprised me
We can only wait outside, worried and worried about the doctor's examination of my son Naya now. Many times Chris' hand kept gently rubbing my shoulder, which was likely trying to keep me calm when the child looked really sick.
Gradak, the door of the examination room has now opened, which shows a young doctor above our age has come out, accompanied by a nurse from behind. We also approached him to receive news whether it was good or not about baby Naya
"Excuse me, are you the baby's parents?" ask the doctor friendly.
"Yes, doc. I'm his real mother" I replied honestly.
"Can we talk four eyes, because there are many explanations that I have to tell about the condition of the mother's child," the doctor asked.
"Oh yeah, can doc!" reply agreed.
"Let's come with me" he ordered to immediately accompany his steps.
"Yes." Yeah."
"I'm asking you to take care of Naya for a second, ma'am. Because I wanted to follow on the doctor's orders," I said before I actually left.
"Yes, just calm down. I'll take care of him.
"Thank you, ma'am. Come on Chris accompany me to see the doctor," I asked him.
"Emm."
The two of us have started to enter the special room of the doctor, who had had time to check on Naya's condition earlier. My heart was so terrified, because the doctor would not invite me to speak privately if my son's illness was not severe.
"I'll explain what makes your child sick now" the doctor said.
"Yes, doc. What is my child sick?" I'm just impatient.
"It's possible that your child has a heart disorder called TOF" he explained.
Deg, my heart is beating fast, as if it wants to jump out of place, when it hears the doctor's words. How not, the heart of a mother who does not grieve as if slashed when she heard her son who was only a few months old, now must experience undue suffering and imagine it was not.
"What's? Really it?" ask Chris in surprise.
"No .. no, that's not possible. My son could not have had the disease" I replied in disbelief.
"This is only a temporary guess, because to determine the presence of heart abnormalities or not, it must be necessary to check the heart ultrasound (Ecocardiography) and combination with catheterization examination when later needed," explained the doctor.
"Is that necessary, doc?" ask Chris who doesn't understand.
"Yes, it's necessary. Because let it be known immediately the presence or absence of the disease," replied the doctor.
"Do your best with baby Naya, doc!" said Chris whose voice began to sound stout, as well as shock.
"Alright, we will definitely take good care of the patients. But first I will explain what TOF is, which may have attacked your baby," replied the doctor.
"Yes, doc!" I replied limp which had no more energy.
"Heart disorders in children are generally caused by birth defects, where there is a gap that does not close completely after birth or anatomical abnormalities of the heart. Another cause is inflammation that damages the heart valves when leakage occurs, which is often caused by bacterial infections or autoimmune processes. PFO is a patent foramen ovale, where no closure of the foramen ovale occurs. If the gap remains open, it can disrupt the blood flow of the heart, to the potential for heart problems themselves. Heart disorders generally experience a number of symptoms :
Seemed exhausted and had difficulty breathing especially when dis*s*i
Have low weight
Stunted growth.
And those are all likely symptoms your child is experiencing right now" explains the doctor at length.
Chris and I could only quietly listen and listen, to understand the doctor's explanation.
"There are several factors that can trigger a baby to experience TOF. Generally this disease begins to attack even since the baby is still in the womb of the mother. Other factors can occur due to infection, viruses that attack when pregnant women, diabetes, malnutrition, to other problems that occur during pregnancy. In addition, the age of the mother when pregnant usually also affects. And usually women over the age of forty years are said to have a greater risk of giving birth to TOF babies. This heart defect causes oxygen-rich blood to mix with those that do not. This makes the heart performance will be much heavier than normal conditions. Not only that, this condition can cause the body to lack oxygen and eventually heart failure" added the doctor.
"Had it been 'was it? Can this disease be cured, Doc?" ask Chris.
"could. And the good news is that this disease has a chance to heal once detected. Treatment depends on the severity of the mild heart abnormalities, and to fix it generally requires surgery," explained the doctor again.
"What's? Operation?" my more surprised.
"Yes, we have to do the operation. And generally the operation is the most effective way to handle this TOF. There are two stages that must be passed to deal with this disease, namely the first stage of surgery for the installation of artificial blood vessels from the heart to the lungs. Then the second stage of surgery will be performed at four months to one month after stage one surgery is done, but the choice of surgery performed is usually in accordance with the needs and conditions of babies who experience TOF," obviously the doctor again.
All the doctor's explanations have made me shed tears. Chris could only gently wipe my shoulder, as I unceasingly bore the flow of tears that kept flowing.
"Alright, doc. Thanks for the explanation. The stopped ones now do their best to recover the condition of baby Naya. I hope he'll be fine and healthy always" Chris told the doctor.
"Yes, mas. Surely we will do our best to keep baby Naya healthy," replied the doctor approvingly will help my son's recovery.
After saying goodbye and making small talk about the disease and the cost is too great, making me now quietly silent can not say what else.
"O Allah, what is this ordeal? What's happening to my son now? Why should my little baby who is still holy have to suffer from this disease, which is likely no adult will be able to deal with it. Huff, how am I supposed to get that much money, to take care of my son's surgery? Even though money is not in my hands right now. Dear God, what should I do to keep my son healthy and cheerful again in my arms, "saddened hearts when the calamity is now upon my son.
"Ooh, what a pity your fate is, son. Forgive the mother who has made this pain to you, if there is a mistake when pregnant first. Forgive .. I'm sorry, son. What should I do to keep you healthy, what ...what should I do? Do I have to tell this to Adrian's brother that he has a child and is now ill? Aah, no. No, that's not possible, just when she was pregnant she didn't admit. How can I replace the suffering you are suffering now, son? O my beloved baby, sorry .. forgive mom, who can not give you a good life," said my sad voice who continued to cry bitterly, while in Chris' arms.
"You have to be patient and strong to go through it all. You have to be tough and persevere for baby Naya, don't be sad like this. I know and believe that if baby Naya is a strong little princess, she can get through this. We just do'akn hope he is okay, do not continue to grieve like this," said Chris who has wiped my tears.
"I don't know what else to do. My son was so weakly lying there, with a disease I had never felt at all. I'm afraid .. I'm so afraid Chris, if I have to lose him who while only he is the life of my life, to keep the spirit of wading through this life," I said increasingly broken tears that continue to flow on the cheeks.
"It's .. already, don't say it. We have to believe that baby Naya is going to heal" said Chris, hugging me back to calm me down.
It felt like the heart was struck by lightning in disbelief, when the child I had been guarding all this time had to suffer this much. Netra was so calm, when some strange hose-shaped objects were stuck in the chest and nose of my son. Just the glass divider of the room, I can feel without being able to touch it. What a chest tightness this is, seeing the heart-wrenching suffering of this child today.
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