Chasing the Love of Alex
Divorcement

Love will never be known in it, until we feel the moments of separation. At least that's how Sonya is feeling right now, as she and Alex wait for the judge's seconds to knock the hammer and validate their divorce, Sonya feels that her love for Alex is deeper than she ever imagined.

Divorce itself is as painful as death... But it would be even worse to stay in an unhealthy marriage...

But still as Sonya and Alex sit side by side in front of the judge, who is reading their divorce verdict... Sonya's little heart was always wondering, "Is this what I want... Why am I tired of fighting it...? And why would Alex be willing to let go...? Is this the end of my love story with her...? Is this the end of my pursuit of her love...?"

I hope one day you feel what I'm feeling right now, Lex... My heartache will never heal if I'm still with you...

And for the umpteenth time Sonya let out a long sigh, holding it for a while before finally exhaling it back. Next he did it to calm himself. Even so still his throat was sore, his nose felt compressed and his eyes were sore because they held back tears.

I have to be strong... I have to hold on... I can't look weak... This has been my decision... But Shit...!! Why does my heart still hurt... I never imagined it would hurt like this...

While playing her fingernails Sonya glanced at Alex, she seemed to seriously listen to the judge with a cold, unreadable look on her face.

Lord... Why is Alex that calm...? Is there no sense of loss of myself in his heart...? Doesn't he feel the same sadness that I'm feeling right now...? Why am I the only one fighting...? Why am I the only one who feels this pain...?

It felt like Sonya was screaming right then and there to drop her divorce charges, but everything had already happened and it was impossible to come back. Sonya just hopes that one day Alex will understand why Sonya would rather leave him than continue to wait for something uncertain.

Dear God's... I need you more than ever... Please bring peace to my confusion, joy to my sadness, and hope to my heart...

Until finally the judge knocked on the hammer, and it was legal to divorce them with one talak. Sonya's breathing was choked and she immediately closed her eyes, trying her best not to shed tears, at least not at this moment, and not in this place.

After feeling calmer Sonya opened her eyes again and found Alex who was already standing looming in front of her, with a sweet smile she extended her hand to Sonya to help Sonya get up from her chair.

How could I forget you... If that smile of yours had brought me memories I would never have forgotten...

While trying to smile Sonya received Alex's helping hand, and stood up. Alex immediately takes Sonya into his arms, ignoring the rebellious Sonya wanting to break away.

"Sst... Let me hold you for a second... For the last time." whispered Alex in a hoarse voice.

And when Sonya had turned calm in her arms, Alex distanced her body a little in order to see Sonya,

"Letting you go is not the best option... But keeping you will only make you hurt deeper... To be honest, I'd rather see you being fierce and grumpy than see you hurt and sad... Seeing you happy is my happiness... Despite your happiness without being with me.." Alex then kissed Sonya's forehead and immediately stepped out of the courtroom.

Part of my happiness is because of you, Lex... Some of my laughter is also because of you... But now... I was ruined because of you...

Lord.... Heart's broken... Completely destroyed... My heart will never be the same again... Even though I tried to convince myself that everything would be fine...

Kei patted Sonya on the shoulder and immediately carried Sonya into his arms, the tears that he had been holding back from now on finally flowed down, his tears breaking in the arms of his best friend, his back shaking from his sobbing.

"End is Kei... My relationship with him has ended... I should have been happy... Is it Kei...? I should have been happy to have escaped that cold and stiff man, right...? But why does my heart hurt Kei... My heart is broken.." isak Sonya.

"Prophey darling... This pain you feel will gradually also disappear, especially after you find another man who is much better than him... You have to believe that... Because I've experienced it myself..." Kei calmed Sonya down while patting her back.

"I'm afraid I can't open my heart to another Kei... I'm afraid I'll remember it my whole life... I'm afraid I can't take away my feelings for her... I'm afraid Kei... Was I wrong for filing Kei's divorce... Am I wrong for being impatient with her...?"

"Std... If patience isn't enough to wake Alex up, maybe a new loss will wake him up... Let's just wait... I always pray that things turn around, Alex will fight for your love later... And when that time comes... I'll hang you if you just go back to him...!! Let him fight hard to get you back... Let him cry and clear first... To replace your tears that have been shed because of this...!" kei said excitedly.

Sonya's back shook again, this time not because of her sobbing but because she laughed softly, Sonya distanced her body a little from Kei, then stared fixedly at her best friend's face.

"I'm grateful that you're here, Kei... Sorry I've been troubling you... You should just take a break after delivery do not need to bother attending..."

"Oh I have to be present... In the darkest hour of my life you were always there for me... Now it's time for me to be the same with you..."

"It's impossible that Kei Alex would expect me back... His love for Rara is so great that it takes away Alex's common sense... From now on it is better for me to set my heart back... And welcome my new life as a widow" sighed Sonya lirih and laughed bitterly,

"God... Why are we both the same fate, Kei... Feel the life of a widow because men are assholes." murmured Sonya.

Kei laughed loudly, then took Sonya out of the courtroom, "Where is Hardhan... You didn't come here by yourself, did you, Kei...?" ask Sonya.

"So he was sitting there... Maybe you're with Alex now... Let's hope my monster punches Alex's nose until it breaks...!!" kei's growled.