BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
APOLOGIES

This dream? Although all this time I always pray that one day I can find the hit-and-run perpetrator bang Hasan, but somehow, at this time I really hope the confession mbak Ayu is a dream or he is lying to me, but somehow, at this time I really hope that the confession mbak Ayu is a dream or he is lying to me, like he did a while ago to me. But, looking at it with tears made me tremble, I don't know what to say, only this head shook, a sign of not wanting to hear the continuation of the story, I wasn't ready. But mbak Ayu chose to complete all his secrets right now so that the burden borne so far is lost, but he instead gave the burden to my shoulders. A burden that spontaneously ravages my heart.

At that time, he deliberately came to West Sumatra to meet Ilham mas who first followed his mother. At that time Ayu was upset because there was a quarrel between them, the departure of Ilham mas was without saying goodbye. For days Ayu waited for the return of Ilham, but entering the third day he did not go home, no news.

Ma'am Ayu asked for help from Uni Dewi. Both of them are exploring my hometown because according to news Ilham following the mother who visited her family in my village. When meeting, instead of accepting the presence of mbak Ayu, mas Ilham even ignored, even he told mbak Ayu to return to Jakarta. Of course mbak Ayu emotion, he drove to the hotel with careless until he hit the Hasan bang. Seeing the condition of Hasan bang which is quite severe enough to make the guts mbak Ayu ciut, he decided to run away even though the Dewi union had suggested bringing bang Hasan to the hospital because the Dewi union also knew his father Yumna. But Mbak Ayu refused on the grounds that he was not ready to face the stone problem.

After doing a hit-and-run, mbak Ayu who originally wanted to survive in Padang was forced to return to Jakarta because he was afraid. Before leaving, Mbak Ayu asked Uni Dewi to shut up and never tell anyone about this problem.

However, the feeling of guilt continues to haunt Mbak Ayu. Plus the increasingly complicated household problems, also the contents of getting married for the second time which continues to be echoed by the friends of the foundation manager to make Mbak Ayu decided to match me with her husband. Besides being a form of responsibility for taking away my husband's life, also so that the Inspiration does not turn to another heart because Ayu mbak judge me far below him. From education to the economy.

"Yes Allah .. so the Goddess union also knows?" I am increasingly disappointed by this fact, it is fitting that he is the most eager to persuade me to accept the proposal submitted by Msbak Ayu. It also seems to hold a feeling of guilt. "Your staff!" I said. I can't imagine how bang Hasan died after enduring the pain in the streets. But the perpetrators left themselves behind when they were able to help him.

"Mila, I'm really sorry. At that time I was just thinking about myself. I'm really selfish. But I regret it, Mil. That's why I found out about your family. Once I knew he had a wife and children, I tried to find a way to help you even though I didn't know how to" Ayu said. "The only sensible way is to marry you to the Inspiration."

"Mbak think by sharing a husband then mbak can replace the bang Hasan that has been hit? Not mbak. Bang Hasan will not be replaced. Especially for Yumna!" i'm inflamed.

"I'm sorry Mil,"

"Sorry you can't erase all your mistakes!"

"Then report me to the police, Mil, so that I can account for what I did."

"Yes Allah .... Aaaaaa!" I screamed as loud as possible. My head was hit by a huge rock. I don't know what kind of attitude I should choose to face all this. I'm really disappointed in this fact.

Why is everything so complicated? Why did Ayu tell everything now. When I loved all the members of this family so much, when I was pregnant with her son Ilham.

I don't know what kind of attitude to take. Ayu is currently very ill, I don't know how long she has. The rest of the time, whether I could imprison him, separate him from his children, when their togetherness would not be long.

But I also cannot be silent because my heart cannot accept. I can't see Yumna either. He will certainly be very disappointed if someday find out everything.so also with his mother, bang Hasan is the only child he has. Hope in the old days. But Ayu's mother and Yumna lost Hasan's bang.

"Then what about Yumna and her mother bang Hasan? Who will replace their father and son? Let's answer, ma'am!" I said.

"Yes. Why you should scream like you're in the woods. Umi is sick." Iqbal grumbling.

"I want to go back to the village." I said.

"Ke village? Why Mil?"

"Go home now!" I said in a firm voice that made everyone shocked.

"Astagfirullah, speak politely dong!" Iqbal is getting nyolot.

"Bal," reprimanded Ayu. "Mas, please take Mila home." ask Ayu.

"But why Yu? Why did Mila suddenly ask to come home? Is everything okay?" ask me Ilham.

"Not to be delivered. I went home alone with Yumna." I said. I rushed back to the room, cut off the meager clothes, then prepared Yumna.

"Mi, why are we going home? Umi had another fight with Umi Ayu?" ask Yumna.

"Na, I'm sorry Umi. But we can't stay here. From now on we will start a new life in the village with grandparents." It would be very sinful if I enjoyed life here while my husband did not get justice for the accident that happened to him.

"Mi?"

"Yuk, let's go home!" I said, holding Yumna's hand.

***

The sky is cloudy when the plane is above. Occasionally there is friction hard enough to make the plane a bit squishy, but everything can be overcome by the pilot until we land at Minangkabau airport.

This time, I don't know what reason I should give my father and mother for my return that will never come back there again. I needed time to calm down, so I decided not to go back to the village directly, but to stay at the hotel for a few nights until I was completely calm.