Betting Love Above Destiny
13 Exams or Punishment?

How, have you been sad to Shaykhona, regarding this matter?" ask Azmi. This is also the question of Nizam and Adli. They wanted to know what the big nanny's decision was about the problem Arafka was facing.

"Here, last night."

"What was his response then?" ask Adli quickly.

"No, he only read al-Baqarah's letter the last verse up to three times" said Rafka.

ا من الر سو ل...

Azmi immediately read the last verse of Al-Baqarah's letter.

"No, Mas," Errata Arafka. "But from the verses of iphittle, r.F.H.H.F.T.Hit, but from the verses of ⁇ .fort, ⁇ .F.H.D.High, ⁇ , ⁇ , ⁇ ⁇ ., ⁇ ⁇ " the young man also chanted the piece of verse recited by Shaykhona last night for him.

"I feel it's a clear notice from the shaykhona, of what you're going through right now, Dek. That it was a test" Nizam said. He decided so because the verse, more or less, contained such meaning.

Allah will not burden a person except in accordance with his spaciousness/sufficiency. He got the reward (of virtue) he worked for and he got the punishment (of evil) he did.

Furthermore, the verse is in the form of extraordinary prayer guidance content means.

"Right, the test we received by someone, which will not exceed the limits of the person's ability," Azmi said with great confidence.

"Alhamdulillah, Mother. May it be so," said Rafka. The young man himself after learning the meaning of the verse, he experienced a long upheaval in his feelings. Alternately changing his understanding for the sake of understanding he can at the bottom of his soul. And it is precisely that understanding is in conflict with each other.

In the verse that reads, ⁇ Hilton ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ) which he seeks. And he received a punishment (of evil) which he did. In that verse Arafka felt that the heavy burden he was carrying right now was the result of his own actions.

In the past, before entering to be a santri in Al-Hashimi, he was just a person who was blind to religious values. Life at will, which is important like, wrong and right is not a problem. Many things are prohibitions in religious law, he did. So he felt that this Masayu event was not a test, but rather the punishment of all the bad in the past.

Especially when it comes to the fragment of the verse which is the guidance of prayer.

ربنا لا تو ء خزنا ان نسينا او ا خطا ء نا...

Means: O God, do not punish me, if I am wrong or forget.

Up to this verse, it seems more and more affirming that everything is punishment. Unintentionally, he was caught in the pit of sin. His soul screamed, it hurt, if that was the case.

But when it comes to the word,

ربنا لا تحملنا ما لا طا قة لنا به...

The meaning of the verse is: O our Lord, do not give us anything that we cannot bear. Until the end of the verse, Rafka felt that what he was going through right now was a severe test that he could barely bear. A test, not a punishment. The test of his heart's patience and fortitude to improve and return to the way of God. This contradicts his first understanding.

Between those two conflicting understandings, Arafka was sprawled out in a long unease. Seemed in confusion and anxiety that has not gotten a bright spot. But then, a bit of resignation was born from his deepest heart, accompanied by prayers and supplications.

O Allah, if I am wrong, forgive me. Give me the strength to account for my mistakes. But if I am right, empower me to rise up and reach for the truth.

Whatever happens, it is all your will. Wrong or right, You are All-Knowing. And I beg you to forgive me.

After a night of being unable to close his eyes, the handsome young man fell exhausted after praying.

"Nothing, Mom. That's it."

"Deliver ya all, God willing to get an answer immediately," Azmi said.

"Amin. Thank you, Mommy."

In the talk of the four young men, there was someone who silently watched and listened, until now the sense of relief he got, and the prayers he also chanted. So that the young man whose name is secretly placed in prayer immediately gets help and enlightenment from the problems that are happening now. Because of this, he left the conversation of two friends who sat together, Nabila and Madina. Until a phone call on Madina's phone ended Zaskia's daydreams, and also limited the owner's conversation with Nabila.

"From Cairo, huh?" nabila asked Madina when the girl saw the phone lcd and seemed to smile.

Madina nodded and she said goodbye to her two friends to leave first, to pick up the phone from Ra Fattan.

Assalamualaikum says.

A very beautiful and melodious voice - according to Meidina-now filled her hearing room.

"Waalaikumsalam" Meidina replied. And his lips instantly flashed a smile.

"Any haal?" ask Ra Fattan in Arabic. Which means how you are.

"Alhamdulillah, fine. Jennegan, Ra?" Meidina asked back.

"Thanks to your prayers, I'm fine too."

"Eye." Madina smiled again. A smile that Ra Fattan would never see. "Nobody usually has a phone at this hour, Ra?" ask the girl, because usually Kyai Muhajir's son called her before the time of tahajjud, as well as wake up and remind Madina to pray in a third of the night.

"Yes, I can't wait to hear your voice" said Ra Fattan, and this answer made Meidina pack happiness in her heart.

Rayyan Ali Fattan, who is known as a quiet figure, his communication is always limited, his views were never directed when the audience with his non mahram. The young man almost equaled his brother. He is very respected in Darul Ulum there.

It turns out that behind the dignity of the attitude he built, he was smart to please the woman who had been chosen with his heart, with soft words and a beautiful set of languages, every time they communicate through connections.

"Are you really okay, Meidina?" ask Ra Fattan again.

"Yes, Ra. Why?"

"It's okay, it's just lately, I get worried every time I remember you."

O Allah.

Madina quietly rubbed her chest. Could his recent unrest be felt by Ra Fattan as well? But they are far apart. Or is this what is called the bond? Feeling each other even if not being expressed.

"I'm fine, Ra," Meidina said softly. Honest the girl with the answer. He is fine, there is nothing to worry about. It's just that he can't take it for granted some of the new things he's discovered about Davina. It wasn't just Davina reading a message from Ra Fattan that made her cry and ended up being hospitalized for being hit.

But there was also one fact revealed by Nabila when the two were on their way home from the central Al-Hasyimi library to their temporary-resident guesthouse at the Al-Badar nature studio.

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