BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
HANA'S REQUEST

Maybe I'm in the future. That's why it's so sensitive. The condition of being pregnant, being away from the child, plus accidentally hearing Ayu's conversation with her friends about her skit accepting me, made me discouraged that I could survive here, she said, semnetara is already pregnant with Ilham's child. Therefore, to give up and return to the hometown like what mother said, it feels will only add new problems. Mas Ilham could not just let me go, even if he was willing, but not with his baby candidate. I may have gathered with Yumna, but separated from her sister-to-be. It's the same as a big deal for me.

It's been three days that Yumna's been avoiding me. Every time I called, he refused to answer. It was always returned to his grandparents. Mother said, Yumna is now changing drastically. He became quiet, if the night, his sleep is always delirious. Twice I have filmed. He cried so heartbreakingly, calling Umi and Abinya. Seeing and hearing that, broke my heart.

"Who is that?" suddenly, Hana was already standing behind me. He peeked towards the HP I was holding.

I instantly turned off the delirious video of Yumna. Then remove the remaining tears. I really didn't know Hana was there. I thought I was alone in the back garden, so dare to look at my daughter's video.

"That's ... aunt's child?" ask Hana. It's getting closer. "What's his name?"

"Yumna." I replied.

"His age?"

"Five years."

"Still small. Why left? She must have missed her."

"I miss him too."

"Why not get picked up?"

If it were that easy, I would have picked him up by now. But, what if he is also the target of their hatred? My sensitive heart still wanted to vent the frustration I felt towards Hana because she was one of the children who also rejected my presence raw. He even said something disrespectful to me, which I was not prepared for if Yumna had to hear.

Yumna, is everything to me. As happy as mother, I will not be able to wait if my daughter will have to be hurt. That's why I haven't been able to bring him here.

"Not been answered?" Hana sat beside me.

"Will Hana be nice if she's here?" my many.

Hana quiet. He plays his fingers.

"She is the only daughter I have. I love him very much. If anyone hurt him, I would feel pain that even multiplied from the pain he felt. My daughter has no father, died some time ago. I don't want to add to the wounds in his heart. That's why I chose to be away from her even though the stakes were that we both held back a very deep longing." I didn't care if Hana understood it or not, but obviously, I just wanted to shed my sorrow. "Now go, leave me alone." I asked. Leaving it alone here, I was worried that a lot of trash would come out of my mouth so that he could get hurt.

In these unstable conditions, it is best to stay away from them. Alone until my heart condition improves again.

"Is Aunt angry with us?" ask Hana.

"We just don't want to lose Abi, most of the children whose father stolen the thief woman were being rude to her father's woman."

"You won't lose your Abi. He's not going anywhere. He's always here. But why do you still hate me? Plus you lied. It's the same way you hurt your brother and helped get your parents separated. It was not me who made Ilham want to go from the side of Ayu, but his own attitude! Who stole who anyway? You've been talking too far, Hana."

"Said Umi so is a way for Aunt to go from Abi. Umi also said, Aunt is the thief who will take Abi."

I smile. Miris. My guess is right, it was Ayu who provoked her children to hate me. He also brought me here. "But the opposite is true, right? Your Abi was angry and was about to leave because he didn't like you to lie, Hana. Not because of me, right? If you don't believe me, please ask your Abi." I challenged him.

"Yes. But ..

"Did I have been so evil since I first came that you also retaliated with an evil attitude? No, right? From the beginning I tried to be nice to you because I really wanted to be your family! I also have children, I will not be that bad. You should give me a chance, if your accusations are proven, please do something bad to me by being as hostile as you always do."

"But ... Why should Auntie be in our family? Why Aunty should marry Abi, but we still have umi! We don't need another Umi!"

"But your Umi who came to me, asked me to marry your Abi. But, once he gets here, he also taught you to hate me. So, who exactly is evil? You should have asked Ayu all that. He is responsible for all this! You and I, we both victimized your mother."

"Tante .. can Aunt forgive Umi?"

I don't know what to answer. The disappointment his mother made was too deep, but I also found it hard to hate him so I did not know what kind of attitude to take. That's why I can only blame myself.

"You don't understand how it feels to be away from the child" I said.

"Definitely homesick. We were once away from Umi when Umi was hospitalized for attempting suicide. Now Hana actually miss Umi. More homesick than when Umi was treated in the hospital because even though Umi is here now, but Umi never loved again with Hana. Umi only talks about Abi, every Hana wants a story, Umi always refuses to listen. Umi ...." Hana lowered her head, before long I heard Isak crying.

This little girl also had wounds. I could feel that he was not okay. Apparently there are still many secrets about mbak Ayu that I do not know. Did he try to commit suicide? My God, is so great his love for Ilham that he sacrificed many other joys.

"Hana" I said. "You want to hug Auntie?" my many. "Tante misses aunty's daughter, you miss your ummu yourself. Come, comehere. If you want you can ...." I didn't let my heart continue, afraid he misunderstood.

"May Hana think of Aunt as Hana's mother?" he's staring.

I'm nodding. Hana immediately slid into my arms. He hugged me tightly while crying.

"Hana has not been embraced by Umi for a long time, embraced by Umi Mila to treat Hana miss to Umi Ayu" he said.