Chasing the Love of Alex
Forgive Papa

The hardest decision you have to make is when you are too tired to hold on, but you are also too in love to let go.

The question. How about when I was too weak to hold on, but too sick to let go. Sometimes, the reason is the strength in holding on, but let go if your strength is no longer appreciated.

—Anonymous—

The sun had already set, and the goddess of the night had already ascended to her throne, although she was seen hiding behind the clouds, when Sonya reached her papa's house.

His father looks shocked to see Sonya coming while pulling two large suitcases behind him, which are immediately taken over by both Mboknya and immediately bring the suitcase to Sonya's room.

"What's the matter, baby?" asked his papa with a frown furrowed in dismay, adding to the obvious coarse curls on his aged face. Then look behind Sonya before stepping out the door, and turn back toward Sonya again.

"Where's your husband? Did you leave the house on his permission?" ask papa.

Sonya spread her body over the long sofa, her hands and feet dangling to the floor, her eyes staring at the ceiling of her papa's living room, before finally exhaling a long breath.

"I've decided to divorce Alex Pa.." sighed Sonya lirih.

Sorry Papa I let you down.

"Yes God... What's the matter, baby, until you decide to get divorced?" screech her papa as she approaches Sonya and sits on a small chair above her head.

"Did Alex hurt you?" ask papa in a worried tone.

"Not physically, Pa... But mind.." answered Sonya while closing her eyes.

"What did Alex do to you, son?" ask papa again while stroking the child's hair just like that, then wipe the tears on his cheeks and then scream.

"Yes God... Your body is so hot, Sonya..."

Sonya held her forehead, and it was true that she had a fever, it just seemed that all day was sore and painful all over her body.

"Maybe it's just a cold Pa... I started to feel bad after snorkeling on the island yesterday, so I came home a day ahead of schedule..."

"Before Papa calls the Doctor." exclaimed his papa while standing but Sonya immediately sat down and held her papa arm.

"No need Pa... Just get in the wind... I'll ask Mbok Yem to massage me Pa... Taking heat-lowering medication is also gone later... Papa doesn't have to worry." said Sonya calmed her papa.

"If your heat doesn't come down tomorrow, Papa will call the doctor." he said.

Sonya nodded and grinned wide, "Yes... I went to the room first, Pa. tomorrow I told Papa... Now I'm so tired I want to rest..."

His father nodded, "Have a rest..."

"And Papa... I don't want to meet Alex. If he's here... Please drive him out." added Sonya before climbing the stairs to the top floor.

Arriving in Sonya's room took the heat-lowering medicine from her medicine box, and immediately took it. Then moving to her bag to take her KB pills, Sonya just opened her mouth when she finally canceled her intention to take the pills, and immediately threw all the pills into the trash.

Sonya took off all her clothes, and immediately slipped herself into the blanket, either because she was too tired to be born and inner, or because there was a sleeping drug content in the medicine, he said, until Sonya fell asleep.

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The next morning Sonya was no longer fever, only she felt mellow because it turns out Alex did not come to her house. Not that Sonya was expecting Alex to come, she just felt completely ignored by Alex at the moment.

After finishing her bath, Sonya rushed downstairs to the kitchen, she missed her dinner and even her lunch, she last ate at breakfast yesterday at the hotel before heading to the airport.

“Morning pa...” greet Sonya while kissing her papa forehead before sitting next to her.

Papa touched Sonya's forehead, “It's not hot anymore..” murmured.

“Kan I told you Pa... Just catch a cold, so Papa does not have to worry yaa..” said Sonya with a gentle smile.

“Ya have eaten... Mbok Yem has cooked your favorite food.”.

“Hmm Pa's... If I move to Milan... Papa doesn't mind, does he?” ask Sonya.

“You want to stay away from Alex Nak?” His return to nanya.

“Iya... All right, I'm calming down there, Pa... I love that city so much... Well even though his new year's night party is full of chaos... But the rest is fine... But Papa doesn't have to worry... I'll be home once a month..” Sonya replied.

“Indeed Hardan is willing to mutate you there?”

“It is precisely this advice from Hardan Pa... Yesterday before I came here I stopped by his house first.” explained Sonya.

His father nodded in agreement, “Yes already if it is the best for you... When are you going there?”

Sonya swallowed her food before replying, “After Kei lahiran Pa... Hmm probably two more weeks..”

“Sonya... Are you seriously trying to get a divorce? Have you thought about it carefully?”

What do I have to answer? Can't I answer honestly if Alex just thinks I'm his lust? Which parent will not hurt his heart, especially Papa is still in the postoperative recovery stage.

“Pa... I'm not going to tell Papa the details... But Papa told me that Alex hurt me until I couldn't stand him anymore... Papa will allow me to leave him... Now I can't stand her attitude anymore, Pa... I've been really hurt... So I hope Papa understands and does not discuss what caused me to decide to separate with him.” Sonya stressed.

Papa sighed softly, “Life is not always perfect... Not everything we like will be ours... But you can always be happy in other ways... Papa can only pray for you, son... May God give you the best path... May you always be in His protection... Wherever you are later.”.

Papa pats Sonya's shoulder, “I'm sorry Papa... Because it made you like this... If Papa doesn't ask you to get married soon you won't be rash to choose a husband... And you won't be as miserable now... Pardon Papa Nak..” his sigh was soft, a drop of tears dripped in the corner of his eye even though papa directly wiped it so that Sonya did not see it.

“Stop blaming yourself Pa... It's been my way of life like this... And I never blamed Papa... I would do the same if I were in Papa's position.”.

I didn't choose to leave, you made me leave Lex, silenced me when I loved you, and ignored me when I missed you.