Dear Mas J's
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Disappointment makes my heart sad and have a bad mood that will make my attitude change than usual.

If it says whether I am angry with mas Tama the answer is no, I am not angry with him, I am only disappointed because he does not believe me as his sister.

Sometimes the person who is considered to love us the most will be the most disappointing person in our lives and I experience it now, I know that holding a sense of disappointment is not a good thing to do but, I can't help it either.

I contacted Ajun last night and asked him to come home after Tama mas left which I believe Tama mas back to the hospital to see the mother.

Ajun himself looked surprised when I told him about my problem of quarreling with mas Tama. "Who dares to slander you? I also do not know about this, bang Jefri did contact me last afternoon looking for the whereabouts of lo if even to campus he would have met Kiara. You remember today I went with Dery, right Al? Al I remember you once again huh? You have to be careful with Kiara, from the first my feelings to her were never good, I can know which ones are sincere and which ones are playful." Obviously Dejun was at length last night. I can't possibly have any negative thoughts towards Kiara because I knew Kiara since High School, she couldn't possibly mean anything to me.

My ears heard the knocking of the door from the outside as if someone was visiting. I set foot into the living room and intend to welcome the guest.

Mas Jefri stopped his beat when I appeared before him. "If you're just slandering me, it's better to get out of here" I said flatly and then tried to close the door again, but Jefri held it down with one of his legs.

"Mas wants to talk to you."

"For what? I'm the same with Tama who doesn't care about my feelings. I don't want to talk to you guys for now, I'd better go home because I have to go to college now."

"Interstall the gas? at once we pick up Kiara." she said impressed relaxed, my heart throbbing pain as she intends to pick up my best friend. What is their relationship?

"Since when have you been close to my best friend?"

"Because, I like Kiara Al. she's..."

"Ok, I approve of you. Kiara's a good boy, if you love him please, I won't forbid, as far as I know he is still alone. I can pick up Kia now, I'm waiting for Ajun. I'm sorry I need time alone." I obviously didn't see his eyes.

My disappointment multiplied and made me hate myself. My tears began to flow as Jefri left me without saying goodbye and without a word.

"Jun, why does it hurt? lo's right. I'm sorry now."

"Heh, Ale you why is it in front of the terrace roaring?" asked Ajun panicked as he got off his bike, I looked at him weakly and he came up to me who was drooping on the porch.

"Lo why Al? not usually if there is a problem like this. The Alleta I know is strong." You won't understand Jun it feels like being let down by two people at once, both the ones I really care about the most and also the place I lean on.

"Mas Jefri Jun's. I'm salting."

"Bang Jefri why?"

"She likes Kiara, I'm sorry Jun I shouldn't have this hiks... ke.what's it like sa-kit?"

"Listen Al he's not your soul mate. Lupain bang Jefri's. I don't want my best friend to look fragile just because of a man, there are still many things that you have to mind and be your priority, mother. You have to be strong for your sake" she said, calming me down and pulling my body into her arms. My best friend, thank you for always being there for me.

"Jun, why am I being stared at like that? there's something strange about my appearance, isn't there?" ask me to Ajun because I feel uncomfortable being noticed along the campus corridor, even when I get off the Adjunct motor.

I re-examined my clothes one by one, there was nothing wrong, still looks polite and also my makeup is still neatly arranged and what is with those who look at me seem to dislike?

"Oh, isn't this the woman whose face is on the notice board?" they say they whisper. But we can still hear. I just turned to look towards the short Ajun who was rewarded with an ignorant look from him.

"That's on the rame bulletin board what the hell is it?" tanyakanya.

My eyes shifted back to the crowd of students who began to bustle and cheer. What announcement exactly?

"Ale, will you come with me sometime? I know om-om tajir twisting." said Jessie passed me along with her friends, then I only heard Jessie's laughter exploding laughing at me.

"Jun, what does this mean? I don't understand." Ajun ran towards the notice board and tore off one of the photos that I myself did not know what the photo was. I flinched as the voice of the Ajun rose to make them move away from there "BUBAR! DISPERSE ME SAY! DISPERSE YOU!"

"Jun why get angry? what's inside?" ask me to try to reach the paper that has been torn because of the action.

"It's nothing, I take you to class."

"June! Ale!" me and Ajun turned their heads towards the source of the voice that called out to us. Kiara's? did he just arrive?

"Where did you get to this hour? end the road with the new guy lo hum?!" ajun Sarcas. I glanced at Kiara who just kept quiet not against Wjun's words.

"Jun." I rebuked, it's not Kiara's fault that Jefri liked her. I'm wrong here for forcing my heart to love Jefri.

"That's what you're holding?" asked Kiara pulled the paper in Ajun's hand and opened it, my eyes widened when I saw the same picture of me as the Tama mas showed last night attached to the notice board, is this what Jessie meant earlier? this is overkill. Who did it? I feel like I have no enemies.

"What the fuck? who would dare to do this. Relax Al I must have found out about this." Kiara said in a raised voice.

"I'm okay guys, we better get to class."

"Who would do this to Lo Al? I know I have no enemies." Kiara spoke again as we climbed the stairs one by one.

"Gue also did not know that clearly this photo was just a misunderstanding because I fell at that time, if not because the father who helped me maybe I was already in the hospital now." Kiara nodded in understanding.

"Oh yes I want to tell the same story, wrong if I like the same brother Jefri?" tanyanya to the point.

If you ask me? there is nothing wrong with loving someone because it is not a mistake. If you knew I loved her too would you back off? it's okay Ki, love him as much as you can let me back down because from the beginning I chose to keep him alone.

Maybe I did something stupid still loving someone who obviously loved my own best friend but take it easy I won't bother you. If I am faced with a choice, choose you or choose Jefri I will choose you Kiara because you are my best friend.