Dear Mas J's
Looking for Another Love

Since then I just stirred up the cup of coffee I was making, completely unaware of Sean's brother who called me so many times that Joana who was beside me woke me from daydreaming. I gasped when I realized that four pairs of eyes were looking at me anxiously.

"I'm sorry, I.." said I stuck feeling hesitant to explain to them because I was caught in a daydream, mother's words last night always ringing in my head. There is guilt when you know me and Jefri mas weave love, I think you know the news from mas Tama.

"Is it true that you have a relationship with your old friend dek? and why did you decide to split up? frankly, you are happy when you find out that you are in love with her, you bless her but it turns out destiny says something else. Whatever your decision will be supportive. Mother's daughter has grown up believing in you and is sure you know what's best for you and what's not."

"Mother's goal is to ask you to come here because we have not talked like this for a long time, you and your mas are too busy with your activities. Mother does not feel lonely with the existence of Miss Lilies now but mother asks for one thing never a misunderstanding between you and your mas. Mother knows if your relationship is not good anymore. Mother will not interfere because you believe your son and daughter can solve the misunderstanding with a cold head."

"But remember if you need a mother, mother is always there for you dear. Only a mother can understand her children. If you do not feel strong come to the mother do not ever hesitate to ask for help to the mother or your mas. Then what about your college? everything went well, right, baby?"

At first I was afraid that my mother would ask me about the warning letter I got but in fact not, maybe I was too worried to make me feel depressed and anxious every day.

"Are you sick Al? I noticed that you were just stirring the glass until the water spilled and blabbed everywhere." My eyes flashed to the glass of coffee I made, I grimaced in my heart. What did you just do, Alleta? how can you dream at work?

"Sorry brother next time won't be like this anymore" my great-grandson softly.

"Jaudah is back at work, Joana please help Alleta today" Sean said. I just feel guilty. Joana patted my back slowly, I looked at her pretty bead eyes, Joana was very pretty with shoulder-length hair looking fresh on her face.

"If more thoughts are not harbored you can share them with me." he said my heart warmed up again.

"Thanks Jo I cleaned this first." I haven't had time to walk towards the warehouse that contains mop and other equipment my movement was blocked by Joana.

"Oh yes Al, yesterday I accidentally met Brother Jefri with a woman at the cafe, at first I thought it was you but after I approached him it was not you. Your relationship with him is fine, right?" tanyakanya.

Have I not said it yet if I have no relationship with Jefri? "We decided to split up." said softly impressed relaxed like nothing happened to me, in fact there is no relationship between me and Jefri mas.

"really? are you serious Al?" Well I don't believe this I think you guys can get to a more serious level." he said, I just smiled in response.

"There is no match between us Jo for what continues again, rather than us hurting each other later." I said.

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"Kiara's? Ki?!" called him. I followed Kiara from earlier, asking her to speak to me to clear up yesterday's misunderstanding.

"Kia, please don't gini. I'm sorry if for example I hurt your heart or make your relationship with Jefri mas stretched but you should know Ki I have no intention even for that. I and Jefri did not have any relationship, I know him because he is a friend of Tama mas. I beg you, I want us to be like the old threesome with Ajin. Sorry I'm Kiara. Yea?" I said beg. I looked at Kiara's back who was away not responding to me at all. Was my mistake too fatal to make her behave like that towards me?

My feet quickly swerved towards Kiara walking backwards in front of her. "Let me know what other mistakes I made to you so I can fix it Ki, you still think I'm your best friend..."

"Sir Dirga, sorry I shouldn't have walked like that" I said then cleaned my pants a little dirty.

"Your knees are bleeding, are you sure all right?" tanyanya's worried.

I noticed my matted shirt and my torn pants right at the knee, fresh blood coming out of it. "I'm okay brother, small wound." I chuckled back.

"Ale?" I turned towards Jefri because I recognized his voice. "You seen Kiara? I've been waiting in the parking lot but haven't been seen yet."

"She.." I stopped as Jefri squatted in front of me watching my wounds.

"Why are you bleeding?" tanyanya panic. Please I've been asking since yesterday not to care about me but in fact my request is like the wind and then for her.

"Because of Kiara." I'm not the voice but Dirga's brother. I turned to look into his eyes to give him a code so that Dirga did not say a word to Jefri. I'm really afraid that if it will cause another commotion, it's enough for me to get a warning letter.

"Lo wants to know why Alleta can get like this? it was all because of her best friend, Kiara. I didn't know what the problem was with the two of them until I saw Alleta begging Kiara and even her best friend casually leave Ale who fell for chasing her. I don't think there's a woman who's as selfish as her."

"Don't just judge Dirga. We never know their real problems." - Jefri.

Yeah, course. I smiled when I realized Jefri was defending Kiara. Right, it's not entirely Kiara's fault because I'm the fool here. I could walk backwards in a crowded place like this.

"Lo can say that because you didn't see it, I saw it from the beginning and I heard everything Alleta said. Mending you look for Kiara aja bang no interest anymore right here? I also wonder why you can freely roam here." said brother Dirga indifferent.

I Stare at Dirga's brother in awe, I did not expect that he would defend me in front of Jefri mas at this time.

"Al about the letter I beg you not to misunderstand."

How do you ask me not to misunderstand you, by giving it to Tama is the same way you corner me and make me misunderstand him again.

"Yes.Has it? how many times do I have to tell you not to care about me anymore? it feels like my words the other day just became the wind. Please persuade Kiara to talk to me." I don't care who's between us now that I've reached my weak point.

I felt cornered when I did nothing wrong.

If loving Jefri was a mistake, I would step back and look for another love.