Colorless Rainbow
PWT # Episode 86's
Jiara's chest returned erratic, her depression like a relapse again. Well, it's been two years since he was passed away by his mother. Jiara was able to vent her anger on the dark world. Until he was addicted to visiting places that many people spend not good, such as night clubs, bars and karoke places, just to find entertainment, and can forget his sadness. Forgetting his parents' divorce, a long process for his mother's treatment, until his mother's departure when he was not ready to live his own life.
Until a dark night made him lose his crown. She was trapped and raped by a man she did not know, until a month later she became pregnant. Various ways Jiara uses to remove her baby, but it does not work. Until he was half depressed reached a small town and well received by the owner of a boarding school which two years became his hiding place.
Both of Jiara's eyes warmed up again, and Lucas became even more curious about the hijab girl he was currently facing.
"Jiara, why are you? Why do I see you are so different, if you really want to change the money, it's up to you, please change it later after you have the money to replace it, right now the most important thing is your papah training, right?" ask Lucas and re-offered the card that Jiara had rejected.
However, Jiara who was in need of calmness without saying a word, and without taking the card that Lucas gave her, the long-veiled woman got up from her seat and stepped out of Lucas' room in a hurry.
Jiara's hand waved at the taxi that was walking towards where she was standing. The first place Jiara wants to visit is her mother's grave. Then he wanted to confide in her papa. Lastly, I want to visit her baby. The light blue-eyed baby he currently left at the boarding school where he calmed down first, Not leaving, maybe more precisely throwing it away because maybe this is Jiara's last meeting with her beautiful child, because Jiara looked at each eye it remembered the man who had raped her. Jiara decided after this she would no longer visit the child she was born with. Jiara is sure that her son will be more direct and well educated when in the hut environment, rather than having to come with her.
"Until when do I hate that child, until when?" Jiara sobbed inside the taxi that was currently heading to her mother's funeral. Indeed the most painful thing is that when a child loses the figure of a mother, her life becomes ruined as Jiara currently faces.
Although it lasted quite a long time two years ago, but Jiara could not forget it. "Will I be able to forget that incident and accept the child who is not bedosa," Jiara said her tears kept dripping, her footsteps leading to a tomb that she was very familiar with. Just one week ago Jiara kemakam this to tell the condition of her papah that is getting down dratis health.
"Hai Mah, Jia is coming again. Mamah don't be bored well, hear the curhatan Jiara, because Jia is confused, because Jia feels in this world already has no friends anymore. So Jiara can only and believes that confide in Mamah. Mah, maybe Mamah was very disappointed in Jiara who Mamah always said that Jia is a good boy and a obedient child. Jiara is the bad boy Mah, because the mischief of Jiara God punishes Jia, by presenting the child in the womb of Jiara. Jia has to how Mah, Jia hates the same child, but today Jia wants to meet Jia's son, what Jia deserves to be a mother after one knows more Jia does not want to see the child, Jia wants to see the child, jia now leaves the boy in a strange place. Mah Jia should how. Jia's heart is hard as Papah's, Jia is hard pressed to accept the child."
Jira's footsteps returned to the taxi that had been waiting for Jiara. The next place is a mental hospital, where his papa is treated. Either what is the purpose of Jiara visiting them all as if she wants to say goodbye, or instead she is lonely and looking for friends who can understand her feelings. It was as if Jiara was saying that her life had no direction of purpose. He was lost in a dark past life.
"Hi Pah, how are you? Sorry Jiara has not visited Papah for almost a month, Jiara is busy looking for money for Papah treatment, but Jia apologizes if Jia has not been able to provide the best care to Papah. Jiara was busy until she could not visit Papah, but Jiara has not been able to give Papah the best treatment. Jiara shy Pah. Pah kept on holding on for Jia well. Jiara didn't know who to take cover for and told her who else after Mamah left. Jiara is very afraid that Papah will also follow Mamah, who will Jiara be the same?" lirih Jiara this time cried beside her papa body that was weak because of the pain she suffered.
Jiara looked up at her face when her hair touched, her weak papa hand touched Jiara's hair and stroked her. A faint smile appeared from his papa face.
"Don't Papah know Jia?" Isak Jiara when she saw the change of her face that seemed to recognize her.
Bima nodded faintly. Again, Jiara's tears spilled, this was the best response during her papa hospitalization.
"Father, hold on well, later we will go home together after Papah is healed," Jiara said in a whisper behind her papa ear, and again Bima nodded and smiled faintly. After spending his hours. This time Jiara returned again to the taxi that had been waiting for her patiently.
According to his heart he wanted to see his baby, no matter what feeling but suddenly Jiara remembered the little boy who might have been able to chatter with anxiety and also running around here and there. Indeed, since giving birth to her baby Jiara did not take care of her, who took care of her was Ambu the owner of the cottage, and their house with the cottage where Jiara studied separated alias not fused, aka not fused, so Jiara hardly knows the development of her baby, plus Jiara's hatred when she sees her eyes that are almost similar to Lucas is light blue.
Every time Jiara saw her baby's eyes, she was staring at the face of the man who had vilely raped her. Only her eyes can remember and those eyes are also decreased in her daughter. The child he wants to meet right now.