BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
SECRET OF AYU

Arriving at the hospital, I asked Farid to take care of all the administrative affairs, he said, including signing a statement for observation because I myself besides having no money also do not understand how to take care of administrative problems mbak Ayu.

Fortunately Farid was very deft. He quickly took care of everything, while I accompanied Ayu's mother who was getting action from the doctor.

"How long has Bu Ayu been taking depression medication?" ask a doctor while spouting a brand of high-dose medicine for a patient who is depressed to me.

"I don't know, doc. I just came from the village." I replied.

The doctor explained to me about Ayu's current condition. There are many medical terms that I cannot understand. I can only conclude that Ayu is severely depressed.

"Bu Ayu has a mental health disorder. He even took a high dose of medicine which is estimated to be almost three years old. The effects of mental disorders that make his mood change for the worse. The patient is too hard to judge himself, so when he can not realize what he wants then the patient must take drugs with doses too high to be able to calm himself. To make sure everything, after Bu Ayu regains consciousness, we will do some lab tests and mental examinations." explained the doctor.

Severe depression? Now, little by little the veil that became the secret of changing attitudes mbak Ayu finally answered as well. Although not entirely know, but it could be a picture for me why mbak Ayu changed drastically.

Is that as bad as depression?

I honestly do not understand the disease experienced by mbak Ayu. But the doctor's explanation gives enough picture. Plus search results on the internet. I who was a little annoyed at him now began to feel pity. But there are also many question marks that appear. If I make it so depressed, why do doctors estimate that Ayu has been suffering from this mental illness since some years ago, when I only entered their lives some time ago, even though I have only been in their lives for some time, not even a month.

***

Mas Ilham's. He is the closest person to mbak Ayu, impossible not to know everything. When he was in front of me, I couldn't help but question everything. I don't care much about their privacy anymore. I've already gotten into this.

"What's wrong with Ayu's mom?" my many. "The doctor explained everything. Now it's my turn to explain." I said.

"What's Mil?" mas Ilham was still calm. He seemed so tired after the trip.

"Heavy depression. Ayu's mother experienced it. Can you explain me the same? The doctor said it's been a couple of years."

"alright. Yes, Ayu is depressed. It's been almost three years that he took depression medication even though sometimes it still relapses."

"But why?"

"I don't know either, Mil."

"I can't tell. Ayu's mother was his wife. Is Ayu depressed because of her desire to remarry?"

"Astaghfirullah, it's not me who wants to remarry, Mil. It is precisely the second marriage that emerged from Ayu. Not from me. If you don't believe me, ask Mom or Auntie Sila."

"Mil, you don't understand. Almost every day he reminds me to get married again until I am really tired. If I don't comply, I may be stressed!"

"When it's like this, what should we do?"

***

The second day of being hospitalized, Ayu delivered a message to Ilham to take me to the hospital. He wants to talk to me. Arriving at the hospital, Ilham left us both as per Ayu's request.

"You know everything." Ayu opened her voice. "Thank you for taking you to the hospital" he said.

"Why should I take that much medicine? Do you not know how dangerous it is? If anything happens to me, what about the kids? Don't you pity them? Kids are small, they need a baby!" I said, affirming about the new news that I just learned that it was a while before I delivered the porridge to Ayu's room, he swallowed quite a lot of medicine.

"I'm not okay, Mil."

"But why, ma'am? Don't you have everything."

"I'm depressed to be Ilham's wife, Mil."

"That's, mbak?"

"It's not easy Mil, it's not easy to be the wife of an Ilham Muhammad." the story began to slide from the lips mbak Ayu.

Since High School, Ayu has known Ilham. They're one school, different class. Mbak Ayu mas Ilham's. In the past, Ayu Mbak who was born from a broken home family was once helped by Ilham mas until he was completely obsessed with Ilham mas. Ma'am Ayu considers only Ilham mas who can make him happy.

At graduation, Ayu continued to find out the whereabouts of Ilham. He followed where Ilham went to college. Ayu's efforts to attract the attention of Ilham finally came true when Ilham mas proposed to mbak Ayu.

Obsession is too high on Ilham mas, making mbak Ayu want to be a source of happiness for Ilham. Everything he did to be able to realize whatever Ilham wanted. Starting from having many children, a prosperous life.Including being the head of the foundation, a big dream mas Ilham. Although actually Ilham did not want all that.

As time went on, one time, Ayu heard her friends talk about polygamy. They flagged Ayu, but were taken seriously. Mbak Ayu is worried that Ilham mas has a desire to have another wife, considering he is in the neighborhood of pious people who consider polygamous sharia is common and they are indeed many who practice.

At first, Ayu was terrified if she had to lose her husband. So he finally took the initiative to find a woman who wants to marry her husband, but would be arranged by him.of course the woman whose position is under the mbak Ayu. That is why the choice fell on me, because he judged me to be below him in every way.

I can only bengong hear the story told mbak Ayu.turned out there are women who are so obsessed with their partners that make them suffer themselves. For the sake of happiness, he was willing to suffer on his own. In fact, Ilham demanded nothing. Ayu's mother made high expectations for her husband, until he was harsh on himself. He forced anything to make Ilham happy. In fact, Ileham was very happy with their lives which can all be said to already exist.