Cragile
Cranky

"Who should love the husband, the husband slam bones nyari work for? if it's not for you."

that afternoon my mother-in-law said that to me in a cynical tone, I did not speak a word to answer the words of my mother-in-law, the sadness and tightness that I felt,still with the same tone the mother-in-law said again "let's not marry before not have a job even on ngeyel wedlock, now not also get a job already want to have children, now do not want to have children, how not dizzy so parents think about it"

"Yes Allaah..in my heart I said, we married not one bit to trouble them, even on the day where!,perhaps for most people the wedding day is a special day where the happiness of two families can unite in a sacred event.

but for me and my husband at the wedding, there was a sadness that may be up to whenever I can never forget, because my husband was alone in a day that was sacred to both of us."

No one from my husband's family attended my wedding.My family could only accept, and understand the condition of my husband's family at that time.

"My husband's name Aditya is from Central Java, he is the second of five children. Four boys and one daughter, while my name is Reyna the fourth of four children, I am from West Java.

we first met d cikarang, Bekasi when I was still working in a mall in cikarang area.

starting in the afternoon it was fitting that I wanted to go to work. "mas nitip clothesline y I said to mas Aditya without knowing his name at that time.

oh yes, just calm down", he replied with a smile, "thank you, mas,sama-sama mbak."

"Don't work? I asked again and he replied, again mbak leave.!, oh yes I have left first, mas, as I passed I also say goodbye to him. yes mbak carefully in his path. ok....! "

The day changed, I asked in my heart "is that man not going to work?" contractually right in front of my contract automatically squirms constantly. Finally I curiously ask him.

"mas ko blm leaving for work? with a distinctive smile he replied. while shy hehe I quit my place of work mbak want to find a new experience he said, oalah pantesan ko long leave really" I said. from there we became familiar because the series passed and chatted.

Do not know how at first because often chatting together began to arise strange swish every time close to him, even though at that time I already had a girlfriend both from Central Java but different regions, but, my relationship with my boyfriend has been quite long, 4th is already a loving relationship between me and my girlfriend (Ardyan my boyfriend's name).

I can only meet once a week mas Ardyan because the place we work in different areas, not far away very much only it takes 1 hour distance between my place and Ardyan mas.

Ardyan, a loving and caring man, never once hurt me in words or deeds, my extended family approved of my relationship with Ardyan, and vice versa, I feel like I have a sister in a remote place because her brother Mas Ardyan is so considerate of me, behaves well towards me.

but no one knows, maybe Ardyan is not my soul mate, even I am married to a new Aditya mas 1th I know.

From pity grows a sense of more that we both feel.

Finally, Aditya mas can also work together with one job with me just different parts.

because one job he was so overprotective of me, the friendship environment d limit, the schedule to go to work must be together, go to work, rest, go home from work must be together with him continue. I'm wrong in the slightest he can be angry with me, Alloh can only be silent, sad that I feel, even though the mistake I accidentally did he did not want to accept, so selfish!.sometimes regret is useless.

until finally at that time, I received a call from my mother, "Asalamallaikum Rey... waalaikumssalam ma'am, how is it healthy ma'am...? how are you doing, Mom...? mr. thank God healthy son, but mother..sound mother's voice vibrates and hangs her sentence, mother why? mom sick son!, I hope you come home son because you hope his one-on-one mother who can take care of the mother at this time.Ivanka already married mother may not ask your sister's help, to take care of the mother, to take care of the mother,likewise with Dirga your brother works to support his wife and children, he said, while Beni may not be able to take care of mother son even though she has not married but not tasty mother ask help the same as her to take care of mother",with sobs my mother expressed what she expected of me.

Ivanka kaka my daughter's first child, Dirga kaka bola" second child, and Beni my sister's number three.

Confused that I felt at that time, on the other hand I worried about the condition of my mother who was sick, but on the other hand I was hard to leave my job, this is my job,I was faced with the dilemma of having to choose between going home or keeping my job, right" a difficult choice for me at the time.

Finally I decided to resign from where I work, when I gave my resignation letter to the office, "gold David spoke to me, David said, Rey think again about this decision you have to think people out there are not sure as lucky as you can join our company, there are still many people who are difficult to get your rich job, you know, try to think again".I was silent for a moment thinking there is a point that Davhit said," but mas I have to keep stopping to take care of my mother who is sick mas with a vibrating tone I say again I mean to stop working".

Finally that day I said goodbye to all the office staff to resign from the company where I work greetings. The office of the company that received me as its employee in one of the branches of the women's clothing counter is located in Cideng, Petojo Roxy area.

With a giant step I left the place, in the afternoon I arrived at a contract that several years I occupied.I immediately lay down while looking far at the words uttered by mas Davit earlier....how lucky I was to be able to work all this time, with my limitations, I have a lack of my left eye, since kls 2 High School I did left eye surgery, my left eye using a false eye, my left eye using a false eye, as a result of the time when I was in elementary school I lost my sight, but I was grateful to be given confidence, with always inferiority to anyone not a few people who have behaved well to me so far... thank you very much for all that you have given me so far.Although I have a lack of gratitude who love me so sincerely regardless of the physical aspect but they see from the humility that I have been guard it.

In the evening I met Aditya to apologize and say goodbye to go back to my home area with the reason to take care of my mother who was sick.

A look of sadness flashed in his eyes as I was about to leave, "why so soon? you left me here alone, you don't love me anymore?, you go back to your hometown!", with a vibrating voice he said. "I'm sorry I have no other choice, because my mother was so expecting my presence at this time, patient yes mas!, if indeed we match will not go where mas, surely we will meet again! ",with a sad heart I answered.We were both silent in each other's minds, not for a long time he grasped my hand tightly and then hugged my body tightly, in the arms he was noisy to me, "who knows what I have to do in the future, as long as I am with you I feel comfort without you no matter what happens, do not feel these tears fall without being able to hold as well as Aditya mas".

There began to be a sense of tightness that I felt because it felt the same way I felt in the last few months, as long as I was in a relationship with her, as well as I was, although sometimes I feel depressed with overprotective mas Aditya to me.

Three days passed, at this time I was in my homeland in West Java. Although far apart did not break my relationship and Aditya mas still share news. Days passed, weeks, months changed, we kept in touch.

At dusk I was surprised by the presence of Aditya mas coming to my residence.