Child Marriage SMK
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"Alena."

Call Dava on the way. Makes me rush to wipe away the tears.

"Are you okay?"

Added.

"Emmm, Alena's not a papa."

I answered, trying to give a smile to the man who was worried about me.

Ka Dava nodded, but she still kept stealing glances at me. He knew I was crying.

"l. Do you like Giandra?"

Suddenly Dava asked that question. It made me look at him in shock.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to."

His words straighten.

"Alena doesn't know. Because when Alena is treated well by men, Alena always feels comfortable and feels safe."

Answer me, looking straight ahead.

"That is natural to Al. But, have you ever been afraid of losing even though you actually know that you can't possibly part?"

Deg. Suddenly I felt something violently hit the foundation of my heart. It beats fast, and makes me sweat.

"Have you ever done anything for anyone? Like giving what he asked for. Or, do you ever know what someone wants to say just by looking into his eyes? You can understand him just by sitting down and paying attention to his behavior? You feel so happy even if it's just the little things he does? Have you ever felt so worried about losing a man like him?"

Sure do. I will certainly never feel it all. I was in it once, yeah. I'm going through it all. But I don't know with whom. Is that Ell? Radite? Ka Dava's? Or Giandra? I don't know. I really can't understand what Dava's trying to say.

Let time answer.

When in doubt, we just have to wait. Stepping without fear of error.

..............

"Thank you for today."

Nara said in a car parked on the side of the road.

"Emmm. Thanks again."

Radit replied, making both of them blush each other.

"I'm coming home now. Careful,"

Pamit Naya, in a nod to Radit who is still putting up his stripes.

After getting out of the car, Naya waves her arms, which she replies to Radit's beautiful smile.

After Radit's car left and it is no longer visible in the eyes of the woman who is still standing on the sidewalk. He then immediately went into the small alley.

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Naya is in a complex. And he entered the tenement number 25.

It is clearly read from the outside view of his house. Inside it is very narrow. There is only a small mattress in the corner of the room near the window, study table, also cabinets and kitchens that have absolutely no barrier walls or decorative cabinets. And the bathroom is in between.

After keeping the bag on the bed. Naya immediately opened her study desk drawer and picked up the white crackle.

He took some medicinal pills from inside and immediately swallowed them with the help of water that was already available on his study table, maybe last night or I don't know.

"Huh."

His breathing sounded heavy. His right arm holds the lower right abdomen. His face was clearly visible that he was enduring the pain.

Face pale. The cold sweat managed to make his face drenched and his body shiver.

..............

20.20

I was sitting in bed. Looking at the outside world from an open window. I always leave it like that.

Slowly, I walked to the balcony. Standing on the fence while looking at the bracelet that Giandra gave him.

"Why should it be like this?"

I murmured feeling weak.

"Why does the universe let so many humans get involved in my life? Why does the universe let me have a sense that never can tell which love is comfortable? "

"Then, why should I know how Giandra feels, if God has brought someone into my life? And why didn't God let me and Giandra stay together? What really happened to my life? Why?"

Shrill me, sobbing.

This time, I feel tired of myself. I feel weak and defeated. I was stupid. I don't know which guy I love, I don't know who I feel comfortable with and safe with. I don't know what kind of affection someone gives you on a friend basis. I don't know what kind of love someone gives me when he thinks of me as his little sister.

Do I love Giandra? But why have I been okay for five years? Do I love you Ell? Then why does this heart feel that it is just like an older brother that I try to keep from anyone. Do I hate Radit? Then why should I break when I see him close to the woman he loves. And do I love you Dava? Obviously I know that this heart is as amazed and awake as it is with a brother.

Then for now. I prefer to love myself. Maybe that way, I can figure out which guy I really want.

...............

Cleks.

Radit closed the apartment door, and immediately went to his room.

"What about the date? Like it's fun to forget that today her fiance is home."

Sindir ka Ell who was watching television.

"Huh. It's not that Lo is happy that Alena is closer to Lo. Hypocritical,"

Radit's petty reply, making Ell's breath hunt.

Radit's steps accelerated and soon left the room.

"Ohh."

Emotion ka Ell hit the couch.

"Naya should be back with me, this is not what I want."

He shrieked his hair and rubbed his face violently.

............

I'm looking for something. To make my room a mess.

"Thankfully."

Glad I got it.

A brown box I immediately took and headed for the bed. I sat in the middle and started to open it.

Some little dolls I took out of the box. I also forced some papers out. Until I finally found you the photo I was looking for.

Yep. Photo of three kids. Two women were laughing together, while between them a little boy was crying hysterically.

I was made to smile by that photo. But then, I chose to open some neatly folded paper.

Actually, these papers I got from Namara. He sent her from Yogyakarta for me, in two years. However, three years later it no longer sends me message packets.

However, everything Namara gave me had never been opened. The reason is, because I hate Namara, I don't like her because Giandra prefers her over me. Giandra has always defended Namara from me. There are many more regrets about him.