BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
APOLOGIES
"Why are you still here?" ask mas Ilham, when he came out and saw me still sitting in front of the hospital room mbak Ayu. "I told you to go home first."
"How can I go home if you are still angry with me and I do not know the current situation mbak Ayu. I won't calm down, ma'am." I replied.
"Mil, Ayu is still under the supervision of a doctor, but she has already made it through her critical period, Now you go home."
"But I'm still angry. I can't go home and rest in peace while my husband hasn't been Ridha."
"Mila .. please don't make me more upset. Now go!"
"Mas must know, I did not mean to deliberately hide the condition of Ayu. Really am. I did it at his request. After all, actually I was looking for the right moment to tell mas and others without making mbak Ayu disappointed because I did not keep my promise. Mas trust? I really care about Ayu. Although we did not get along, but actually I love him as much as my own brother. That's why I always try to keep Ayu feeling, I don't want him to feel uncomfortable because of my carelessness. I want him to have happiness."
"Huffff, all right, I'm sorry. Now home. You also have to rest a lot, remember your content, Mil. Do not let because of this problem something happens to our prospective children. Ayu, let me take care of you."
After getting my apology from Ilham, I decided to go home. Remembering my body was also too tired all day waiting in the hospital.
When they got home, the children were waiting with their eyes open from crying. They shower me with a lot of questions. Especially Hana and Sabrina are impatient daughter-in-law Java the latest condition of her mother.
"Umi how Umi Mila? Is Umi okay? Please tell us, auntie!
"We both pray for Umi Ayu. Hopefully Umi's condition will improve. Now Umi is past her critical period, but still has to be monitored by her doctor." I said, hugging two little girls mbak Ayu.
Ayu was hospitalized a week ago. All this time the affairs of the children and the house were handed over to me. Fortunately, there was an Asih who faithfully taught me so patiently that there were no significant obstacles that I faced other than Iqbal. Yes, the boy still showed a hostile attitude towards me. Even he seemed to say that his mother hurt because of me.
Facing that child, I can still be patient. I didn't respond even though Iqbal sometimes did enough to test my patience. For example, he deliberately spilled food on the dining table on the grounds of not liking my cooking which he considered kampungan. He scolded his sisters who he judged to be treasonous because they were now close to me. And the most annoying thing is that he deliberately brought Ibed so that I could not hold it, even though the edges were returned to me because Ibed was fussy and Iqbal could not calm him down.
Today the heart is awaited by the children because Ayu mbak came home from the hospital. All aged people are welcome. Iqbal who is usually ogah-ogahan also looks excited. Even she sweetly froze a bouquet of red roses for her mother. I am envious, I want to be treated the same as Ayu.
As soon as Ilham's car entered the courtyard, everyone immediately stormed. They both helped Ayu get out of the car. The togetherness makes me happy because on the face mbak Ayu who looks not recovered really emanated happiness as well.
"Mila .. Thank you so much for helping me take care of the kids. I really owe you." Ayu said, as we both sat in the back garden, after the children missed.
"Bak don't have to worry because from now on I will always be there to help mbak." I said.
"Thank you very much Mila. But ...."
"There's actually a secret I haven't revealed to you yet."
"Confidential?" my forehead immediately wrinkled. Remember how angry Ilham was yesterday because I kept Ayu's secret. Now he wants to share his secrets again. I was really worried, afraid that Ilham would get angry again. "Duh mbak, we should not play secrets anymore. Mbak knows how angry Ilham was when he knew we hid the pain from him. I felt like I didn't want to talk to me. Fortunately, she felt sorry for the condition of my pregnancy, so she was willing to forgive and give me another chance. But this time, if there are any more secrets, I'm not sure I'll forgive. Could-can mas Ilham snatch and kick mebfrom this house."
Mbak Ayu chuckled. He assures me that this secret has nothing to do with Ilham, but it is about me and Yumna.
"Me and Yumna?" my many. "What's the secret, ma'am?"
*Mila .. If I tell you, do you promise not to get angry and forgive me? You know Mila, my life won't be long, I feel that way too. I don't think I'll be strong enough to last much longer, but I can't leave with this secret alone either. I'm really burdened, Mila. Maybe this is a punishment from God for me, so He gave me a pretty severe pain and an inner torment that I can't describe how it feels." he shed a tear, he really looks depressed.
"Mom, what's the matter? What about Ilham? Ma'am not to worry, he has promised to always love mbak. Mas Ilham is trying to fix everything, you want to forgive him and give him a chance, right?"
"Mila, no, not Ilham." she was still crying, making me even more confused.
"Then what, mbak, say."
"I don't know if I deserve to be sorry, but I'm really sorry Mila. Forgive me, sorry. Will you forgive me? I'm really afraid you're angry, Mil."
"Say me mbak."
"But you promise to forgive me and not be angry? I can't if you're angry, Mil. My life won't be long, I want to go without a burden."
"What, mbak?"
"Promise Mila. Please ...."
"Alright mbak. I promise I will not be angry and will forgive you. Now say it."
"Mila .. I'm sorry, sorry. I was the one who had run over your former husband, Yumna's father.*
Like being struck by lightning, it felt like my world collapsed when I learned about Ayu's confession. It was he who made me a widow and Yumna an orphan. He who was the cause of bang Hasan lost his life and even more sad that the data of the incident did not help bang Hasan, he instead went without the slightest responsibility so that bang Hasan had to lose his life.