Cragile
still about my mother's words

By late afternoon I was trying to get out of the room, rushing to the kitchen to prepare my family's dinner,at this time I do not talk much for fear even cause a long debate, especially with mothers who sometimes like to be unwell heard.

After I felt my work was all done, I immediately took a shower and performed the Maghrib prayer.I kept locked myself in the lazy room to get out, the appetite was lost, just lying in the room. I faintly heard my father and mother talking in the living room, there was no intention to eavesdrop on their conversation there, but still it was heard from my room.

"I don't know what to say to your son sir, I advise him nothing, I'm just afraid our son is suffering, and is not the time to think about the feelings that should be thought about how to find a prospective companion who can really be a role model later, indeed life just needs love? what with love can guarantee everything, will not sir", only the sound of the mother's voice rang to talk to the father, no voice of the father chimed in the words of the mother.

"Try on imagine! how does it feel if one day hear our children feel suffering, pain that we will feel sir, we better be considered the same child from now before everything happens sir, no regrets at the end".

"According to the father put everything to Alloh, you see during Adit here yesterday he was a polite child, kind, deft and able to carry himself, he said,we don't know ma'am maybe now he has no work who knows in the future he is raised just as wrestling, Alloh, there is no harm as well as our parents understand trying to understand the situation of our child ma'am, lest we lose again Reyna, long ago we were away with her ma'am, ma'am, now he decided to stop working too in order to send mom.think again mom". You are trying to give understanding to the mother and suggest to consider being able to freely accept the current state of Aditya mas."Yes, sir whatever you want now", with a sticky tone mother entered the room leaving the father in the living room alone.

There was a little relief in my heart, listening to the words of my father to my mother just now, did not feel my tears spilling rapidly, but I tried not to let out my crying voice, but I did not let out, I don't want to add any more weight to my father, watching me cry.

Yes, I'm sorry if I have a wrong assessment of my mother, maybe my mother did this all for the sake of my future survival, but on the other hand I have anchored my love to Aditya mas. I beg you to show me the way, give the best path that you Ridhoi for my relationship with Aditya. because tired of crying does not feel right I open my eyes see the clock shows at 01.15 midnight.