BETWEEN HUSBAND AND EX-GIRLFRIEND
Keep trying and praying

This month I hope late and line two, but my hope is no more because the afternoon I menstruate again. My husband smiled, "there's plenty of time" my husband said. I just joined in with a small smile, I came back from zero pregnant program again. Actually I want to see a doctor but my husband does not want to, he is afraid to accept the fact that the tip of his end will be a burden. I follow what my husband says, my friend suggested to be sorted. Me and my husband find a masseuse around the house, after meeting me also follow his advice. If it feels like this might hurt but for the sake of presenting your little one the feeling is gone, "may this be the way to bring us together yes son", I hope in my heart. Next month I have to go back to the masseuse, I am grateful to have a husband who can carry me everywhere. My marriage age is about eight months but many who marry continue to get pregnant immediately, this all makes me insecure myself. There are also neighbors who doain there are also those whose nyinyir is commonplace, me and my husband are always silent and do not want to respond. This month about two weeks I just finished my period but have menstruation again, said people may again "shower the moon" which means this month I have a lot of hope to get a line two. I finished my period about two weeks later I testpack was still negative, I kept thinking positive, maybe and maybe next week I can get a line two. After a month of menstruation, my heart broke instantly. My period is sorted again, keep saying people take pills kb. I follow his advice but maybe because my period is regular, I take pills kb even my menstruation messed up. I took off and did not drink anymore because it turned out that the pill made menstruation to be regular, it was me who regularly even messed up. All the ways and all the drugs I drink without feeling tired and give up. "boy, buna and dad always fight for the sake of meeting you dear, we do not just stay still dear soon be present dirahim buna", every prayer is just one, that and that is nothing else. Every morning I exercise with my husband, sometimes I envy them, and sometimes I think why God chose love for me, why should I. How foolish I was to think negatively like that. I have sodara and she gave birth to her second child, said the person I asked to be lured with the son of sodara. My Sodara doesn't mind, instead she teaches me how to hold a baby and how to take care of it. My Sodara too she has to work if it's been 2 months, so her son told me to take care of it. I try not to be afraid to hold the baby, I slowly land already can take care of the baby. Every morning until noon I take care because his mother works, if his mother comes home I love her child. My day is treated because the son sodara, I busy to take care of it. My husband doesn't mind this, but he told me not to make it. Enjoy just like my own child I take care of him, I follow every development he. From being able to stomach to teething, sometimes he hurts me who is carrying on. He doesn't want to get out of my arms..