Chasing the Love of Alex
Bring Me To Life's

After no reply from Sonya Alex went on,

"They handed me Papa's wallet and Mama's bag... As well as the ring that Mama always wears, Mama's only jewelry is left because everything else is sold out... The ring I pinned to your ring finger when we got married... That's all that's left of my mom..."

Sonya wiped her tears away, Ah shit...!! Why am I being such a crybaby anyway...?! alex misunderstood me again... But I couldn't stand it when Alex told me why Alex didn't die... I just don't want Alex to die... That'sthat's all.

Sonya immediately broke free from Alex's embrace, then sat on the sofa that Alex was sitting on,

"Continue...!" yells.

Alex goes to the couch next to Sonya,

"My life changed instantly, I became an orphan in just two weeks... I can't even take you to my parents' final resting place... After I recovered, I was immediately sent to the orphanage... And all that time I always had nightmares about the accident... The shadow of Mama and Papa that was soaked in blood like it didn't want to disappear from my memory..."

"Until I was out I met Hardhan in the drunken thugs and I helped him... I was even more battered than Hardan back then... But from there our closeness began, Hardhan took me to his house and asked his mother to adopt me... And that day was the first time I met Rara..."

Ah.... Rara again...

"Somehow since then my nightmare has never come again... The terrifying shadow gradually disappeared, changing with Rara's cheerful face... To make me fall for her..."

Alex was silent for a while as if strengthening himself before continuing the story.

"And on the night of Rara's death... I saw my loved ones bleeding... Rara suffered the same death as my parents in a car accident... I was really hit that time... My world was completely shattered into pieces and I cried hysterically while hugging her body."

"And when the doctor declared Anindira's death... My world turned mute and silent. There was no hysterical scream, not a single drop of tears coming out of my eyes, as if everything had frozen.... My heart is really dead... Along with the grief that Anindira left for me..."

"And above all that... I was traumatized to love again... I thought everything I loved was going to die like them... Like my parents and Rara... I think of myself as an unlucky carrier... My parents died because I wanted to see Oma... Rara died because I didn't want to accompany her to her birthday... All because of me...!!" sorry Alex.

"That's why I forbid you to love me... Because I'm afraid I'll fall in love with you too... And I don't want you to get pregnant because I don't want what I'm going through my son will also experience it...!! I'll let my own misfortune until death pick me up later..."

Sonya let out a long sigh, and she unconsciously stroked her own stomach, now Sonya just understood why Alex was so traumatized. He protects himself by withdrawing from those who love him. And without Alex knowing it, he's also hurt people who love him.

"You can't blame yourself like that Lex... It's all fate... Everyone has their own destiny... It was just a coincidence that your parents and Rara died the same way.." sighed Sonya lirih,

"Yes you're right... I only realized it after you sailed away from my life... I was trying to protect myself from the pain of losing someone I loved, by staying away from them... Like I'm staying away from Hardhan and Mama... I also tried to make you hate me so you could leave me..."

Alex stared into Sonya's eyes, letting Sonya see the honesty of her eyes,

"Without me knowing... You made it into the recesses of my heart that had long been numb... You managed to pull out my long-slept soul in the ice, and wake me up from that deep sleep... You pumped my blood back into my heart..."

"Stay with me Son... Crying and laughing with me from the moment I open my eyes, to the end of my day... I want you to always be there in my fragile moments... And keep holding my hand tight when I'm knocked down and falling..."

"I'm not perfect... But in my heart right now you are like air to me... You are my life... You are my world... You are the one who makes me worthy of love... And you're the one who bandaged my wounds..."

"So please Sonya... Comeback me... And don't ever leave me again... Now I know what you mean to me... And I also know what I would be without you... God has sent you for me... To wake me up and pull me out of my slump... Please Sonya... Bring me to life." ask Alex with all his heart.

Sonya's tears rolled back down her cheeks, she had never heard Alex talk all this time. And that made Sonya both moved and sad.

"I'm sorry I underestimated your past so far, Lex... But it also cannot justify your attitude towards me...!! You've hurt me so much, Lex... You have inflicted a deep wound on me... If you hurt my body, it might heal soon... But what you're hurting is my heart, Lex... My heart is the one that is hurt... It could be that it's gonna last me the rest of my life, Lex...!!" sonya said while wiping away her tears.

Damn Alex...!!! He made me become a mellow like this...!!!

"And don't play with my feelings... If you're not sure how you feel, Lex...!!" sonya.

"I'm not messing around with your feelings Sonya...!! I seriously...!! And I'm also serious about how I feel about you...!!" alex convinced Sonya.

Sonya snorted dejectedly, "For what if I only get half your heart... While half your heart is again for Rara...!! Can you give your whole heart round to me, Lex...? Can't it...? Then I'm sorry I won't come back to you...!!"

"But Son..."

"That's enough...!!!" cut Sonya in a sharp tone, "If all this time you hurt me just because you want to protect yourself from pain... Now I'm like that Lex... I'm feeling what you've felt before... I shut myself out of that pain... And I don't want to repeat that pain again...!!!" Sonya.

The fifth chapter tonight...

The next chapter is tomorrow at 7am...

Happy reading and have a nice day...😘😘