
Just felt happiness.
Why are you taking it again .
Why Mas Arman, whom I love, whom I love why you took from me
Why does Suffering always stick to my shoulders.I realize I'm in the hospital .I cried - so. Like the world squeezing my body feels like my breathlessness
Mas Arman was taken to the hospital but not immediately taken home and buried I still do not accept this situation
I cried in the grave of Mas Arman .My parents continued to persuade me to go home.
"Marsha told Mas Arman to keep him quiet there" said my mother
But hearing the name Mas Arman is said to make my heart hit by a knife slashed.
"Marsha let's go home this afternoon It's raining soon" My mother persuaded me.
I went home with my Mother.My life came back empty without edges .
Loneliness and sadness continue to roar in my heart.
"Marsha let's eat first you have not eaten for three days lo.Let you get sick," said my mother
Indeed, since the death of Mas Arman I, so not taken care of.Ngak want to eat, do not shower, can not sleep. Like no desire to live.Sometimes terbesit why don't you ask me Mas we died together.
Until a month passed my situation was still the same . My mother became worried"Marsha said that everything that went could not be returned.And we can not change the fate of our stay continue the journey of our lives . With you learning sincerely everything will calm down again," said my mother.
"Especially Arman was sad that
seeing you like this" persuaded my mother.
I lived like I had no purpose and many daydreamed when Arman seduced me.
When Arman defended me, at that time the world was beautiful.
Not like it's currently upside down.
It does not feel like it has been a year since the death of Mas Arman.Rasanya just yesterday Mas Arman by my side.Ibu still worried about my situation.
I still daydream and cry."Marsha's daughter Mom will come here to meet you.later you meet ya" said my mother.
"What's wrong Mom, she arrived - came here," I asked my mother.
"Yes I do not know suddenly the phone wants to come here cook Mother forbid it is not good," said Mother.but actually it has been planned by Mother this meeting.
It's true that seven o'clock there's a knock on the door."Who yeah?" my many.
"It's me Ryan" the man replied.
After I opened there was a handsome young man in front of me.His eyes narrowed his nose, his hair was a bit curly.
But I smell like liquor.don't let this man drink up.In my heart said.
"Please come in" I said
"Who are you looking for ?" ask me again
"You're looking for Marsha mb, I'm her son Bu Sambodo her friend Your mother" Ryan said.
"I happen to have something to find me for myself" I replied
"This way there is a titpan from Mother by from Bandung.In addition I also want to be in touch with mb Marsha," replied Ryan.
I'm actually not happy that Ryan's here, let alone that his mouth stinks of alcohol.
Make the head so dizzy.If not because of the friendship of my mother with her mother lazy I met her.
Ryan talked a lot like - looking for my attention.
I only responded with a word or two."Huaaah," I pura yawns constantly to think sleepy
"Yes, come home because I'm sleepy" I replied.
After Ryan came home I entered the room.My mother held my shoulder "you are not polite - polite as the prospective husband,"
"that would be a husband!"I'm kind of surprised
"We agreed to betroth you to his son, Mrs Sambodo,"
"No ma'am I disagree with this matchmaking .and I can still find my own husband" I replied
"Again Ryan was a drunk mom.So when he came here he smelled of alcohol" I said
"Marsha is later when married the character of people one's behavior can change," said my mother.
" Can't be ma'am if someone's disposition can't be changed" I said
"You can, either do it with Mom, or you want your mom to hang herself" my mom threatened
"And next week is his proposal,"my heart stopped for a moment.
"That's right, mother" I said
"Can't be so Ma'am I just don't know the guy yet" I refute
"Have you said that his son Bu Sambodo was a good person. He's also a rich man has cattle hundreds of tails.want what else would he want to look like?"my mother said
"But looking at people is not the material, Ma'am, his behavior" I replied
"If you still deny that mom doesn't hang herself now, you're happy to see her mom die" threatened my mom
Really mom pulled out a sharp move that made me unable to argue.
I continued to investigate Ryan's life history from my friends.it turns out he is a drunk, a gambler and likes to play women.
"Mom knows not the behavior of Ryan.I know from his neighbors he was a drunk gambler and likes to play women," I answered to convince my mother
"All of that will change if you're married" answered my mother
"Mother are you going to force your child into the tiger's den" I said proverbs.
"there is no need to discuss tomorrow the Sambodo family came out of magrib, you are ready - be ready," Mom bullied me. The designated Sunday has arrived . I packed my clothes how much stell went to my friend's house Rose "tok tok tok," knocked on the door rose .
"Yes Who?"ask the Rose .
Rose open the door "Oh you Marsha what's wrong?" ask the Rose
"I stayed at your house for a few days yes .I ran away from home because I wanted to be married" I said
"Sorry Marsha if today can not because my in-laws will come and stay here sorry yes" replied the rose.
"Yes I've been looking for somewhere else thank you ", I replied
Then I went to Rini's place
"Rin tonight I slept at your house, so I ran away from home because I wanted to be married", I said to Rini
" I'm sorry I can't Marsha because your mother I've considered my real mother .I don't want to betray her.I'll feel guilty if I help you, '" replied Rini
In a crucial moment like this why no one is helping me . Though Rini every night often stay at my house .He's like my brother.In ask for help like this he's afraid of my mother.
All the friends I called no one would support me to avoid this matchmaking . I finally went home and died to my fate. Until the front of the house there are blue tents for the event later tonight
Because Ryan's family has 30 people who want to visit. Suddenly my eyes were fixed
with a manly and handsome jaws nice.like a model.
He sat on the porch of the house while wearing hem jeans also in a very nice hat in view.
He was my girlfriend before I knew Arman.Since he worked so the cruise has been 2 years no news.why did you come late at the time I wanted to be in Lamar, said in my heart.