BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
MISS YUMNA

The opportunity was finally given. But with many conditions that must be met mbak Ayu, the conditions for him to really change. No more fighting or prejudice against me. Even so, if he keeps repeating again then there will be no next opportunity, mas Ilham will stay away for a moment. mas Ilham will talk to Madam Sila as the only family mbak Ayu.

"Thank you Mila, you're a really good girl. I was really lucky to have a honey sister like you, somehow our household became without you." said Ayu while hugging me tightly, she cried.

After forgiving each other, I went back to my room. Near the door of the room, I met Iqbal, his gaze still sharp. Looks so hate me. I can only hope he doesn't get the wrong idea about what happened. I'm really not the bad guy who wants to destroy his mom and dad's house.

"Evil!" Said.

Not wanting to continue to be intimidated with her gaze, I finally chose to rush into the room. Close the door tightly, then sit behind the door.

"Oh my God, when is this?" I'm ingrained. "I don't mean to be mean to them, I just want to live my destiny as best I can."

It's been three months since I've lived in this big house. But Ayu and her children have not been able to accept me. With the incident earlier, I hope that Ayu can really turn into a good honey for me. While his children, who will open his heart, see me as his mother, not as the woman who seized their father. Iqbal and Hana, the two children who showed the most resistance to me.

There was actually something more important that made me want to be accepted immediately. Yumna. The little girl I miss so much. It also has the same taste. He sent me voice messages almost every day. At first just asking the news, for a long time, every day can send up to ten more voicemails about his longing for me. If they're still hostile to me, it's like they can't bring Yumna here. I don't want my daughter to be the target of their anger either.

"Na, Umi also misses you very much." so long for this child, sometimes I can't hear his voice message because his voice really makes my heart melt. I want to run, cross the ocean to meet my little girl who will soon be a big sister. Suddenly I remembered that I had not informed Yumna of this happy news. In the past, at the beginning of the separation, Yumna always asked when she would have a sister, she also advised if one day the good news was present, Yumna asked to be notified immediately.

I immediately dialed the number given by Mbak Ayu. Shortly connected, Yumna's voice was heard. Indeed, if I call, usually father and mother will directly give to Yumna. This time it wasn't as encouraging as we had talked before. Yumna was carrying a burden.

[Umi why don't you ever reply to a message, Na? Umi is angry with Na? Or not miss Yumna? Though Yumna misses Umi, very eager to meet Umi. At least if Umi replies to Na's message, Na's heart will calm down.] he said, complaining about messages from a week ago that I did not reply at all.

[I'm sorry Umi, Na. Umi also miss the princess Umi, very eager to meet soon, son. Umi deliberately did not reply to Na's message because Umi missed Umi's child too much.] I replied, while holding tightness in my heart so that no tears came out. When talking to Yumna, there should be no sadness, he should feel happy because at this time Yumna is far from me

[If Umi misses too, why haven't you picked up Na yet? It's really kind of like this,]

[Later InshaAllah umi pick you up. Now wait there first. I am very good with my grandparents, grandmother and mother. Umi promises to pick you up soon, Na.]

[Right, Mi?]

[InshaAllah dear. Oh yes, Umi has good news for Na.]

[Na knows no, in a minute, Na will be Big Brother. So This is Yumna. Na will have a sister.]

There was no response across there at all. Just silence. I thought that the signal was not good, so I repeated the happy news three times. But Yumna still did not respond.

[Na hear Umi?]

[Yes Mi, Na listen.]

[Na glad not?]

[No.]

[Lho, why Na? She said Yumna wants a sister?]

[Rusdi said, he said, Umi will not love Na anymore if Umi has a baby sister. That's why Umi didn't reply to the message, Na, huh? Umi will not return to our village. Umi will continue to live there and over time umi will menggelupain Na, right? Umi already has a child and new ashes. Umi will not remember Na with Abi again.]

It feels like this heart hears the contents of Yuma's heart that feels no longer loved. Ahh, if only I could, I would like to now also approach and hold it tightly. I want to tell you that I love him very much. He was the only reason I survived when Yumna's ashes left us for good.

Now it's all happening. We were separated by the sea. I want to meet Yumna. Although our conversation is not over, Yumna refuses to talk to me. He gave the phone to my mother until she cried out to me how Yumna had fretted for a week waiting for my reply.

The five-year-old misses his mother. I actually feel the same way. But circumstances have not made it possible to pick him up now.

[Is there not yet able to accept you completely, Mil?] ask mother. [That's exactly what mom said. It's not easy being the second wife, Mil. You finally feel it, right. So I asked you to think over and over again. Because I know, Mil, people always look bad at second wives. Although the first wife received it with a chest.]

I really want to tell Mom that it was actually Ayu who did not accept me. My mother-in-law was very open. But I can't tell you everything because I don't want to add to my family's burden.

[You are well there, Mil.If you are not able, go home. Mom and Dad are okay. Mom and dad don't expect treasure. We would rather have gathered together here in a happy state despite the lack of treasures. We can look for money together, Mila.] Mother said before closing the conversation.

I have chosen my own path and I will take responsibility for it. A path that may feel foreign to people even though sharia does not prohibit it.