Betting Love Above Destiny
39 I Will Apply to You

"what's wrong with you, Din?" Davina asked quietly while touching Meidina's hand. The girl smiled.

"It looks like for the meeting this time, quite first." He switched the conversation to his role as BES chairman quickly. Upon his decision all nodded obediently and began to close their respective books.

Meidina turned to Davina who was still waiting for her answer. Meidina smiled. "You must have guessed what my answer would be" he said.

"What?" Davina was confused herself.

"I'm doing fine. There's nothing to worry about."' Meidina said that very casually.

Very clever he hides feelings, or rather very good at manipulating circumstances. Even the ants know they are not okay. Evidently from her tears that were running wild, fell apart without a sound. It would be impossible for the tears to come, if not invited. Invited by the taste of the soul-cramming plagues. When the taste of sorrow can no longer be expressed in words, and cannot be perfectly pronounced, then there the tears take their role.

But, if Meidina chooses to close the language, and is reluctant to tell stories, then what can the others? "Meidina. You know for sure, we're all not just your friends, but your brothers." Nabila was only able to say this, that anytime and anywhere, they were ready to be listeners, if Meidina wanted to tell a story. Ready to be a crutch, if the girl feels weak and tired. All of that is intended so that the ayu girl is not awkward to be free of all her anxiety.

"Syukron.your existence in my life, is a priceless gift." Thus Meidina said, it seems that she had decided never to say what had happened and became the source of her tears. This could only make Davina and Nabila look at each other, but then the three of them both got up out of the hall, accompanying Meidina who had swung a step first.

"Davina put this away." Meidina handed me some books and her phone. "I'm going to the bathroom for a minute." And the girl soon passed.

"We must appreciate, if indeed Meidina does not want to tell a story," said Nabila while looking at the figure of Meidina who was getting away.

"Yes" Davina said.

"Actually there are many things that we have to talk to him about our schedule after this exam, because at that time he was married, of course, there are some schedules that we must change" said Nabila. Zaskia immediately looked down upon hearing that. Davina seemed to be breathing.

"Come, Nabila. All I know for sure, Meidina really wants to complete all the learning series here, but if she has to get married in the near future, can all that be done?" Davina said slowly.

"There must be so much burden on his mind right now that he would rather be silent." Nabila tried to read from Meidina Shafa's point of view.

As for Meidina herself, the girl was actually not interested in going to the bathroom at all. He just wanted to finish his crying which was delayed because of being caught by his friends. The event was, while all were busy with the division of their respective tasks to add references from experts with their respective disciplines according to the material, Meidina also took a role in it, by researching and reviewing the results of the studies that have been agreed before entering the editing table conducted directly by kyai Mustofa Tamimi, as the person in charge of the scientific work that they will publish.

At that time in his work he found there were some things that needed to be added and perfected. So the thought was clear, if he wanted to ask for help from Ra Fattan. Because so far the handsome young man was already quite a role in the form of a contribution of thought from various insights and knowledge, related to Meidina's duties as chairman of the Executive santri KM agency, and their mission is to publish books from the results of Quran studies that they routinely do.

Then typed a message for help that was immediately sent and in an instant immediately get a response.

Ra, may I ask you a favor?

Just say, Meidina. inshaAllah, I will always be there for you.

In spirit, Meidina immediately typed a message about some things she wanted to ask. However, only three sentences were strung together, the girl was like she had just been made aware of a reality. There was a whisper at the side of his heart, which asked, Can I still do that?

One short question, which made him so stunned. In fact, sooner or later, like it or not, Rayyan Ali Fattan should let him go. And that means he will not only lose the figure of a lover, but also a loving and always understanding friend. And most importantly, the figure of the teacher who guides and answers all his misunderstandings carefully. So great is the meaning of the presence of Ra Fattan in Meidina's life so far. It feels complete and plenary in various ways.

So great is the meaning of the loss when he has to interpret it as a whole. And his heart was deeply wounded when he realized that the beautiful figure of Rayyan Ali Fattan in his life would never be replaced. And as the wound was squeezing the bone, her tears fell. That's why Meidina cried without a word during the BES meeting just now.

