BETWEEN HUSBAND AND EX-GIRLFRIEND
My biggest fear

The age of my marriage stepped on one year, there I sometimes was afraid my household was tenuous because there were no children among us. My activities every morning only take care of the son of sodara, if I go he also goes and I take him. Many say that my son looks like me, maybe because of the baby I take care of him. Even from the content was spoiled with me, want her to be pissed with me, as well as others she did not want. At USG and check with my nganter midwife, how would anyone think she was my son. The happiness of a mother sees the development of her child, it makes us feel happy because the development of children can not be repeated. I'm still promil but now my promil spice jsr dr. Zaidul akbar, I hope I can get pregnant. The first time I saw the ingredients already do not want but pas already formulated the taste is good, I stop the medicine and honey. Silence my husband also I concoct jsr for him, but I mix with his drink let him like. I'm five days late this month, I want to check but I'm afraid of heartache. I decided to wait a week, I've checked the results are still negative. The night I menstruate again, maybe this is used to it but why keep my heartache. My husband and I were disappointed again and I came back from zero again, maybe it's a stroke of luck and now I'm out of luck. I decided that it was two days late I had to badress maybe it was the way, but still it did not produce results.

"If only fate could I buy money" I thought if it was too cape.

I may be in bodo if my neighbors are lying about me and my husband, but this time the nyinyir and say barren is the sister of my mother (uwa). My heart ached and he did not know how much money I spent, how long I waited, how strong my heart was to be patient and patient. Then the person in my life gave me pain. This heart aches and I cannot forgive, I cried my husband.

"Lord I never thought and dreamed about this being present in my life", my mummy sobbed.

After the incident, I started to stay away from people and I started inside the house, sometimes I was in the room. The world feels unfair to me, wanting me to get out of this, but I don't know how. My husband as much as possible is always there beside me rarely far from me because he knows I'm really drooping, really, every day out at night even if only eating on the side of the road but it makes me forget for a moment. Sad to think if you remember the event, I became a parent just friends with hp. If there is a family gathering or event I do not participate, it's okay if I am ugly. I just want to keep my heart from hurting anymore, they are not all good to me, sometimes there is a spicy mouth. I often spend time at home with my husband, sometimes if my husband works I call my sister so I can joke with the same ponakan.Karna I keep no work finally I join the online shop sales with my friend, my friend, first it was doang. But after I understand how to sell it and many who buy, I really like it. My income is saved, my husband also allows me to sell. Every day when I just sell, I forget about the problems. Yes, the name of the sale sometimes there are quiet buyers as well but it's okay, I pursue my online sales even though I do not have the skills to sell. I took off my promil because I was busy selling, sometimes forgetting to drink. This month I did not realize that it was too late a week, I said to my husband, he was very happy and full of hope. Husband was enthusiastic to buy a testpack and I was told badress, her homework was done. The morning I testpack turned out to be still negative, I asked other people maybe another month new in the testpack back. My husband forbids me from getting tired and doing homework, all done alone. There is a sense of happiness and also anxiety because I was afraid of disappointing her back, it has been two weeks I have not had a period. My husband took me to the hospital for USG, I was so scared.

"What if it's going to be disappointing again and not good news for us" I'm worried about that.

I followed what my husband said to USG, after entering the room and seeing a doctor. The cold heat that I feel at this time, just me resigned what the results will be later.

"This is already a thickening of the uterine wall, it is likely pregnant or maybe tomorrow will be menstruation, wait another two weeks to make sure pregnant or not her". The doctor explained it.

My husband and I went home and as usual I was told to go to my room to rest. I can just watch tv just hold the phone, can walk if you want to shower the same poop. The rest he takes care of everything, food, drinks and snacks he has prepared in the room. I'm like a queen there, my stomach hurts like I'm about to menstruate outside. The night I felt bad and I went to the bathroom to check. It turned out that the uninvited guest came back, I cried and my husband came up to me hugging me.

"I'm sorry I let you down" I said.

My husband just smiled and kissed my forehead a sign of being fine, I went back to the room and rested. I move back to cook and sorted out as usual, I do promil back after the completion of menstruation. May there always be hope back for this, I promil up to three kinds in one day from the start of spices, honey, and fruit. Because now that I focus on promil, I forgot to sell my olshop. If my mood is good it may be selling but if not good I am lazy, just playin cell phone only. Because I sold on the new facebook, which I closed since marriage. I was fad reopen old Facebook, fear also appeared because there are many memories of the past. I saw my porch full of various posts.