Butterfly In You
Chapter 6: Heartbreak

Lilis mutely with a glazed look started. Lips vibrate. All over the body was shaking. He still looked at Shehan in silence as he held back the currently subduing, gnawing cockroaches of heart.

Before him, Shehan was breathing deeply, as deep as his gaze on Lilis. Slowly, the puff slipped free from his pointed nose. The tightness in his chest was reduced. The tightness he had been feeling for a week. In fact, it made it difficult to breathe.

After meeting with Nining in Banyuwangi, Shehan continued to think about his plans that only wanted to marry Lilis. Lilis herself also approved the plan. However, looking at Nining's old stature. He could not marry Lilis only to divorce her a year later.

"Sorry, I can't marry you, Lilis."

Shehan knew his words had hurt the innocent girl. But, he has to do it. Shehan has a reason why he suddenly decided to change his plans.

"Tu-Tuan .. a-what did you say just now, is that true?" Lilis finally opened her voice stammering. He still could not believe what Shehan said. He wanted to believe in himself again.

Shehan remained silent for a few seconds. Not the answer he gave the girl, but just the look of pity. Shehan suddenly got up from his seat, walking closer to the slumped Lilis. "Yes, Lilies. What I said just now is true. I can't marry you."

Lilis' sad bead moves in Shehan's step closer to her. "Why is this Mr. Sorta? It was very much playing tricks on me and my mother. I'm not the first time you've asked you to get married. But it was you who started it!"

Lilis hand trembled even more as she wiped the tears that had gathered at the end of her eyes. Many times he swallowed saliva to moisten the esophagus, which was suffocated by Shehan's bitter talk.

"I know you must be surprised and now you must be hurt. But getting hurt now is better than getting hurt later, Lilis."

Shehan who had reached the position of Lilis held one shoulder of the girl. Then rub it a few times, meaning to calm down.

"Accepting Master's invitation to marry the contract, I knew I would definitely get hurt later. I'm ready to get hurt, sir. But this kind of Master's way seems to insult me."

Lilis, who was already heartbroken, immediately dismissed Shehan's hand rub. Tears flooded his pale cheeks. Unwilling to be seen by the person who had hurt him, he hurriedly turned his face towards the window that was on the right side of the room. That's where the innocent girl cried bitterly. His sobbing voice filled Shehan's previously silent study.

'Why can I go into the same hole of error. First played by Hendra. And now played by Mr. Murad. Am I that easy to be played with by men? Am I too easy to trust others?' lirih Lilis in heart.

Shehan was not offended that Lilis had brushed off his hand earlier. He felt worthy of the patching. In fact, his actions were more heinous than Lilis' actions. The injured girl must be very unwilling to see him now.

"Lilis I'll tell you why I suddenly canceled your intention to marry you."

Shehan paused his speed of speech. He calmed himself down so as not to say the wrong words that could make Lilis even more hurt.

"That reason is because .. I don't have the heart to play you anymore. I can't grant your mother's wish. Honestly, there is no love between the two of us. After I think carefully, I better end this wedding plan right now," the man continued.

Lilis's eyes were already flushed following the tip of her nose when she turned to Shehan. Crying as much. He could not stop the tears that kept flowing down his cheeks.

"If Mr. .. ma-u ends this marriage plan, why not-dak than before? Before we go ... to meet my mother in Banyuwangi. Now ... Master not only played me, but also my mother."

Lilis stammered until her speech sounded vague. Despite that, Shehan understood what the girl was saying.

"Yes, Lilies. I know I'm guilty. That's why I want to end this mistake. We don't love each other anyway."

"The problem is not that we don't love each other. But what am I supposed to tell my mom now? Did I just tell you that you actually just asked me to marry you on a contract?"

"Don't! Don't tell me it's Lilis?" sergeant Shehan.

"Are you afraid?" Throwing a loud question, Lilis already did not care about her position anymore as a household assistant in the house. He just wanted to ask Shehan for a reasonable explanation.

"What do you think?"

"You could've told your mom about the contract wedding plans if you wanted to. But your mother will be very hurt later."

"If I just told you that you've ended this marriage plan, my mother would also be hurt, sir." Lilis melds sadly. He was helpless when he remembered his mother. Bak slapped on the cheek, that's what the mother will feel later.

"Came on!" call Shehan while staring intensely. "I'm sorry for being careless. Do not think far about the consequences that can arise in the future. But I'm still gonna make you a home in your village."

Lilis was surprised to hear it. Shehan has broken off their relationship, but why would the man still want to make it home?

"Why Master?"

"To make amends, I'll keep you home."

"Do you feel sorry for our poor situation? We are poor, but we are not beggars! Sorry, I don't want to take it."

Lilis firmly rejected it. However, it seems that the girl had misunderstood Shehan's intentions. Lekas Shehan denied with a hand gesture.

"Not Lilis, I don't mean that. I'm sincerely helping you to make a home."

"Sir wants to help me because you know we're a poor family. Sorry sir, I can't take it. Even if my mom knew for sure Mom wouldn't take it either."

"Lilis, I'm sorry for rushing into such a sloppy plan. I'm asking you to marry a contract just for my own sake. But my carelessness already involved your mother. I'm so sorry. As the keeper, I'll still make you a home. I'm sincerely helping you, Lilis."

"Thank you for helping, but I'm sorry. I can't take it. I'm gonna ask you where the money I got for making the house."

"Tell me if I give it to him."

"That's the same way you think I'm a beggar! Master is playing me and because Master has money, you want to easily erase Master's mistakes with money."

Shehan looked away and massaged his temple. He was confused to face Lilis' stubbornness. "But that's not what I mean!"

"I'm sorry if I speak out, but think carefully before you make a decision that could hurt others."

Lilis turned away, immediately Shehan prevented her by holding the girl's hand.

"Don't go! I still want to talk to you."

Lilis. "Sorry sir, but there's nothing more to talk about."

He went out of Shehan's office, carrying his grief.

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SERIATE...

How will Lilis be?