An Overdose of Love
Waiting
Months changed years continue to run, until it has been five years this self lost track and no longer know how things and news Karin. The heart really longs to see it, but the destiny that has not been sided makes this self only withhold all feelings.
Find him for me.
Bring him back to me.
Show him the way.
That I'm staying here for him.
Wish he came back home, for me.
This wait is long.
Try to feel baby.
I got tired at the end of the road.
He disappeared carrying all the memories.
The most beautiful thing I feel.
When you're with him, baby.
My heart is as bitter as the pill.
***Song : By Armada (Attention***)
The tears kept flowing when I remembered Karin's face and smile that had decorated my days. Enough to have even five years of this self continues to seek and search for its existence, until now my changes are increasingly mature and mature until not realized.
The presence of his figure that I always miss, never timid by time to forget, but the more do not find his existence, the more tormented to make themselves to meet with Karin and hope to return home for all the family.
"What should I do to you, Karin? Where and where should I look for you? Are you still alive or dead, so that the trace of your existence is not even a hint? O Allah, find him for me and meet us immediately, for my longing is so intense, eager to caress or look him in the face," a sorrowful murmur fell upon me, when the sorrow repeated again was recorded.
Tired, yes those are the words that can be embedded in me now. This self is tired of longing, looking, hoping, and especially wanting to re-assemble with him.
"If we had met? Will my mistake be forgiven, Karin? This self is so sinful and constantly overshadowed by guilt, can you forgive my biggest mistake? Aah, hopefully we can meet soon, and I can make amends for all the mistakes," a bewilderment that looks carefully at the pace of the vehicle, which has passed from the papa company building.
Tok .. tok, the door of the room is suddenly knocked.
"Come in," tell me who's still busy staring down the street.
"Sorry sir, disturbing. There's a guest who wants to meet, "Request my employee's permission.
"Good, sir."
The beauty of the scenery that is seen from the top of the building so win the soul, so often this self often looks at the panorama behind the glass of the workplace. The slowly walking clouds add their own beauty, which seems to have succeeded in comforting the lonely heart.
"Adrian, can I have a visit?" ask a woman's voice.
I who was initially daydreaming immediately turned to the source, because the voice sounded like a person I knew very well.
"Yona, you? What's coming here?" ketus.
"It is not warmly welcomed, it is even very sniffy your words. I just want to see you, because I miss you after a year we haven't seen each other," he replied casually as he walked closer to this self standing by the translucent glass.
"Lha, what now? We've met, so I'm satisfied 'wish you're with me. Today I have a lot of work, so you can leave now," I pushed out in a smooth tone.
"What are you doing, Adrian? I've only arrived from abroad to see you again, but your attitude and answer are very disappointing. You don't have any longing for me?" Yona's silly question.
"Hindu? What are you saying, miss? Aren't you wrong what you just said? From the past, I strongly affirm that between us there is no relationship anymore, and there should be no romantic words again, including what you asked was that is longing. Sorry .. sorry, just Yona. My heart feels dead to believe or make up for you again, because to me you are just a pest that should be removed, understand!" I definitely emphasize him.
"You're so good to me, Adrian. I really love you, but why do you always have the heart to say rude and insulting like that? Does this still have anything to do with Karin? Didn't you never find him for five years, you didn't even know he was alive, so why are you hoping for him who isn't there. Maybe he did not appear again, because he was stiffened into a corpse" replied Yona spoke harshly, who did not want to budge on my words.
Braaak, this self forcefully kicked off the table, as a result of the emotions that were not received for Yona's words just now. He was so shocked that he immediately lowered his head, not daring to look at my face again.
"You must never say Karin is dead again. Even though he's been stiffened into a corpse, remember this! That my heart will never forever die to continue to love and try to find it. I'm sure he's alive, because our hearts are always connected to stay alive. You should be ashamed of yourself, for I have rejected your love a few times, but still like a fool hoping for more. Remember, your biggest mistake is still clearly recorded in my brain, so it's not easy to forgive let alone back politely speaking to you, understand!" obviously at my length with a slight tinge of emotion.
"But, Adrian. I still hope for you, because now there is no woman who loves you more than me. Although stupid like this, but not your stupidity that hopes in people who are uncertain is still alive what not," said kepedean Yona while turning the talk.
"You? Ciiih, you shameless bastard. Do you think my face is ugly, until it's not done by a woman's drawings. Just so you know, if I want in an instant can get a hundred women at once for me, so don't be too piqued so, you weirdo!" hinaku won't budge.
"Yes .. yes, forgive .. I'm sorry, Adrian. For past and present mistakes, so please .. please fix our relationship that broke up in the middle of this road, because I don't want to lose you," said Yona who insistent do not want to stay away and always hope.
"Alaaahhh, it's Yona. I feel so sick of listening to your babble that's always full of drama. Now you have to get out of here by yourself, or I will forcefully call the security guard" I threatened to throw him out.
"Byeah, Adrian. You are so cruel, just be careful! I will definitely conquer you again, even if you refuse many times. Excuse me then, do not suck to use calling all security guards, because I still remember the way out and do not want to be embarrassed," said Yona who finally wanted to go alone.
After a few years of forgetting about this self-anger of Yona, now it has re-gawning emotional excitement again, because he reminds me of past events until everyone is hurt.
Because my mother was sickly because she was too deep to think about Karin's whereabouts, until papa now retired suddenly to take care of his company and is now replaced by me. At first I had taken medical school because I loved the field, because later it could help people who always needed to get back to health. The condition of the biological mother is getting worse, until the company is now forced to take over to my hands.
At first I did not agree to the position that suddenly turned to me, but because thinking for the good of everyone, so had to give up the ideals of wanting to become a doctor.