BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
NIGHT AND ALONE

Finally the party ended too. It felt really relieved when the guests one by one came home until finally our stay was left behind.

Mas Ilham and the children have returned to their respective rooms, left behind me, mbak Ayu and mbok Asih who are still tidying up the rest of the party equipment after the catering people as the person in charge of food returned home.

"I'll go to the room first, you guys, please get this over with!" pinta turns to Ayu, then goes up to her room.

"Milah if you want to rest, please. Let mbok finish everything." said mbok Asih.

"We're doing it together, Mbok."

"Milah's got to be tired. Rest."

"Mbok must be tired too. We're taking a break together."

Mbok Asih did not speak anymore, he nimbly cleaned up the rest of the party. At ten o'clock in the evening, it was all over. Me and Mbok Asih go straight back to their rooms. Today is quite tiring, there are many agendas that have been done, it feels like the body wants to rest immediately. But not so when glancing at the screen and there are many missed calls from the village. What is it?

Even though it's late, I keep calling my dad, worried that something's important. It was Yumna who called. He wanted to talk to me, thankfully I got back in touch because it turned out Yumna didn't want to sleep before talking to me.

"Sorry Umi yes because Yumna's phone did not Umi lift" I said.

"Where is Umi? The phone was repeatedly unanswered. Na kangen Umi." said Yumna.

"Mom too, son. Very happy with princess Saliha Umi. There was another event, Umi did not bring Hp, so did not know there was a phone call from Na. After knowing directly Umi call back."

"When do you pick up, Na?"

"God willing soon ya."

After talking to Yumna, I turned to the mother who was still accompanying my daughter. Even though Mom is still upset, but still can not hide her curiosity. Am I here okay.

"All good, Mi. Very kind. This alone mbak Ayu held a walimahan party attended by friends Mbak Ayu and Mas Ilham to introduce Mila to them all. So I don't have to worry anymore. Soon Mila will pick Yumna up so we can be together again." I said, explaining.

"But you're sure, Mil?" mom still can't believe it.

"What Mila told me was in accordance with how Mila felt."

"Oh, if it's Mila's in-laws, we haven't met, ma'am."

"Lho why? Rich today there is your wedding celebration, parents and relatives should come dong. Is there nothing to hide, Mil?"

"No, Mom, just calm down. Everything's fine. Maybe his mom is still busy."

"Busy how? You are one city. You've been there two days, when there is no initiative to meet? Her mother didn't want to know how her second daughter-in-law was? Or maybe he doesn't agree?"

"Astagfirullah, Mila doesn't know Mom. Don't dare to conclude anything because Mila doesn't know about her mother Ilham."

"You're like buying a cat in a sack, Mil. It should have been all figured out from the beginning. Marriage is not just between you and Inspiration. But his family you should know too. Like someone who has never been married. If it's been so far, the mother doesn't like you how?"

"Hopefully the bad things you're worried about don't happen Mom. I pray Mila continues." I asked.

Since the beginning of my second marriage plan, my mother did show a different attitude than I was about to marry bang Hasan first. Now the mother looks more defiant and blatantly shows her dislike. While I was with bang Hasan, my mother was the one who supported me the most, even though the state of the economy of our small family was mediocre.

After talking to my mother, I thought about what the woman who gave birth to me said. True, it has been two days in Jakarta, why did not Ayu or Ilham mas invite me to see his mother? Didn't the beginning come, mbak Ayu leave the children to his in-laws? Then his mother should also know that I am already in Jakarta. Or maybe what you predicted was right, his mother Ilham did not like me? I don't want a marriage between me and my son. The evidence tonight is not coming.

"Well, why think bad again. Astagfirullah ... Astagfirullah ... Astagfirullah. Don't be so prejudiced, Mila!" I remind myself to be careful with prejudice. Do not let what I did to mbak Ayu, had a bad thought but it turned out he was good, repeated also to my mother-in-law.

No matter how hard I tried to dismiss the various prejudices that appeared, somehow strange feelings and felt that something unnatural in this second marriage still appeared. I and Ilham are married, it is legal before God, but why has he never come to me until now? Why is he acting like I don't exist. Always facing Ayu. Although I didn't expect anything from him, but this was a bit awkward for me. At least he was talking, not acting like I didn't exist.

Tonight feels so long. Stupidly, after the wedding ceremony earlier, I was waiting for Ilham mas in this room. My feelings were hanging, worried and my mind was filled with many question marks.

Is it really that cold? But Ilham knew religion, he should know what to do when he decided to remarry even though the offer to remarry came from Ayu.

After all, Ayu also should not hold Ilham mas to continue with him. If she's not ready to share a husband, at least she's talking to me. Not ignoring as if I am not in their home life, but they are the ones who present me in their stories.

"What do you expect from this marriage, Mila? Isn't it in order for the Inspiration mas to provide support for your family so that you don't need to work hard?" that question I'm asking. To be honest, tonight, alone, the two sides of my heart were arguing. One side hopes that the marriage I live in is in accordance with the marriage that should be even though actually there is love for Ilham mas. But the name is marriage, a wife must obey and support her husband.

While the other side is being careless. If Ilham wanted me, he would have come alone. If not already. Most importantly, he kept his promise to my family.