An Overdose of Love
What a sad farewell
When the heart begins to heal again, why must it hurt again when a sincere person loves, now will go from before me. No matter how bad the sense of vengeance accept all of that sincerely, but the heart is still lied to that I am not okay for the separation that will happen.
"God, why do we keep losing people we love one by one? I love them so much, but a painful breakup keeps coming. Do I not deserve their love? Am I not worthy of love? My kindness has always been abundant in patience, but why is it as if it has now been avenged by the ever-painful parting of the deepest heart?" a heart that is not willing.
Alhamdulillah, baby Naya operation first stage has been successful without any obstacles. Whichever mother's heart will not be sad, seeing the little one is now lying weakly helpless, with the body splashed with a few hoses and needles to aid the healing process.
Ms. Fatimah and Mr. Samsul continued to selflessly accompany me who was in a state of grief. They are foster parents who deserve a thumbs up for sincerity. Behind the difficulties it turns out there are still people who always strengthen themselves, in order to always be strong in the face of trials.
"How's baby Naya doing?" ask Chris who looks tired.
"Alhamdulillah, he is getting better and better over his condition. Why do you Chris look so tired?" let me relax while stroking his cheeks slowly.
"I'm doing fine. This may be the effect of last night there was a moment of shooting excitement," he replied with a friendly smile, accompanied by putting his hands on my hands that were still horrified in his cheeks.
"I'm sorry, Karin."
"What is there to forgive you, while there is nothing wrong with me" replied this gentle self.
"I'm sorry if I've been wrong with you all this time. Forgive me if I cannot be happy or accompany you in distress in the days ahead. You know very well that we're going apart, so I should have spent more time with you, but unfortunately the busyness about the problem with the parents can't fully comfort you, so forgive me!" obviously pilu.
"You don't suck at apologizing that way. All this time it has been near and knowing your news is really a relief to this heart. You're patient about your parents, maybe they're doing that because they love you and don't want to lose you, so just keep being the strong Chris I knew yesterday," I said trying to encourage him.
"Yes, karin. It's true what you said. Parents always want the best for their children, even though sometimes what they do is wrong. I'm sorry once again, because next week we're going apart, because my parents have accelerated my schedule to leave" said Chris, who began to hoarse.
"No pa-pa, Chris. I'm letting you go. Only the best prayer, may you be well and healthy always there, so that later can quickly meet us again. Promise us to be in good health and still love me when I come back here, for my heart will remain faithful to wait for you longing" said a sad heart.
"Thank you, Karin. Even though we are in this stage of grief, you can still make yourself happy with your sweet words, which are full of enthusiasm for me to quickly implement the agreement and immediately return here. I will keep that promise, and hopefully after that we will be happy on the guarantee that I promised yesterday," replied Chris had shed tears.
"Yes, amin ya robbal!" I answered removing the droplets of tears that had fallen.
Sadness recorded clearly in the heart, very piercing the chest like unable to bear and willing to go away. When sincerity has been reciprocated the separation will be very painful, but the stubbornness in waiting will defeat all the ego that is not willing or sincere.
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A tense day of grief has finally come, when now my mother and I are driving Chris to go according to his or her wishes. Looks like both parents Chris looked at me cynically dislike, but I did not ignore it because the main purpose was only to send Chris so that this separation is not too hurt.
"You be careful and take care of Chris' health" I said as I approached him.
"Yes, Karin. You also have to take care of your health, especially take good care of baby Naya," she replied as she stroked my son's cheeks.
"You can't be naughty with mom, Naya. Om, going far away can not accompany or see the behavior of you who worry later, so do not be naughty and be a good child," said Chris trying to invite talking baby Naya while kissing her cheek.
"You remember all my messages, don't you? Remember our promise, be patient and wait until I return to bring the beauty of love to you again," said Chris who has wiped away my tears that are now falling heavily.
"Yes, Chris. I will always wait for you, until you return with success. Take good care of yourself there," said I who have now asked to hug Chris, while mengorsong baby Naya.
The tears were so unbearable that they kept coming out, that for so long I was in Chris' arms. There was a hoarse sound of crying Chris, who is now also saddened by this separation.
"Have ... no, don't cry anymore, we're just separated by space time and distance. You must be strong and always happy to take care of baby Naya, until it really improves," ordered Chris who now rubbed his arm and my tears.
"Yes, ma. In a moment" Chris replied.
"You're always in my heart, so don't doubt it all. Goodbye Karin, bye .. bye!" said Chris who finally began to wave his hand, to enter the departure hall.
The feeling no longer has the power of this mouth and hand to say goodbye. Only tears as hot as the witness of this separation, which shows Chris with his parents have now begun to disappear away. Mother who saw my situation just stroked my shoulders slowly, so that this self felt calm and patient. Keep the tears flowing, like a tributary does not stop carrying the flow of flow.
Look at your departure
Staring at the sad cry unbearable.
Shown when together through the most beautiful times.
When you hug me, speak love.
You're all in love with me.
Which always pours my feelings.
You will always be by my side forever.
You are like the breath in my body.
Revives all my presence.
I will always adore you until we are together.
I can't think about it anymore.
Half my life is your cry.
No more beautiful temples.
It sounded melodious, seducing me and flattering me, tranquilizing my soul.
There is no love as sincere as your love.
No one can stop you.
No more feeling as beautiful as your love.
No one can accompany me.
I will always adore you until we are together.
Song lyrics: By Siti Nurhaliza and Cakra Khan
Sad .. sad, that's what happens now, when people who have been able to raise the spirit to wade through life, now no one can give it all. Chris is a selfless man and the reward is always there for me, which of course this self will repay that kindness beyond my love for myself.