Dear Mas J's
Evades
The matter of expressing love to the loved ones is indeed a difficult matter including with me, not everyone has the courage to express their true feelings and can either be said to be a progress or even a foolishness when I expressed my feelings yesterday to Jefri.
There are several underlying reasons people are afraid or ashamed to express love one of which I fear is not rejection but rather he who will stay away from my life because honestly I am not ready, 5 years old Jefri always disturbed my life is not easy for me to forget when we were together even though he only considers me as his sister.
Indeed, if the love rejected is very painful, the pain is like a knife stuck in the heart causing a gaping wound but not bleeding.
"Wake up?" tanya Aju entered her room. I sleep on the couch and I borrow his room for me to sleep in but I haven't been able to sleep in at all from last night.
I accidentally turned off my phone after contacting Tama because Jefri, Sean's brother and Karin's brother who contacted me continuously since last night.
"Lifein mobile lo Al, I'm tired in the terror continues the same bang Jefri."
"Where does he know?" where did Jefri know where to look for me.
"They're not stupid Alleta, they know Ningning's house is next door to mine automatically I must know that you're staying there. I think you should hear the explanation first."
"What's Jun for? to hurt me again? I convinced myself not to care about him anymore, not to meet him and not even want to know him."
"Don't joke Ale." said Ajun with a serious look the gaze he always gave me if I was unruly or difficult to give advice.
"Gue again did not try to entertain Lo Ojun. I should be entertained with you here. Anything that makes me happy or laugh is up to you, you want to kayang in front of me or use my front negligee was not a problem. Lo my best friend, right? I don't need any advice."
"Lo again sad or again craving? your request surprised me enough."
"Gue is quite stressed Jun feels like he wants to be lured by wealthy men" I said.
"Relatedly? I'm saying bang Tama huh? ask to be betrothed with Dirga only if so, obviously he is a person, smart, handsome, dead love equally lo. What else is Al? instead of you continuing to pursue his love bang Jefri."
Looking back at Ajun, I glanced at the clock attached to the wall in the corner of this room. "Lo's clock is broken, huh? I'm just daydreaming but why is it 9 am." I said astonished.
"Not the clock is broken, your brain is damaged by a broken heart overnight crying bang Jefri a. It's true that falling in love is just as heartbroken as making people stupid."
"Huh? oh my God I have to go to cafe brother Sean there's a lecture schedule later at 11, I don't want to go home late again pity the mother even I haven't met Lili's mom."
"Quick breakfast after that shower I take you home all to campus. I go to the cafe, right? his name is Sean I have to meet."
"No need to fuck around." I joke.
"What the hell? I'm just making sure he's as sincere as you or as he wants."
"Whatever, I borrow your shirt."
"Wear as much as you love" he said to me.
"Nonsane."
Ajun just laughed at my words then walked away from his room after he turned around on the doorstep. "Remember not to open the middle cupboard, my sacred object." he threatened, sometimes I feel curious about the contents of the middle closet that his but I was afraid if later I was made to faint when opening it.
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Looking in front of the house and the garage is quiet that means there is no mas Tama is also his best friend, at least I am safe not to see them this afternoon. I invited Ajun to enter the house and crucified the mother.
"Mother asked you to come home at 10pm instead of coming home at 10pm Al." I know you insinuated me, feeling guilty I fell silent for a moment and apologized to you.
"Sorry mother last night I must accompany Ningning who is alone at home" I replied lying. The only silent adjunct did not want to interfere with the conversation of me and mother.
"Have you had breakfast?"
"Udah mama." Reply Ajun.
"Mother where's Lili's mother? I have not met him." asked me to find a figure of a mother who will help take care of the needs of the house and also accompany the mother.
"To the market was among Jefri's children but not yet home until now." hearing the mother's remark that the new Jefri mas from here I rushed to the room and prepared.
"Bun I went to the room, Jun took a drink of his own in the kitchen ya."
Mother only shook her head slowly when she saw my behavior. I thought Jefri wouldn't be here today but it turned out I was wrong it didn't seem like he would give up on me.
I don't know what it would be like if I accidentally met him, trying like nothing happened is that possible? I just feel bad about Tama's friendship with her later.
I turned on my phone all night that I accidentally turned off. Lots of new notifications coming in.
...Jefri...
...Where are you?...
...You're with Ajun?...
...Ale, we need to talk....
...I'm sorry I should have.......
^^^Alleta don't worry me, at least read my message.^^^
...Al are you home? I'm taking you to college, right?...
...Can we meet? don't keep avoiding me...
...Al I'm picking you up, right? you're still at Ningning's house?...
...I'll pick up later in the afternoon don't avoid me anymore or I'll tell Tama about this....
Why is he overreacting and threatening me to tell mas Tama. The stupidity is up to him.
...Mas Tama's...
...When home?...
...Jefri's looking for you, I don't know what's wrong with you but he looks frustrated. Don't avoid trouble, you and your mom never teach you to be a coward. Go home and meet with Jefri....
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...Brother Rossie...
...Ale are you okay?...
...it's okay darl. There's something I want to ask you....
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...Jefri...
My message is not a newspaper.
So sorry.
^^^^^^
can we meet up?
^^^Sorry, I'm busy
Busy to avoid me?
^^^^Maybe^^
^^^I have forgiven you so don't bother me anymore^^^
I'm really sorry I didn't avoid me or hate me Al.
...You blocked Mas Jefri's...
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...Mas Tama's...
...Unblocked Jefri Al, you guys who are fussy why should mas in repoti? Your quarrels are like domestic quarrels in general. ...
Why do both stress me.