Dear Mas J's
The Fact's

"Dec, what's wrong with you? why are you still crying? the beauty will disappear. You see for yourself, mother is okay, mother is just a stomachache. Masmu it's panic is too excessive, but mother does not need to loh until it has to be in an opname like this." explained mother complained to me.

I glanced at Jefri who was looking at me pity. "No matter what mother, I cried because of Jefri mas" I said, who initially intended to joke to distract the mother.

Hearing me complaining to mother, Jefri just chuckled softly not intending to reply to anything.

"Jefri, Mama tipped Alleta with you huh? if someday the mother is not in the midst of you, mother please be with you to take care of the mother's daughter." said the mother lirih.

"What's mama talking about? don't talk so much!" my sentakku.

It was the first time I spoke rudely to my mother because I had never once shouted at my mother. "I don't like talking!"

"Alleta." said Jefri to me.

"I don't like it. I don't like you talking like that. Mother will continue to be with us until I and Tama are married, until we have children and mothers who play with their grandchildren. Mother..."

"Hey, hey, you hear me, don't be so cool" said Jefri, interrupting my lines and clinging to my two cheeks with his hands.

"Ale, you don't mean that, baby. We never know when the death will pick up, mother just wants after the mother leaves later, mother can calm because you mother entrust with the right person." explained the mother looked me in the eyes.

This is not what I want mother, I do not want to be entrusted to anyone, I just want to be with mother.

Without answering anything, I let go of Jefri's two loyal hands cupping my face and walked away from there. I have no power to hold my cry anymore.

Mas Tama who had just arrived looked astonished to see me with a lowered face walking out of the mother's room so that I accidentally hit her shoulder slowly.

"Alee."T..."

"Let me, you take care of your mother" said Mas Jefri who still sounded in my ear.

I walked towards the garden behind the hospital because the atmosphere was quite quiet and also the sky was getting darker. I felt Jefri sitting on a long bench, right next to me.

"I know this is hard for you and your mas but with your attitude like that will not be able to finish anything Al, you know very well that Tama needs support from you as well. So don't add to the burden of his mind. You must be strong both in front of the mother and in front of Tama. You can depend on the same mas because you already think of as your own brother. Think about all this well, apologize to your mother for hurting her heart earlier."

"Mass?" call me.

I turned towards him with tears that had been freefalling on both of my cheeks since then. Mas Jefri just mutely watched the roar of my tears that increasingly flowed.

"I'm not ready, I can't afford to lose my mother so soon" I said quickly with a single breath.

"Nobody is ready to face the situation when the time comes for parents to be gone. Especially when we are close to both of them including you, your task is now to take advantage of valuable time by making your mother happy. I know it's not easy to move on with life when your father is gone. So is the ordeal you're facing right now." she changed her position to rest on one leg in front of me, clasping my hand on both of my thighs.

"Alleta, the real life is not ours. When destiny says otherwise, inevitably we must accept it. So, I beg of you to be more patient and strong in dealing with all this. I know you Al, you can definitely get through it all, there is no harm in praying. The Lord will grant it if you ask him earnestly." said Jefri, wiping my tears with his thumb.

"Mas, thank you for everything. Sorry if all this time I and Tama's been bothering Jefri mas."

"What are you talking about, Tama's my best friend and you're Tama's sister so don't ever hesitate."

"Don't cry. Your face is so messed up that you cry like this." he sneered, I punched his arm slowly making Jefri laugh. Without warning she pulled my body into her arms.

Mas, I don't know why your embrace has always been my most comfortable place after Tama's hug.

"We're going home, right? you told your friends, right?" jefri's hand stroked my aura softly, asking me to continue in this position because I felt more and more comfortable.

"Hm."

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Mas Jefri and Kiara are cooking in the kitchen. I'm not allowed to help them, he said it's better that I take a break. However, my rest time was interrupted because of the Adjunct who was plaguing me earlier.

"Don't be sad continue to dong Al, I must always be there for you" he said then curled my neck. Who had felt touched because his attention suddenly collapsed because of his treatment. I swiftly pushed her body away and ran towards the kitchen.

"If you like what?"

I walked slowly over to Jefri and Kiara who were talking. Sometimes they jokingly make my heart feel something different.

I don't know, they look so close that they've never spoken this close before.

"Music? all kinds of music I like but I prefer R&B, hip hop and Jazz." Kiara replied with a smile.

Since when did Kiara like that music? would he rather read than listen to music? even when I invited him to come to a jazz concert, he wouldn't want to come with me.

"Oh yeah? same me. Anytime if you have time I'll show you where my subscription bought it." I frowned at me trying to understand Jefri's intentions.

"Ah, thank you brother."

"What's right here?" tanya Ajun whispered in my ear.

"What?" my reply raised my voice a little. "What the hell is Jun, why drag me here?!"

"Sit." he said.

I sat right next to him, Ajun took me to the back garden, not knowing the purpose of bringing me here.

"If you like it, say don't hold it yourself." Ajun suddenly choked on my own salivary, I turned to him in amazement.

"Where do you know?" manya curious.

"Grandmothers also know that if you have other feelings for her, she's just a fool not aware of it."

"Ajun can get a small volume of lo sound? jefri will hear. I also don't expect more, I just want him to be happy with the woman of his choice."

"Classic lo, where there's Ale. You have to fight if you like it, do you forget now the time is different? there's nothing wrong with a woman declaring her love first, I just don't want you to regret Al and you deserve the best."

"Jun, she doesn't love me because she just thinks of me as her sister. I also knew I couldn't force him to love me. Only you know this problem, I hope you do not tell anyone including Kiara" I said giving him a warning.

"Lo really isn't afraid if for example he has more relationship with Kiara?"

"Want to?"

"Do I have a reason to forbid them from falling in love with each other?" It was frustrating to hear my answer.

"Jun, Jefri and Kiara... These are the people I love. Even if they love each other, what can I do?"

"It is difficult if you talk to you, it feels bored also me if you have to give a warning to not be too good with others. Remember you have me, if there's any story with me, don't be harbored alone."

I slammed into the arms of Ajun, this friend from my Elementary School era is indeed the best.

"Thank you Adjunct me dear." I said dramatizing, burying my head in the chest of his field.

"What are you doing?"

Ajun and I turned to the source of the voice and looked at Jefri who was staring at us meaningfully, please do not misunderstand me.