BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
IT WAS JUST A SHOW

"Mila, what are you doing?" suddenly, Ayu hurried down the stairs when she saw me carrying a tray containing a menu for breakfast this morning. "You are pregnant, the age of the womb is also definitely still new, you should not lift the heavy. You just sit at the dinner table, I'll have Asih do everything." Said mbak Ayu.

"Don't let me. Poor mbok Asih, since yesterday not feeling well, now mbok Asih again rest, so let me do everything." kwtwju.

"Oh, mbok Asih is sick again. Why not tell me the same? If you know that, I can find an additional maid. But yes, let me do all this." Now, the tray goes into Ayu's hands.

"Eh, what do you want? I just mbak

" said.

"Not Mil, let me. You are pregnant again. We do not know how the condition of your content" said mbak Ayu. He still forced me to bring everything.

After everything was placed on a large table, he pushed slowly on my back so that he would no longer stand staring at the starting place. So that I can sit down at the dinner table immediately.

I was still confused by Ayu's attitude just now. Suddenly he changed his attention. My hope, may this be forever. Maybe he really regretted all his mistakes, as Ayu told Ilham last night.

"But mbak ..." I still feel awkward, how could I sit around sweet while the one who has a house is busy working. "I'm okay, ma'am. After all this is not the first pregnancy, before I also keep moving even though I am pregnant."

"But this is the first child of your inspiration. Take it easy, I'll finish it all," he held up his thumb. "I've never done any of this, but I can do it. Count learning. There is also an Asih place to ask. He'll teach me. Isn't that mbok?" Mbak Ayu switched to mbok Asih.

What we both talked about was witnessed by Ilham who watched from the top of the stairs. He smiled as my two neutrals clashed with him.

"Have a lot of rest. Since yesterday you've been limp, right? Later in the afternoon we go to the doctor to make sure everything is okay" said mas Ilham.

"O, that. What if I accompany Mila to her doctor, mas? Today, the schedule is pretty solid. There is still a lot of preparation ahead of the election of the new chairman of the foundation. Yeah, right?" timpal mbak Ayu's. "But ... That's if I allow it and Mila is ready. If it's okay."

"It's okay, ma'am. I am very happy if you want to accompany, rather than disrupt the schedule of Ilham mas. I'm going with Mbak Ayu alone." I said.

"Really Mil?" tanya mbak Ayu.the eyes look sparkling, indicating he was so happy. Especially when I shake my head. "How, mas? Can I not deliver Mila? Yes count-count we re-establish our relationship as wives. Perhaps by helping Mila, I can make up for my already too many mistakes."

"No, then let it pass, I have forgotten it. Now the most important thing is that we are both good and in the future better. If it's not troublesome mbak Ayu, I'm willing." I said. "Yes, I'm the same as Ayu." I said.

***

"You heard me, Mil. Your gestational age is still very young. But InshaAllah the baby is strong. Even so we have to keep it well. We must not disappoint Ilham, he must be very happy because soon he will have another child." mbak Ayu stroked my stomach, we walked together out of the doctor's room to the parking lot of the clinic. "Oh yeah, if you crave something, tell me yes." ask Ayu. "I will try to find, not to go to Ilham. Inspiration is busy. There are many things that must be prepared by him in order to be elected later because his opponent Ilham mas are people who have enough power."

I just nod. Saying the words mbak Ayu even though I actually do not really understand what he explained about the foundation and the nomination of Ilham mas. But I agree with mbak Ayu, as a wife will support whatever Ilham did, while it is positive.

***

It's been a week since the three of us have made peace, but Ayu's attitude has remained good to me. It really changed. Ayu often helps me, she always alert me to eat vitamins to keep my pregnancy.

The closeness between us really made me comfortable, even though we had a disagreement with each other. Now for me, Ayu is like her own sister. He really helped me a lot in the midst of his busy work.

Unfortunately, the happy feeling did not last long when I accidentally eavesdropped on Ayu's conversation with her friends.

"I just want her son. After the baby is born, I will try to get rid of the woman again. However, no other woman should be loved by the Ilham. I'm just one!" mbak Ayu.

"But why let the baby be born, Yu?" ask friend.

"Because Ilham really wanted the boy. I was happy with the baby's presence. Right now I can't give her any more offspring, so I'll let Mila give birth to her child. After that then their relationship should end!" mbak Ayu.

So everything is just a show? My body immediately limp in hearing it. All the goodness of Ayu was not really from his heart. He does not sincerely accept me. He just wanted the baby I had.

Now how should I? I slowly moved away, passing towards the room. It feels like this heart is so broken. Again the shadow could soon gather with Yumna gone. Near the door, Hana looked at me. This time I ignored him, no longer wanting to try to be sweet so that he could accept me because everything was useless because his mother was not really able to accept me.

"Aante!" Call Hana.

"Sorry Hana, Aunt is not arguing. Aunty wants to rest in the room first." I said, while closing the door tightly.

Why does it feel so hard to do all this. I'm not asking for much, just asking to be accepted so I can regroup with my daughter. It feels like I can't bear to miss. I was also afraid that my daughter's heart would break because now she thought I no longer loved her because I never went to pick her up.