Diamond Luster
106. Suppose that....

The change in attitude of Diamonds in these 2 days made the Stars reflect a lot. Since their debate that night about Diamond's desire to have children, Diamond has changed a lot. He was quieter and not as happy as before. The diamond's generous smile and spirit often she finds crying while holding her own stomach. Every time Bintang asks why she is crying, she replies it's okay. The star feels the diamond does not want to open and prefers to hide its own weight. But there is one thing that makes the Stars so alarming about the state of Diamonds. He often vomits when he wakes up or smells strange, whether the smell comes from food or from perfumes. Same thing happened this morning. The diamond came out with a pale face like the previous morning. Diamonds do not give the opportunity to accompany the star to the bathroom to let out vomit because it always locks the bathroom door from the inside. When the bathroom door opened, Diamond did not allow her to hug her body even for a moment. Though the Star felt so anxious to hear the diamond vomit, so did her pale face come out of the bathroom. 

"Lian we go to the doctor, huh?. For a few days you have been sick. I'm afraid you're okay" Star never got tired of persuading his wife to check.  The personal doctor who is usually called home is currently abroad.

"No need!. I'm just vomiting normally. There is nothing to worry about, it will also heal itself." he replied as he walked and sat on the bed. 

The star breathed a disappointed breath. Again and again, Diamond rejected his good intentions. 

"This is from three days ago you always said that. But, what proof?. Your vomiting is not healed but it is becoming like this. I don't want to know, you have to come with me to the doctor, right now" The star insisted and carried the Diamond. But Diamond quickly stood up and dodged the Star. 

"stop forcing me" Diamond's tone of voice snapped slightly.  Flabbergasted star. He did not expect that the Diamond would hit him without this reason. 

"Well, if you don't want to. From today on I won't care about you either" The star ignited his emotions. 

The star quickly snatched his briefcase that had been prepared by Diamond before. 

"Star..." The diamond first hugged her husband's body from behind. Silent stars a thousand languages. Two days already he missed his wife's warm embrace like this. 

"I love you, Bin. I can accept whatever your shortcomings are and never make them a burden in my life. But I can't deny the fact that I can't stay with you forever. If it is the fact that you and I cross the road, my love for you will never subside, and there is a greater love for you because you have made perfect as a woman. You're making me not alone in facing my life out there if I don't understand you anymore" 

The star spontaneously turned his body and came face to face with his wife. Highlight his eyes so frightened concluded the meaning of the words that came out of the mouth of the woman he loved. 

"yank, why are you talking like this?. What do you mean you said all that?" 

Diamond tried to force her smile and held back her tears from coming out. 

"Darling, I beg you not to convolve like this. Tell me, what's the matter with you?" The star placed his hands on both of his wife's cheeks and looked at her deeply. 

"I love you, Star. Forever" 

Only those words could be spoken by Diamond while lowering the hand of the Star from her face, then kissing the back of her husband's right hand. 

"You're going to work, right?" 

The stars nodded without spirit. 

"You're leaving now, you'll have bad luck" Diamond smiled as sweetly as possible. However, his gaze was empty. 

The star felt bland with the treatment of Diamonds for him. But he tried to give a kiss unfortunately full of feelings. 

"I love you so much. And I will never tire of fixing shortcomings so that you can last forever with me" he whispered softly after being satisfied to kiss his wife's forehead. Diamonds as strong as possible survive so as not to look weak and whiny in the eyes of the Star.

The star went to work with a raging chest groping the meaning of his wife's words earlier. 

From behind the curtains of the bedroom door window, Diamond stared softly at her husband's departure as her hand rubbed her stomach. 

"Bin, I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant with your child" 

Those words that Diamond wants to convey directly to her husband. However, she was afraid to imagine what a star would react to if she knew she was pregnant. It is possible that Bintang will ask him to abort his womb because Bintang has openly refused to have children. Until anytime, Diamond will never want to abort a fetus like his own life. If Bintang simply ignores or does not want to know with her own flesh and blood, Diamond can still accept because she is sure she can take care of her child without the attention of her husband.

"Darling, you're fine in my mom's belly. You don't have to be afraid that your dad doesn't want you. But my mom will always be there for you. There is eyang farida, there is om arya, there is the same great-grandmother who must love you too" Diamond speaks for itself to the fetus in the womb. 

The ringing of a mobile phone from the top of the dressing table, forced Diamond to stop her daydream and move to reach her phone. 

Diamond picked up the phone from his friend. 

"Yes, tik... What's wrong?" 

Diamond was silent and listened carefully to what his best friend said. There was a feeling of guilt in Diamond at the time. 

"Sorry tik, some days I haven't been able to continue my novel. But you take it easy and please tell the publisher that I will finish my novel in time" he said. 

"Lian, if there is a problem, do not be too forced to type. Later I will try to ask for time laxity to the publisher. I'm sure, they must understand" said Kartika from sebrang.

"Thank you yes, tick "reply diamond. 

"if you have anything, tell me the same story" 

Diamond smile. He could not want to add to the burden of the mind of his best friend who was in trouble with his father. 

"tick, let's continue our conversation next time, shall we?." 

Kartika doesn't mind. The phone connection was also cut off. 

Tok..tok.tok.tok.the sound of the door knock from outside. Diamond opened the door. 

"mama..." 

"Son, can you talk to me for a second?" pinta mama Farida's.

...****************...

Kartika turned off her phone, then looked down at the figure who was lying weakly in the hospital ward of a hospital. It was still clearly recorded in his mind, when last night his father fell unconscious as he continued to persuade his father to withdraw his lawsuit against Bintang. Kartika did not expect that his papa would have a heart attack once he knew his position was weak in the eyes of the law. 

"It should be today that I keep my promise to Arya. But seeing papa's condition like this, I don't think I can force him anymore" 

...****************...

In front of a small tomb, the Star squatted down and placed a bunch of white roses. 

"Moon" the name that comes out of the mouth of the star and corresponds to that inscribed on the tombstone. 

Not felt, his tears dripped down.The frightening impression of the incident many years ago revealed again. A petite body figure with a pretty face and an adorable cute smile danced around in the minds of the Stars. 

"sorry sister.." the cry of the Star broke as her shadow turned dark watching for itself how her biological mother took the moon out of the car in a lifeless stifle. All caused by his negligence to take care of his sister. The Moon's stiff body, her mother's heartbreaking cries, and her stepfather's hatred for her always haunts her.

"Moon, had it been that big brother that time been so good at looking after you, you would still be alive now. Surely, now you, brother, mama, are still gathered into a happy family. But, brother has already destroyed everything. If at that time you can take good care of your brother, you do not have to hurt the heart of Diamond this deep. You must know who Diamond is, because you sure you always observe brother from up there" The star was silent for a moment. 

"Diamond girl is very nice and big brother loves her very much. But, brother can not fulfill his wish because since your death, brother does not want to deal with small children anymore. Brother is afraid that if there are innocent creatures like you will be wretched again because of brother" 

"If none of this ever happened" 

If only one useless word.