BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
I'M SORRY, BANG!

In two days I'm getting married. It is sudden and certainly with a variety of limited preparations. That was all the request of Mbak Ayu and Mas Ilham. They came here already steady to get married. There is not much time left because there is still a lot of work to do.

For all purposes, even though only a simple agreement and thanksgiving, everything is funded by the Ilham mas. He has given some money for the needs of correspondence until the funds for the dishes of the event later.

Now, I'm here, in front of Bang Hasan's belly button, with Yumna, my only daughter. Our arrival was not just to make a pilgrimage, but also to tell her about my wedding plans.

"Everything is sudden, Bang. Ii'm sorry. Sorry if I finally got married again. But ... Brother believes, in my heart, Brother is still the man I love so much." I said, in a soft voice while wiping his tombstone, as if gently caressing the head of Hasan bang. The usual thing I do when he unwinds after coming home from work.

Not noticeably, the clear circle flowed on both of my cheeks. Sobs are starting to sound. Five-year-old Yumna immediately glanced at me. He held my right hand tightly.

"Umi kangen Abi, huh?" ask Yumna.

I'm nodding.

"God willing Abi is fine there. Umi is patient. If the Umi kangen can hug Yumna. Umi always said that Yumna looks like Abi." Yumna said.

"Yes. Yumna is similar to Abi. But, Yumna also has to be the blue nature of Abi huh. Abi is very good, dear to Umi and always good to others. Yumna should be too. So saliha's son that Abi be proud of Na."

"Yes Mi, Na will be a good boy so Abi is proud of Na!"

My only daughter was again busy playing with the rocks above her father's navel after she removed the clear feathers that had flowed

Oh God .. I never imagined it would end this way. Either this is the end or it is just the beginning. Six years ago, life felt so happy when the man I loved in silence finally came home to intercede.

Our marriage was quite early, because at that time I was only seventeen. While bang Hasan twenty years. He dared to face Dad because he did not want to be preceded by others. At that time my position, despite not graduating from elementary school but many are approaching. Like a flower, the middle blossoms beautifully so surrounded by beetles. But the lucky beetle was bang Hasan.

Actually, for me, it's not the lucky bang Hasan, but I'm the lucky one to be his wife. Which girl in this village doesn't know her. In addition to handsome and salih, he is also famous for being smart.unfortunately, the economic condition of the Hasan bang family is not much different from me, he is also known to be intelligent, he who has been an orphan since he was a toddler must be willing to only be able to complete education as a level of High School in the boarding school. It was also for free because he was ngabdi on Mr. Kyai.

However, bang Hasan himself had been proposed by Pak Kyai directly to be used as a ghost, even he was admitted to continue his education to Cairo if he was married to the daughter of Kyai. But bang Hasan refused because his heart was long adrift to me.

Our household journey, although not always smooth because of economic problems, but never once we are not grateful. The days with Bang Hasan were the happiest for me. Especially after the presence of Yumna in the first year of marriage.

Happiness is growing. Unfortunately, happiness is not eternal, our soul mate ended at the age of marriage to six years. Bang Hasan had an accident. A hit-and-run. He died on the spot. From that moment on, my world collapsed. I lost a man I loved so much. For the first two months, I never went out of the room, always confining myself to despair.

"Well, why forget!" I snorted in annoyance, remembering the old face of my mother who for five years with bang Hasan accompanied me. Yes, as long as Bang Hasan's wife, I lived in my in-laws' hut. Dedicated as a wife and daughter-in-law.

Going through a new moment in life, I should have told my mom. She was my mother, too. Even though his son is gone, the relationship between son-in-law and father-in-law will never be lost.

"After this we stopped by my mother's house first huh, just came home" I told Yumna. He nodded happily.

"Na also misses mom. It hasn't been there for a long time." - Yumna.

I smiled wryly. Regret Alfa had a few weeks to the mother's house, but usually every week we play there. Just look at the condition of the mother or sometimes nginap if you are missing weight on the Hasan bang.

In the mother's house, he only lived alone because his only son was Hasan bang. That's why my mother was so sad when I decided to go back to live in the house of my father and mother after the death of Hasan bang. But I did it all because I haven't been able to move on from Bang Hasan. Being in a place full of memories about him will only add to the torment of longing in my heart.

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"Mila ... Yumna!" my mother smiled when she saw us at the door of her hut. "Oh my God, where have you two been? Why haven't you been visiting for two weeks? Mom really misses. If only my feet didn't hurt from gout, my mom would have come to your house to visit!" reveal mom with a sulking tone. "You're in good health, right?" Mom patted me on the shoulder slowly, then switched to hugging Yumna, her only granddaughter.

"Thank God be healthy, Mother. Sorry we can come now. Mom's leg hurts again?" I asked, while getting my mother into her hut. "Can it hurt again? What did mom eat? There's gotta be a taboo to eat, huh?" my many.

"Yes, two days ago my mom ate offal and goat goulash quite a lot at the wedding of the Nike, the son of the hajj sir." mother admitted.

"Astagfirullah, mom. If bang Hasan is still alive, you can be angry with your mother." I said.

"Yes how else. Mom wants. Keep giving a lot, all mothers just eat."

"Mommy, don't be. You know, if your mother eats her abstinence, her mother's pain can recur. You want to make Mila and Yumna sad?"

"Mil, you are like Hasan. Anything prohibited. In the past, when Hasan was alive, you were always belain mother if Hasan was angry because the mother ate her abstinence which can make the mother's pain relapse."

"I'm afraid something's happening to you."

"Fear why? Mom is okay. After all, my mother has also been treated to the puskesmas. The doctor said, Mom is okay. At most two days the pain will disappear. Besides, if mom why-why would there be you and Yumna that you can ask for help to look after and care for mom."remak chuckled, "or maybe you don't want to be bothered anymore to take care of your mother?"