Anara & Oktara
45. Karin Galau

Karin was upset and thought whether the marriage of the two of them would be lasting or not, because he felt very much if for example Ridho did not love him sincerely. He deliberately calms his feelings to be more relaxed and calmer, because whatever he experiences is not very easy. 

"Why you?" Mama approached Karin who was sculpting when it had changed twilight and it was time to go inside. 

"Why not Mah, I am just confused whether this marriage will continue or not. I have doubts about him" he said with a very blank look and really wanted to be sure if this was true or not. Especially when I first met. 

Flashbacks.. 

Karin, Papah and Mama deliberately visited the big white house to stop there. He was nervous to meet Ridho for the first time. 

His gaze was very sharp and it was obvious that he did not like it. His family is very warmly welcomed will allow to sit in the living room or sofa. "If you can tell what's really going on like this?" In the deepest heart Karin feels that suppose Ridho does not know anything even seems to really know nothing. 

"So you two will be betrothed to each other and you will live a household life. And certainly will make you both happy," said Mama Ridho who deliberately said this directly. 

"Why do you think it's gini? How did you not tell me first? Why?" 

"Mama, didn't that time ever tell you when you forgot? Yes, it's Pah. Ma'af yes Ridho sometimes likes to forget." He was a little embarrassed because Ridho was very blatant to say this directly in front of Karin's parents and his own two parents. 

"Why would everything be like this anyway? Why do I even know things I don't want and why am I even made like this?" he murmured in the heart. But in the depths of his heart he still loves the same person and that's Anara. 

Mama stopped the reverie from Karin she just woke up. "I'm okay." 

"So do you want to marry her?" Mom quickly asked the question that was delayed. 

"I want to be Mah, but yes if he wants me to too, but if for example he doesn't want to like how?"

"Mama and Mama have told you that you have agreed to get married. Well this is just Mama nelfon Mama, a minute yes Mama lift first." 

"Yes? Oh sure, later we rearrange yes because---" the voice echoed adzan was heard quickly he asked permission to turn off his phone. 

The photos that he deliberately took when the fitting clothes are very good and beautiful when he wears at the wedding will certainly never be forgotten once in his lifetime. 

Is this a test? 

He used mukena when he was ablaze in the kitchen. 

It feels very solemn when when complaining to God (The Creator) becomes a figure who remains strong and always becomes a grateful human being. Hope that everything will be okay and hopefully what is received will still be the best. 

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"What do you think the hell is it? How did you stay silent from now on? Just another fuss, huh? If for example he is fussy, why do I do what I can do? You slept well." Anara tried to calm down while holding Pingkan who from earlier fussy she felt a little trouble to calm him down. Oktara woke up when she heard a child's voice. 

"I'm not okay, mending you just sleep. Later will quickly calm down too," replied Anara who felt still strong with Pingkan who continued to fuss and told Oktara to sleep. 

Oktara put her head on the bed. "Why do I feel like this? And why do I even think of Ridho? Does he really want to marry her? And why is he calming down?" his mind even thinks of Octara. 

His little heart said that Oktara was not okay. And why is it like this? 

He saw a lot of notifications from his phone, Ridho sent a very long text message. 

"Anara I want to confide in you, I hope you understand and understand all this. Whether you hate me or not, I don't care at all. The most important thing is that I'm glad I said this to you. Actually I do not want to marry my candidate, because I really do not have love and affection for him. All I want is for you to pray, because I love you and not each other. I know very well that I loved and loved the wrong people. But the name of the feeling certainly can not be bubris at all, can not be changed and difficult to keep away. Can't do it at all? Anara I ask ma'af has made you think a lot, basically I love and love you. I really love you." 

Anara only took a breath for a moment, she was speechless. All he thought about was living life without having to be frills others, but he never got angry at Ridho at all because he learned to position. "How come you're not sleeping?" 

"Not a papa." Oktara glanced at Anara who was still holding her phone then quickly between turning off and putting it under the pillow for fear Oktara took and read the message that had not been deleted. 

"Kok you even hide that the hell hp it is there a problem what? And why are you so uptight that there's a message what the hell are you reading you have something that you're hiding from me huh?" 

"Why don't I hide nothing. I can't be the same as you but you have to answer honestly, right?" 

Fortunately Pingkan had fallen asleep very hard when the drama that happened earlier. "Well, can you tell if you want to do the same to me?" 

"Whether when there is a person suppose still like and still love the same person who is wrong in the sense of the person he loves is married about you think what should be done so that the person is not just as he feels?" The words that come out of his mouth seem ambiguous, it does not make between confused and strange and ask back what is meant to be explained very loudly and thoroughly. 

"I just mean nothing." 

"Does this have anything to do with Ridho?" 

Why is it on target like this?" 

"Why the hell are you even like that I'm not just that it has nothing to do with anyone. You why the hell be a guy is jealous I'm not the same as anyone just suppose doang." Anara emphasized her words so that whatever they said there was no misunderstanding between the two. 

"Yes if I think I should leave unfortunately he's the same person who was married for example who should be abandoned, for example, for example, I was cheating yesterday, yes I have to leave even though maybe at first I feel heavy and if I can be honest I'm 'not love the same you well but because I forced finally realized that I really love and love you but just wait for the right time. Yes, if that's how we sleep, I'm really sleepy tomorrow I work." They closed both of their eyes.