An Overdose of Love
Obviously pain
The hands were so clenched, when it was outside the shop where Karin worked. The heartbreak that so sliced through my heart, that I now feel.
After all these years of searching, I've found him who I want to have. But after meeting, it is like a sembilu so slicing the body. Yes, that's what's happening now, when thousands of sharp needles are hitting the heart filled with love.
For the umpteenth time I got hurt again.
It really hurts, so sick.
Honestly, the heart is so unwilling to let go.
But if he deserves my wife.
Maybe you should love him as much as you want.
Maybe I'm the only one who's got this pain.
While always receiving a broken heart, with a myriad of drops of dew bursting forth, as a result of longing for the warmth of love.
The vagueness of the obstinacy, the deeper this self is over the pain, but what is it that says when everyone has noticed and become a silent witness.
"Maybe I should be happy to pray for him? When it all ends with the wound. But if hurting me can make you happy, maybe from now on I will be sincere to release you, Karin. Maybe this is a way that I can learn to sincerely love you, but must be able to learn sincerely also to lose you," a sad heart murmur, when the head began to dizzy leaning in the car.
With the fire of anger, now the car has been driven at full speed, which no matter if this car collides with each other, because obviously this sense of emotion can be lost, he said, for me, I can throw off a sense of disappointment.
Arriving home, without many words of foot immediately stepped up the stairs quickly, no matter the gaze of the parents who looked at me so strange.
I was so deprived of oxygen, that to breathe fresh air just felt so crowded. His smile that was sumringah received the proposal, now so shadowing and haunt me who was lying limp in the room.
"Aah, shit. Why can't I get you, Karin? Is Chris a better man than me, so you don't open your heart to me to enter. Brutal is how cruel you are, Karin. I love you so sincerely too, but why don't you take a glance at me at all" said an upset heart.
"Darling, don't leave, for I can't do anything more without you by my side. Maybe you also feel the surge of my love is getting hotter, but it turns out the fire you have lit, until now I continue to burn. Though I'm willing to do anything for you, but why are you insensitive about it. Oh Karin, how can I make you fall in love with me again? Now there's nothing left between us, but why do I keep hoping that you fall for me again. Oh, what a shame this story of my love is, when there is no longer a woman I love on this side," Grief continues to be unacceptable.
Why I dreamed of you
Why I cry for you
Why I was so hurt
Why I hope for you
You obviously don't think about me
You obviously don't want me
You obviously never considered me
there are.
Oh, could this be what's best for me
But I have no power to keep going like this
I'm not capable, I really can't
The Band Sauqy
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The morning sun had greeted by raising its bright light, but the laziness to rise made me continue to roll in the blanket to hide. Dizziness in the head is increasingly throbbing unbearable, but all that can still be endured, because the pain in the heart is so strong beat everything, especially headaches.
Tok .. tok .. tok, the sound of a room door being knocked on by someone.
"Go in, it's not locked!" tell me.
The sound of the door opening slowly.
"You haven't woken up yet, son! What was? It's noon, don't you go to work?" ask Mama.
"No, Ma. Adrian is lazy for work and today wants to laze all day in the room," I explained.
"The tumbens are you like this, what is it? You're not upset anymore, are you?" guess what he said.
"Related, emm .. between yes and no" I replied casually.
"Can't you?" The weirdness of Mama asked again.
"Yes, Ma. Adrian again upset to pursue the love of Karin, but must be hindered by heartache, when Karin yesterday received someone else's proposal. Heeh, what steps should Adrian do about this Karin, Ma? Mama knows for herself that Naya desperately needs our affection, but if Karin already belongs to someone else, then surely one day Naya will be further away from Adrian. This is what I've been afraid of all this time" I complained again feeling sad.
"You calm down, Adrian. Mama knows your concern. Be patient and keep praying, so that God will guide and guide your relationship, because only to God will all the problems you face find a way. It is not easy in the face of patience, but believe me that all this will surely end. So do not be disjointed to continue to pray," Lecture Mama advised.
"Yes, Ma. You're right, maybe praying is the best way for Adrian to live this complicated love story. Thank you, Ma. Adrian is now very conscious, and almost turns the blame on the creator of the heart, which is when His power is so great that it can flip the heart of man," said I who now feel rather calm.
"Yes, Son. Do not be too late in this sorrow, for all trials must be on target with a strong servant, and perhaps God has chosen you wrong. Continue to be happy so that your child Naya can be well taken care of, by the myriad of affection you give. Although Karin you can not get, but remember there is Naya that you must love as well, that is until she grows up to be a good child and sholeh later," said Mama's message.
"Yes, Ma. Thank you, for all the advice."
"Together, Son."
Mother's love all the time, will never be disjointed to give affection. All parents would not want to see their children too sad. His wise advice, now has opened the eyes and heart that had fallen. Indeed, all his words are true, so that I can still rise even though Karin can not have, because there is Naya to be considered.
"Dad will love you, son. Although you can not be together and have, hopefully our relationship is not broken due to the third person who entered. Wait for me, Naya. Surely my father will come to bring you a myriad of happiness, and hopefully there will be no more obstacles" a heart murmur promised Naya.