Betting Love Above Destiny
78 Not Accepting And Neither Refusing

The story of Arafka next is, starting from the Alhasyimi highway mosque that night, the night on which Meidina won the first title, and the night also where kyai Abdullah Umar informed him about the engagement, witnessed by Meidina's friends and also Arafka's friends.

Actually that night, sheikhona wanted to tell who Arafka was to all of them, especially to Meidina Shafa who had been ordained as his future wife. But Arafka forbade it, for acceptable and justifiable reasons.

According to Arafka, if Meidina knows that her younger son is the sheikhona, then receiving the proposal becomes mandatory, even if it is not desired. And rejecting it is like a sin, even if it is actually decided.

As for Rafka, he wanted the girl he was waiting for to accept or reject with a reason that came from within his own heart, not from something that was outside of it.

And the fact that happened at the Alhasyimi mosque that night, as we all know, Meidina Shafa did not firmly accept or refuse.

"I felt at that moment that there was something very burdensome in your heart. I realize that you neither accept nor refuse."

This time, Rafka only directed the conversation to Medina Shafa alone. Because as she had just said, what she was going to tell right now, was the most important part of which, Meidina Shafa had to know.

Hearing that remark, Meidina immediately bowed. And though he had promised not to cry, but his tears just fell. Arafka is just starting the story.

"I know you have to. And this is very burdensome for me" said Arafka again, which made Meidina dare not look at him at all.

Arafka not only kept quiet with the thing that incriminated his heart, he immediately conveyed it to the shaykhona. And Kyai suggested that his son strengthen his intentions first by empathizing with Allah.

"Not will one confess his resignation or sincerity, nor receive a gift from Him, but one will surely be tested. Just like what happened to you right now. Meidina's compulsion is a test for you, from Allah."

Arafka lowered his head, every word for word he perfectly absorbed the meaning contained in it.

"Don't waver, son. Ask God for strength." Shaykhona gently rubbed the shoulders of the son with a smile.

Following his brother's advice, Rafka focused on spending two days and three nights in his own home, shutting down all communication access. None of his friends could contact him. Except for Kyai Mushtofa Tamimi who at that time specifically invited him to meet with the parents of Meidina Shafa, who came to the branch.

The rest of it, there was no one he allowed to interfere in his affairs, not even good advice from his brother. Rafka wanted to discover all that solidity of the heart purely from within himself.

And thank God, what he asked for was also obtained.

That afternoon, he got a call from Azmi who asked him to come to the foundation. Coinciding with that, he indeed wanted to sowan on his brother in helem. Rafka also met his friends first, in the gazebo two near Assurur mushalla, rainy time. And it turns out that in the gazebo he also met Meidina Shafa and his friends.

(Readers will remember this chapter)

After the gazebo, Rafka immediately met the shaykhona and conveyed everything that has now become his steadiness. He is determined to live it all out for the sake of God, and everything that is beyond his reach, whether his future wife likes him or not, rests entirely on the will of God. He will walk according to Allah alone.

Shaykhona seemed very pleased with what had become the determination and steadiness of his son. It turns out that in a short time, only about three and a half years he began to educate his youngest son, Rafka has transformed into a young man who has determination, he said, and the strength of the soul as a Muslim who resigned the path given by Allah. Kyai Abdullah Umar was grateful for it.

True what was said by ustadz Fadil earlier, that being the son of a sholih is an extraordinary destiny. Because the prayers and prostrations of his parents always flow for the son. Prayers from people who already know their god, such as darting and faster until. Although Allah has guaranteed to incite every prayer, but there is indeed a special criteria of prayers of course.the prayers offered by those who are pious, such as kyai Abdullah Umar Hashim, one of them.

It did not take long for his son Arafka to receive guidance from God, for the light of guidance was already in him.

And actually this is true for all men, not because he is the son of the pious or not. Because in every human being has been prepared a complete device to be close to the creator. Only not many humans can use the devices that have been provided, because of their inability to function his heart. While the complete device can only be run with the heart. It could be due to lack of information, lack of self-awareness, and lack of knowledge to be able to understand.

The phenomenon of today, studying is only intended to be able to get a high academic degree, to further be able to get jobs that are easy and in accordance with what is in demand. Science is only rooted for worldly success, not to be able to know who has made it in this world. If this attitude is more advanced, then do not blame if you can not take advantage of the complete trap that has been provided by God in each soul.

As for the pious Sholih, they are accustomed to walk with their hearts to their god. Then it is easier for them to operate the perfection device that has been available in him. So that they become more special people than other humans.

The conclusion is, to achieve the predicate "defend" not only because it is a child kyai only. But, anyone, anywhere, can become afraid by functioning his heart. For the heart is the place of divine truth. Even the son of sholih people, not necessarily will be a pious person if not introspective, and learn taqaarub to the divine.

But usually, righteous and pious parents will always guide, direct and guide their son, from before birth to the world, through their prostrations and prayers, like Abdullah Umar against his sons, one of them is Irfan Arafka Wafdan. So recognize these sons as people who have privileges that are not owned by most people.

back to the story.

"Son, did you attend a public lecture yesterday?" kyai asked Arafka after prostrating gratitude for her son's success.

"Yes, Aba."

"You remember one of the co-sources, he's an Alhasyimi alumnus, now on S2 at Al-Azhar."

"What is Rayyan Ali Fattan, Aba?"

"Yes, Son. He was his son Kyai Muhajir, the nanny of the Darul-Uum boarding school in Jember. Not far from your future home. Aba assigned him to replace Mr. Irham, a STAI lecturer, while he was being treated," Kyai said. And Arafka listened carefully to all the words of his brother.

"You meet him! communicate with him about your engagement to Meidina Shafa" sheikhona said.

"Well, Aba." Without much questioning, and without much thought, Arafka obeyed the orders of Shaykhona.