BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
BACK TO THE VILLAGE

Day three. I decided to go back to the village. Before returning home, Yumna and I stopped by the tomb of Bang Hasan. There's a lot I want to tell her, though she won't give me an answer, but at least it could be a cure for my restless heart.

"Bang, we're home. I came with Yumna too. I'm sorry I found out too late about everything. I'm sorry I was part of those who made brothers like this. I hope you don't hate me. I'm really stupid, not finding out everything first. I'm sorry, bang. Pardon me! If time could be turned, I wouldn't even want to know them, Bang. I really hate all this." I said in my heart, holding the headstone of Hasan bang. One by one tears fell. My chest felt tight, as if we were facing each other right now.

"Name ... I am glad we are back in the village. You see, Na can often come to Abi's tomb and meet with mother. Poor mother, old, no one to accompany." said Yumna, while sowing the roses we bought when we just got out of the hotel. He occasionally chants a short verse he has memorized, he says as a gift to his Abinya.

"Sorry Umi yes, Na. But Umi promised, we will often visit Abi's tomb to release the longing." I gently rubbed Yumna's head covered with a small pink veil. The veil, a gift from Mbak Ayu to Yumna. He bought her a twin with Hana and Sabrina. When she gave it to me, I was really thankful that Ayu accepted my daughter with open arms. Ever since Yumna came, he had always been kind. Now I understand why he is, because of his guilt. I immediately smiled cynically.

Actually there are many more good-goods given by mbak Ayu for me and my family. That is the money he sent every month to both my parents and mother. My ATM is always filled every month with a nominal that is not small in my opinion. But everything is natural he did because mbak Ayu has made us lose the head of the family.

Again, the tears came. I regret why he didn't speak honestly in the first place. If now, he seems to make me in a position that is all wrong, want to report it, but also can not bear because his condition is sick and also he is part of my family now.

"Mila!" someone was running to get close to us. I looked at him with a look of anger. Still dare he appear before me after what he did. Mil, where have you been? It has been three days Mr. Ilham looking for you, deliberately cut from Jakarta to here. It also goes back and forth to your home and continues to circle the village. He was really worried about you and Yumna. Where the hell have you been?"

"Still dare the Union appear before me?" my question, in a loud voice.

"Mi?" Yumna.

"Mil, we'll talk there for a second huh." Uni Dewi tried to slowly pull my arm away from Yumna. "Na, wait here yeah. Uwak talk to your umi first."

Yumna. He continued his activities, sowing flowers while reciting prayers for his father. While I and Uni Dewi stayed away a few meters.

"What else is it?" my question, while clasping his hand. I feel like I'm holding on to someone who has been hiding a secret about my husband's passing. Still remember very well in my mind, how the Goddess union came to worship when bang Hasan was buried. It is fitting that she often asks, do I know about who hit her husband? Did the police contact me? Or is there someone we suspect. Apparently he became a spy for Mbak Ayu.

Uni Dewi also desperately asked me to remarry, then moved from this village so that my heart wound healed after the departure of my husband. But I refused because this village does not give me bitter memories. I'm still comfortable here because this is where my family lives and my husband lives.

"Mil, we're talking good." pinta uni Dewi.

"There's nothing to talk about." I said.

"Sir Ilham has been looking for you everywhere, he is really worried about your condition. Also from Ayu. Mila .. I know you're angry, but you should also know that Ayu is ready to accept the sanctions for her actions."

"I? What's with me?"

"The Union is involved too! When will the Union report itself? Or do I need to report the uni?"

"A .. I wasn't involved in anything. I'm just a passenger in that car."

"A ride, but the Union knows what happened? Uni was there when Ayu's brother hit Hasan's bang. But why didn't the Union do something?"

"I've said to ...."

"What's? So that Ayu mbak stop, but when he does not want the uni not to do something so that mbak Ayu will stop or uni try to help bang Hasan? Uni did not make the slightest effort to help him when the union knew that his father Yumna was dying. What a wicked uni. And even more heartless, the uni came to our place as if nothing had happened. Now I understand why the union wants us to move from this village, because the union knows what happened to Hasan's bang."

"Mila ...."

"Uni tea. For some time this continued to circulate among our families after what the uni did. If both my parents, Yumna and mother knew, what would the union do? Is the union still able to act as innocent, not knowing anything like the attitude of the union all this time?"

"Not so Mila."

"Then what is the Union?"

"Mila .. I am not like that. I honestly feel guilty too. That's why I'm always watching your family. I have nightmares almost every night. I'm really haunted by Mila's guilt, but I really don't know what to do. I helped mbak Ayu so that you would accept his proposal also not to expel you from this village, but because I want to be responsible."

"What responsibility?"

"Mila, I think if you marry Mr. Ilham then your economy will be helped. Ayu's mother also had a reason to support your family and Hasan's mother. Really Mila, I don't want to lose my hand. I admit I was guilty for keeping everything in silence. I'm really sorry, Mila."

"Just sorry it won't bring back the Hasan bang in the middle of our family. Now my life is completely broken. I lost my husband and unfortunately I became the honey of the woman who made me lose my husband!" I cried, imagining how complicated this was.