***

Kanza Davina was quite surprised, as she stepped with Nabila and Zaskia leaving the hall, heading to a place where Azmi was waiting for Zaskia there. It turned out that the young man was not alone, but was with Ustad Widad and Ra Fattan. Seeing the existence of son kyai Muhajir in the area of the KM guesthouse, Davina felt her heart beat fast.

"This is what is waiting for" said Ustad Widad as he looked towards the three of them, without explaining specifically who was waiting, and who was waiting. To be sure, Azmi looked towards Zaskia and asked

"Have the meeting finished?"

"Oh," replied the beautiful girl. "Sorry for a long time,". Said again.

"You're going straight home now, Mom?" ask Zaskia

"So Ning Zaskia. If there's still something, it won't be solved."

Zaskia was seen nodding small and immediately turned her eyes away. Ustad Widad and Nabila were seen throwing smiles at each other. While Kanza Davina who accidentally met each other with Ra Fattan, immediately looked down after having a smile first.

"Have you finished the exam?" ask Ra Fattan.

"Over now, Ra. We were just in a meeting" Davina said. Although he knew, if the young man was just a stale base with his question, but Davina gave the perfect answer. because in her heart she really appreciated the son of kyai Muhajir.

"What meeting?"

"BESTOS. Executive board santri kulliyatul muallimin, Meidina Ra, its chairman," replied Davina enthusiastically. Ra Fattan smiled, of course he already knew about it. And Davina also does not not understand, the case of Meidina who became BES must also have been known by Ra Fattan from a long time ago. Delivering something to those who already know, is like saltwatering the ocean. But, again it needs to be explained that, the interaction was only done by Davina because she appreciated the Youth very much. I don't know what the position of Ra Fattan in Davina's heart, so she really appreciates the son of the Muhajir kyai with the highest.

Meidina Shafa was present at that place, she said her greetings with her head bowed. All answered his greetings, only Rayyan Ali Fattan seemed silent.The young man chose to just stare at the face of Meidina Shafa's ayu decorated with a pasmina veil. the face that always adorned Maya's mind with her shady gaze. But now in a pair of my eyes it is like keeping a thousand mysteries hidden.

"Have you?" davina asked briefly towards him.

Meidina nodded as she received her books and cell phone back from the hand of her best friend. "Come," he asked to leave the place immediately.

"Is there still something to do?" ask Ra Fattan. There was no clear mention of who the question was for, but his gaze was clearly on Meidina. And look, Meidina shook her head briefly.

"Dhuhur prayer time is still one hour, can I ask for a moment?" ra Fattan asked, with such polite and polite language.

"Eye." Meidina did not immediately answer, she seemed still confused, or was actually devising a strategy to avoid.But, this time Ra Fattan was determined, to reveal the secret of what was not revealed to Meidina, but this time Ra Fattan was determined, to reveal the secret of what was not revealed to Meidina, why did the ayu girl now change her attitude.it was very clear that Meidina wanted to avoid, no matter what. And Ra Fattan can't stand to keep asking in an uncomfortable heart.

"There's something I want to talk to you about" Ra Fattan said.

Meidina lowered her head with a roaring heart, and in the end she nodded. He hoped that the son of kyai Muhajir would leave the place for something they would talk about. So that conversations that are certainly confidential will not be heard by those who are there.

Apparently, Ra Fattan just got up from his seat, offsetting the position of Meidina who is currently standing. From the eye language and body language of these two, Azmi and Widad can already understand something, until the two are seen staring at each other.

"With him tomorrow, I will return to Al-Azhar. But sheikhona asked me to stay first, while filling the schedule of one of the lecturers at STAI who was sick." That's what Ra Fattan said. Meidina looked up at him and smiled, the girl was happy, felt like she was important until Ra Fattan told her about it. However, just for a moment, the smile faded. His lips echoed the question.

"How long?"

"Not long, less than two weeks. After that I will return to Al-Azhar to be graduated."

"Alhamdulillah, I'm happy, too" Meidina said in a trembling voice. It indicates that his words are full of feeling.

"You alone, your education here is almost done, right?"

"insyaAllah" said Meidina.

"I hope you go back to Darul-Ulum, I will also go home. For we can be together."

"I mean, what's Ra with?" meidina asked in a nervous voice.

"I'll propose to you, Meidina "