Dear Mas J's
If the Heart is Disappointed

With a hasty step I stepped towards the house when I saw the clock was showing at 9 pm, today's street was so chaotic that it took me 2 hours more to get home, he said, plus I haven't had time to contact mother or mas Tama because my phone is out of battery power, I'm sure you must be worried looking for me.

Our housing location is not too far from the stop, therefore I am used to walking because the distance is not too far from my home.

However, unfortunately I forget tonight is a Saturday just right if the streets are very crowded and make congestion on every road. I noticed around the many young people passing by around my housing complex.

I was suddenly alarmed when I saw the gathering of young men drinking alcohol, the smell had already been smelled from where I stood, trying to think whether I should pass them or I should find another way, if I look for another way the possibility to get home is getting late and other routes that include roads that are arguably quite quiet.

I almost screamed when a car blocked my way and stopped just as I stopped. I turned to look at the car, wanted to curse the person inside it could-can he stop at will.

However, my intention was stalled when I recognized who the owner of the car was. Why is Jefri around my house at this hour?

"Where are you from?" ask after opening the window glass next to the driver's seat. I did not budge at all nor did I intend to answer him.

Didn't get any answers from me Jefri told me to get into his car and without a second thought I immediately entered his car, compared to I had to go through the crowd of young people earlier or choose to find another way that is quieter.

"You haven't answered my question, Al, where have you come home so late? Tama's very worried about you." I turned my face too lazy to look for answers to his questions.

"Mas, the more days why the more act like a Tama mas?" I was surprised, because Jefri mas is too excessive, I am not who and he is only a friend of Tama mas even though I know him closely does not mean that I allow him to know all about me, right?

I just want to get home quickly, today has been a very tiring day for me. Maybe it's because it's my first day at work and I don't think I'm used to it yet, so please don't ask me to argue and make my head hurt because it's hard to find another reason.

"Mas, I'm really tired of being able to get me home right now." I said a little pleading and then leaned on the car seat and closed my eyes because I felt pain in my head until I finally did not realize if I was asleep.

I don't know how long I've been asleep, I blinked my eyes many times trying to collect all my life and circulate my eyes around it turns out I was still in Jefri's car, with him who is faithful beside me.

I glanced at the driver's seat and saw Jefri, who was leaning, closing his eyes with his arm, I unknowingly checked my phone to find out how long I had been asleep. Why didn't he wake me up?

"Away awake?" tanyanya gently.

"Why not wake me up? you waited for me for almost an hour for this? there's more I can do than just keep me asleep."

"You look tired so you can't wake you up, what are your college assignments piling up? I've never seen you up to this Al."

Please stop, stop treating me like this. I'm just afraid it's getting harder to let you go because there's a heart I have to take care of anyway. "Better mas Jefri go home or mas can take Kiara on a date, not a bad idea in my opinion considering it's Sunday night." I suggested to him, mas Jefri just smiled thinly.

"Mass?"

"I'm just making sure you don't get any scolding from Tama" he said.

I ignored him and went back inside the house, then found Mas Tama who was waiting for me in the living room alone. I think you've been resting in her room.

"Alleta where have you been? can not be a day just do not make mas or mother worried? what are you doing today?"

"As per what I thought the other day about me, I was looking for money from them" I said impressed relaxed. Mas Tama clenched her hands and walked up to me.

"Repeat what you say?"

"Listen to this carefully, I just came home from serving them. Hows it? is that what Tama wants to hear from me? so mas Tama does not need to wonder anymore or find information from others, just I tell you." I said.

I'm not entirely lying because I'm indeed making money from serving them, they're here what I mean is cafe visitors Brother Sean because I work as a cafe waiter there.

"You.." Tama's words choked when Jefri pulled me away from Tama and took me to stand behind him.

"He's the same way I am Tam."

"Mas Jefri lied we just met in front of the compound."

Mas Jefri turned towards me as fast as lightning, drawing me with his sharp gaze as if speaking and asking me to be silent for a moment.

"Gue thinks you misunderstood. Ale can't do that Tam, we both know how Alleta's attitude and nature are."

"Mas, stop helping me because I'm not a kid anymore. Whatever you want to say about me, I don't care. If you think I'm like that I can just grant your charges. I'm an adult, I don't like being set up and for you Mas Jefri please don't care about me anymore because there's a heart you have to take care of, I just don't want to hurt my best friend."

"Jefri and I don't have anything to do with everything Jefri said was not true, I'm tired of having to lie all the time so stop asking me to do stupid things again."

"For you mas Tama, maybe in the future I will be busy because I am pursuing some SKS to finish my lecture faster because I do not want to bother you constantly. I know your burden is heavier later so no need to worry about me coming home late or rarely at home, but just calm down I will always help take care of your mother." added me again, I alternately looked at Tama mas and Jefri mas who was looking at me in disbelief, something wrong with my words? it's time I took out all my heart. I told you at first that I'm getting tired of this.

I left them both without saying goodbye first. When climbing the stairs I heard the voice of mas Tama who asked for an explanation to Jefri, just let them finish it I also did not care if later they had to fight because of me. Tell me I'm evil, yes I may be evil, but who cares.